mattryp

I miss music too...
The only music I get are the songs in my memories.

@Red Yeaaa, I've been doing the listening from memory thing too. Then I put the actual song on, and had to turn it down, realizing that the memory of it was sweeter, and had more clarity. Man, so depressing...

Yes, sadly it has changed.

I hate the person I am now. She should go away and let the real Red come back. But that will never happen. The real Red is dead.

Wow, so I’m not alone in this right now. I feel like because of it, most of my decisions, and interactions with people are off. Then I retrace it in my mind, ways I could've positively altered the experience, by changing key decisions / things said. Then guilt, how I can't be more complete right now, how I'm letting everyone down. I've been here before, but this time it feels heavier, and it's a shitty place to be.

@Bill Bauer Yea I'm thinking not to, but need to meditate on it some more. Just talked to a friend who thinks I should, but he doesn't really understand this condition.

Perhaps you can go to the ceremony / dinner and leave for the party when the music comes on?

Thanks guys. We actually agreed that I join them for the rehearsal ceremony / dinner a couple days before. I forgot how weddings have that. But that way, it's quieter, and we can actually have a convo / catch up.

@AZeurotuner Haha, I have the same reaction to those things, and have always respected the quiet cruisers. Props for owning one of those yourself. I knew a woman who was trying to explain the HD riding philosophy to me, and I kinda got it, but I don't get how those people don't have hearing damage from the wind / engine noise, esp when riding together. I'm sure that 99% of those riders don't plug up.

My town is swarming with them, and it's always good weather to ride in Tucson, Arizona, so they never hibernate... I hear them all day and night, very annoying, most can be heard from about a mile away. And trust me those guys definitely have hearing damage, they just don't care.

@AZeurotuner That's rough man, sorry you have to deal with that. I'm in the mountains, so we have motocross / atvs riding around too. But compared to 5-10 - 20-30 / constant HD riders, I'll just be grateful for what I have to deal with here, lol.