- Jan 18, 2024
- 187
- Tinnitus Since
- 2023
- Cause of Tinnitus
- Possible Ototoxic Reaction to Sertraline and Hydroxyzine
Hey fellow TTers,
I'm about 3.5 months into moderate to severe reactive tinnitus and TTTS. While I can confidently say I am dealing with it better, I have a base level of anxiety that never really goes away.
I feel guilty when it saps my attention. I'll be working and it just grabs me like a hand from the heavens. When it gets louder, I fear that it is my new normal. When I get comfortable with one tone, it changes. Even before sleep it will grip at me. I am always fearful it will worsen. Anxious that I will always have this condition forever and my soon-to-be second daughter will never know her father as the outgoing and generally fun man he was prior to tinnitus, and just a carapace who is all consumed by tinnitus.
Medication likely caused mine and while the anxiety sucks, it isn't bad enough to overcome my fear of medications worsening it. My therapist I'm seeing is at her wits' end with me because I can't just CBT my way out of tinnitus unfortunately. I want to exercise but I'm so exhausted by day's end that I just need to vegetate.
I understand some are fortunate enough to not be as affected, but for those who were/are — what changes do you think made a difference, and how long did it take for your tinnitus not to rule you?
I'm about 3.5 months into moderate to severe reactive tinnitus and TTTS. While I can confidently say I am dealing with it better, I have a base level of anxiety that never really goes away.
I feel guilty when it saps my attention. I'll be working and it just grabs me like a hand from the heavens. When it gets louder, I fear that it is my new normal. When I get comfortable with one tone, it changes. Even before sleep it will grip at me. I am always fearful it will worsen. Anxious that I will always have this condition forever and my soon-to-be second daughter will never know her father as the outgoing and generally fun man he was prior to tinnitus, and just a carapace who is all consumed by tinnitus.
Medication likely caused mine and while the anxiety sucks, it isn't bad enough to overcome my fear of medications worsening it. My therapist I'm seeing is at her wits' end with me because I can't just CBT my way out of tinnitus unfortunately. I want to exercise but I'm so exhausted by day's end that I just need to vegetate.
I understand some are fortunate enough to not be as affected, but for those who were/are — what changes do you think made a difference, and how long did it take for your tinnitus not to rule you?