so many of you have been so amazing. I realize for my well being I HAVE to distance myself. I want my old life back and if that is with some ringing sometimes well I'm going to have to do it. It won't be easy but I can't continue to be looking on here for a while. I spoke to my uncle today who is the loveliest happiest person and he told me he has T so loud he hears it loud all the time and he said it NEVER has gotten him to the point of a panic attack. I realize everyone has different mindsets but for other reasons other than T I have to try to be a little more like that. If you are new just take my word. I've been to so many amazing doctors that also some suffer (well I should say they have T) from T. Anxiety DOES make it louder. My husband has it and he doesn't suffer. I have to for my own sanity somehow get to that point. I realize acceptance is HUGE. When I thought it was gone or almost gone I went through major mental breakdowns when I heard it again. I can't keep thinking it will get better. I have to accept this as part of me. Hopefully, even with my background in anxiety and panic I will become that way. That I only hear it when I listen for it. I have had 4 doctors say they live with it that way and 3 family members.