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T is very loud today. Trying to deal with it and not break down. Seems like the same pattern every week. M-OK, T-Moderate, W - Severe, T- Moderate, F-OK, Sat -OK, Sun - Severe. OK is not great but livable. Its the humming, hissing, ear sensations... ugh... Sometimes I just don't understand the point of "this".

The tinnitus just keeps getting worse. I stay in my room or the hallway in quiet. Doesn't seem to matter.

Currently trying to not care about my tinnitus and hyperacusis and it's actually working. Tinnitus is less reactive and when it is, it doesn't last long (except for the 2 days of ambulance siren phantom noise I got lol)

I have made up my mind. I will not take a Xanax or other benzos before my medical procedure. The risk of a spike not worth it. Now I need to find a way to calm myself enough to be able to go through with the procedure.

Feeling really down. I'm so tired of having to live with this. The psychological and emotional burden of trying to be strong and carry on through every major spike has slowly chipped away at my resolve each time. It's so loud, louder than everything. Nothing can mask it. This is hell

Great, now trying to deal with a new sudden reactive tone/distortion on top of sounds, after 4 years with tinnitus, SBUTT's, scary inner ear sensations, TTTS, MEM, tinnitus spikes etc, now this. Shit keeps piling up. Do you think this can go away? After waking up it seems gone, and ramps up towards the night mostly.