Hey there,
My name is Aurélien, I am from France and you might not be able to pronunce my name correctly
I wanna tell a little bit in this post about my life some years before and my life since I got tinnitus.
So I am pretty young man, only turned 22 a week ago. Pretty shy during high school, I have been escaping reality by using earphones pretty loud and playing video game. I had hyperacusis at a young age (16 or 17 yo) from earphones, but it was a pretty low one, it only annoyed me when putting at max volume my earphone. It fade away in a few months. I started smoking around 17 yo to be more "social" and then started partying a bit. From 18 yo to 21 yo I used to party at least once a week and kept listening to loud music through earphones.
Then as I get into PUA stuff when I was 20 and hit the clubs harder than ever (3 times a week) and of course without hearplugs. Then it happens, during one party in June, one friend of mine shouted on my left ear and I felt a horrible pain in my ear. Then back in the car to go home, I could ear a EEEEEEEEEEEEEE very very loud (could hear it throught the music) then as you might guess, it did not go away, day 1 day 2 day 3 etc.... still pretty loud and I get some anxiety through this. At first I read a lot about it and bought earplug, and kept going to clubs wearing them, but I did not enjoy it at all and decided to just not go to club anymore.
I went to an ENT, I had ear wax in my left ear, which made me pretty optimistic about my tinnitus fading away.
At first I thought it would fade away (like for many of us), and I was pretty optimistic. During this time I stopped smoking and my tinnitus got louder from the anxiety, but as I have asthma I needed to go through this because smoking was destroying my lungs.
3 months after the beginning of my tinnitus, I traveled to Russia for a month, went to party with earplugs and nothing got worse, or even better, but when the 4 months hit, I started to have huge anxiety from it. The tinnitus itself did not change but I started to have thoughts like "omg am I seriously going to live with this forever?".
Now it has been 5 month, my tinnitus did not change I believe, I have had mild hyperacusis which have had ups and downs. My mindset is not positive or negative about it, my tinnitus changes a lot, sometimes I can't hear it during day, sometimes it just fucks me up, but I try to not have thought about it thought it might happens I can't hear people as well as before because of the sound of my tinnitus. I don't go to clubs anymore and I am trying to learn new languages and build a business through the time I would spend inside. I still go to house parties where the music is not too loud, or to bar (outside). Drinking alcohol does not change my tinnitus, however stress does. And I wear earplugs in the gym or if it's somehow too loud or if I feel tired.
Now as a lot of people here I am still hoping for a cure, working hard to get the money to buy it (yea I am still student), my friends understand it and I am planning to see an ENT to know if I have had hearing loss through this proccess.
My only hope for now besides the cure is that it stays like that, I don't want this to ruin my goals, dreams and life. I am trying to see it as a scar from my PUA moment in the club and try to see it as a life lesson.
My name is Aurélien, I am from France and you might not be able to pronunce my name correctly
I wanna tell a little bit in this post about my life some years before and my life since I got tinnitus.
So I am pretty young man, only turned 22 a week ago. Pretty shy during high school, I have been escaping reality by using earphones pretty loud and playing video game. I had hyperacusis at a young age (16 or 17 yo) from earphones, but it was a pretty low one, it only annoyed me when putting at max volume my earphone. It fade away in a few months. I started smoking around 17 yo to be more "social" and then started partying a bit. From 18 yo to 21 yo I used to party at least once a week and kept listening to loud music through earphones.
Then as I get into PUA stuff when I was 20 and hit the clubs harder than ever (3 times a week) and of course without hearplugs. Then it happens, during one party in June, one friend of mine shouted on my left ear and I felt a horrible pain in my ear. Then back in the car to go home, I could ear a EEEEEEEEEEEEEE very very loud (could hear it throught the music) then as you might guess, it did not go away, day 1 day 2 day 3 etc.... still pretty loud and I get some anxiety through this. At first I read a lot about it and bought earplug, and kept going to clubs wearing them, but I did not enjoy it at all and decided to just not go to club anymore.
I went to an ENT, I had ear wax in my left ear, which made me pretty optimistic about my tinnitus fading away.
At first I thought it would fade away (like for many of us), and I was pretty optimistic. During this time I stopped smoking and my tinnitus got louder from the anxiety, but as I have asthma I needed to go through this because smoking was destroying my lungs.
3 months after the beginning of my tinnitus, I traveled to Russia for a month, went to party with earplugs and nothing got worse, or even better, but when the 4 months hit, I started to have huge anxiety from it. The tinnitus itself did not change but I started to have thoughts like "omg am I seriously going to live with this forever?".
Now it has been 5 month, my tinnitus did not change I believe, I have had mild hyperacusis which have had ups and downs. My mindset is not positive or negative about it, my tinnitus changes a lot, sometimes I can't hear it during day, sometimes it just fucks me up, but I try to not have thought about it thought it might happens I can't hear people as well as before because of the sound of my tinnitus. I don't go to clubs anymore and I am trying to learn new languages and build a business through the time I would spend inside. I still go to house parties where the music is not too loud, or to bar (outside). Drinking alcohol does not change my tinnitus, however stress does. And I wear earplugs in the gym or if it's somehow too loud or if I feel tired.
Now as a lot of people here I am still hoping for a cure, working hard to get the money to buy it (yea I am still student), my friends understand it and I am planning to see an ENT to know if I have had hearing loss through this proccess.
My only hope for now besides the cure is that it stays like that, I don't want this to ruin my goals, dreams and life. I am trying to see it as a scar from my PUA moment in the club and try to see it as a life lesson.
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