I have a terrible mindset right now. I keep going back and forth on my thinking that everything is going to be ok...and then I wake up some days terrified of making my tinnitus worse. Some days I feel like it will fade because it gets so low...and others I feel like I have screwed myself and I'm stuck for life.
Basically I am gripped In fear most of the week. Just as I try and get out and back to extra work and make extra money...I was painting and as in a quiet room and my brother slammed a big wood door. Scared me to death and instantly I was in a panic that spiraled out of control for two days. There wasn't a spike but I made it worse by worrying.
I have two wonderful kids and wife and I feel like I'm putting them through hell. I think I need counseling, I don't know...it only happened 6 months ago but I can't get off this path.
Basically I am gripped In fear most of the week. Just as I try and get out and back to extra work and make extra money...I was painting and as in a quiet room and my brother slammed a big wood door. Scared me to death and instantly I was in a panic that spiraled out of control for two days. There wasn't a spike but I made it worse by worrying.
I have two wonderful kids and wife and I feel like I'm putting them through hell. I think I need counseling, I don't know...it only happened 6 months ago but I can't get off this path.