Kriszti

I miss being able to control what I want to hear from the outside world. Earbuds probably did me in, but I miss them so much.

I'm getting fleeting T more and more frequently, but the episodes are way shorter (3-5s). Can this mean anything?

@Steph1710 If I recall correctly, you mentioned that you will have surgery to treat your PT. Is it not happening because of NHS?

Why is it so hard to understand for outsiders, that when it comes to tinnitus, "hair of the dog" approach is not a risk I'm willing to take.

So tired of this.

@HeavyMantra Could you tell me more about your recent diagnosis about low freq T?

I doubt that we will ever be taken seriously.

I really should just stop comparing my cognitive performance to how it used to be pre-T. It's absolutely depressing, but rather futile.

If it really must ring, why couldn't have waited a couple more years.

Baby steps: lately shower seems to spike me much less than before. Took more than a year and hopefully not jinxing it.

Much happier New Year to everyone! Stay safe and take care.

I wish you all happy and quiet holidays!

There is a party in my head, I wish I wasn't invited.

@HeavyMantra My spikes are normally volume and shrillness changes. I got 2 new sounds (I'm not counting the MEM), one stayed, one went away.

Low tone is quieter again, but UHF sound is nauseatingly shrill and metallic today. Third one is just there, being as annoying as always.

Low tone was gone for 2 days and now it's back. At least I would like to know what the heck triggers it.

Intermittent or constant tones are better? I've been dealing with my intermittent tones much worse lately than with the constant one.

Studying hundreds of pages for my exams seems absolutely impossible with tinnitus. Nice to experience my education going down the drain.

I so would like to have my (relative) freedom and control back. Does this ever stop sucking?

I feel like I'm losing my cognitive skills every day. Don't know whether it's due to T itself or the extreme lack of sleep.

Must be a special place in hell for charlatans making money off of other people's suffering.

Never ending hell.

@Steph1710 Is your T still gone? I hope so.

1 year anniversary

Low hum is a different kind of hell. It's not getting better. I'm just so tired, scared and hopeless.

New sound: like the wind is blowing in my right ear. Devastated, but hope it goes.

Everything sucks T-wise, but at least it turned out that my dog doesn't have cancer.

So loud

I am failing to stay calm with the low hum. Nothing masks it at night at a level which is not damaging for my UHF tinnitus.

The dreaded low hum is back after almost a year. Trying to stay calm and hoping that as always, it goes away in a couple of weeks.