A short while ago, in my 10th year of tinnitus, i went to emergency room in the hospital, telling them that i am cornered now, that my tinnitus is so bad that i either receive some help to decrease the volume and the pressure, or i have to think about a method to kill myself.
I also went recently to a neurologist. He recommneded me an MRI, combined with angio MRI, so with and without substance for contrast. I am so scared to go for the loud MRI. I am also afraid that the contrast substance may harm me, cause i remember just how bad i felt in 2009, during and after an angiogram with substance for contrast. (the substance burns, it got into one part of my head, and than the other, giving a burning sensation and getting into my eyeballs, which gave me a sensation that they got larger and they are about to explode and a fear that i will not have vision anymore with an eyeball that was invaded with burning substance. (On a side note, the angiogram was useless, the diagnosis was intracranial hypertension, but i did not receive recommendation for proper treatment).