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Feeling more resolute today. Despite the relentless and overpowering T now, I can remember that in the last 13 years I have had more good days than bad days. And on the best days, the T didnt matter one bit. That's got to count for something. I have to believe that I can make it through this hurdle. All I can do is take it one day at a time.
T is very loud today. Trying to deal with it and not break down. Seems like the same pattern every week. M-OK, T-Moderate, W - Severe, T- Moderate, F-OK, Sat -OK, Sun - Severe. OK is not great but livable. Its the humming, hissing, ear sensations... ugh... Sometimes I just don't understand the point of "this".
The tinnitus just keeps getting worse. I stay in my room or the hallway in quiet. Doesn't seem to matter.
Who is in their 20s as well??
Currently trying to not care about my tinnitus and hyperacusis and it's actually working. Tinnitus is less reactive and when it is, it doesn't last long (except for the 2 days of ambulance siren phantom noise I got lol)
I have made up my mind. I will not take a Xanax or other benzos before my medical procedure. The risk of a spike not worth it. Now I need to find a way to calm myself enough to be able to go through with the procedure.
Feeling really down. I'm so tired of having to live with this. The psychological and emotional burden of trying to be strong and carry on through every major spike has slowly chipped away at my resolve each time. It's so loud, louder than everything. Nothing can mask it. This is hell
Great, now trying to deal with a new sudden reactive tone/distortion on top of sounds, after 4 years with tinnitus, SBUTT's, scary inner ear sensations, TTTS, MEM, tinnitus spikes etc, now this. Shit keeps piling up. Do you think this can go away? After waking up it seems gone, and ramps up towards the night mostly.
Spent 3,5 hours at a really loud indoors fair. Averaging around 85-90dB. Was using my Sony ANC headphones and the new calmer extra, but feeling like it was not enough and I should have done more.. but it is what it is now. T feels bit more intrusive, but trying to keep anxiety at bay and look forward.
Struggling to find a job because of this crap because most work places are noisy.
TU Delft has announced a 2nd symposium on Tinnitus (June 11th). We could expect results of a bimodal device. Who'd like to go to the event with me?
I wish I struggled with this at the age of 80, not 26.
Bunch of permanent self harm scars on my arm thanks to T.
I hate this condition. I hate it.
Month 5. No change really, it may even be worse volume wise some days.
Had an encounter with the producer of the highest dB sound you can typically encounter: an ambulance! I was fewer than 2 meters away and got an earful of siren. Great. Will keep writing some updates.
Another gym incident. I am so frustrated. Some guy noisily adjusting the squat rack and then crashing the machines even though I asked him not to. And I went during the off-hours. Losing hope.
My dysacusis has improved by 85-90% - 8 months - Final update
When i was digging without earplugs i hit a stone extremly hard with my shovel and it made a superloud KLING sound... Im trying to just "go with the flow" more now and not go into panicmode everytime i hear something loud, i also try to not overprotect when i do normal not loud stuff (under 70 DB). Hope i dont spike, just wanted to do some relaxing gardening. -.-
A quiet and happy Easter to everyone!
Its hard to do stuff in the garden atm. Need to cut stones with a grinder so i have had my dad come to cut them for me since its to loud for me. Tried drill and use a chisel but got around 110DB so i didnt dare to challenge it. Third time my dad is here now to help me cut for like 2-3 minutes each time... Man he most think im supersilly.
The tones are a bit worse right now I think It's because I've been sick recently :/