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Feeling more resolute today. Despite the relentless and overpowering T now, I can remember that in the last 13 years I have had more good days than bad days. And on the best days, the T didnt matter one bit. That's got to count for something. I have to believe that I can make it through this hurdle. All I can do is take it one day at a time.
T is very loud today. Trying to deal with it and not break down. Seems like the same pattern every week. M-OK, T-Moderate, W - Severe, T- Moderate, F-OK, Sat -OK, Sun - Severe. OK is not great but livable. Its the humming, hissing, ear sensations... ugh... Sometimes I just don't understand the point of "this".
The tinnitus just keeps getting worse. I stay in my room or the hallway in quiet. Doesn't seem to matter.
Currently trying to not care about my tinnitus and hyperacusis and it's actually working. Tinnitus is less reactive and when it is, it doesn't last long (except for the 2 days of ambulance siren phantom noise I got lol)
I have made up my mind. I will not take a Xanax or other benzos before my medical procedure. The risk of a spike not worth it. Now I need to find a way to calm myself enough to be able to go through with the procedure.