I'm Back After a Long Time with a Success Story — I No Longer Care About My Tinnitus

Discussion in 'Success Stories' started by Younggirl, Aug 18, 2021.

    1. Younggirl
      Studious

      Younggirl Member

      Tinnitus Since:
      August 2019
      Cause of Tinnitus:
      Combination of stress and music, still unknown
      I've been off for a while, and it's been very good. Ain't it funny that like 1.5 years ago I would visit Tinnitus Talk 2 times a day. Nowadays I forget that it exists. But today, I got this gut-feeling, or maybe it was God, that told me to step by and give an update. I promised myself to help others when I felt better. Felt free. I'm kinda there know. You can read further down about my story.

      Okay, let's break this down.

      1. First of all, I know what kind of pain you are in. What thoughts of despair and hopelessness you are dealing with. It somehow feels like your whole life is over. Robbed away from you. You feel out of your own body. Angry, terrified, lonely, sad, tired. I've been there. I feel you, I understand you. And the worst part, everybody else is carrying on with their lives, living happily as never before. I had to quit everything I was doing and loved. I moved home to my parents who lived in another city. I started from scratch. My mom could not leave me. A 22-year-old woman. I felt like a baby.

      2. I started going to an audiologist and came in contact with an amazing woman who had studied tinnitus for 30 years. THEY REALLY HELPED ME. They helped me understand how the brain works, how stress affects the body and tinnitus, taught me coping skills, gave me a lot of helpful tools and were just wonderful. It took some time to trust the process and even more time before I noticed changes. The funny thing is that most of the healing is about "accepting" and "forgetting". Which may seem like craziness. But it's true. Easier said than done tough. Anyways, life went on and I started to notice that I could go for minutes, sometimes 30 minutes, without thinking of it. And actually not hearing it either. When I did things I liked, I did not hear it. So I told myself to trust the professionals and carry on with the program.

      3. I know that "habituation" isn't something you want. You want it to be gone. FOREVER. I was there too. Till I started accepting that it may or may not ever go fully away. But I promised myself to not give up my life. Habituation or what you call it is REAL. I promise. And one day, you will be okay with it. I am. And I wanted to die at some point. I go most of my days not hearing it before bedtime. And it's so low that I quickly fade it out. The brain is so perfectly constructed that it can get used to so many unthinkable things. When I feed my tinnitus, I can hear it sometimes. But I've trained my brain to fade it out. Ignore it. So I'm basically free from it. I can say from the bottom of my heart that my life is almost just the same as before. I do take some caution with my ears of course. Protect the ears when the music is very loud. BUT I'M STRONGER. I know my body better. I know that when my tinnitus is a bit more noticeable, my body is stressed. Then I have to do some "cooling-down."

      I am now 24. I have a wonderful boyfriend who I live with. I have a lot of good friends and do many different things in my spare time. My life is full of blessings. And I now see my tinnitus as a little allergy that does not really mean SHIT.

      <3
       
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    2. Johan001

      Johan001 Member

      Tinnitus Since:
      05/2020
      Cause of Tinnitus:
      Medication
      Great progress, very well done!
       
    3. Mikkijan
      Fine

      Mikkijan Member

      Location:
      Ireland
      Tinnitus Since:
      10/2012 mild, 07/2019 worsened
      Cause of Tinnitus:
      Noise
      I'm so happy for you, and thank you for coming back to tell us about it.
       
    4. Ken219
      Frustrated

      Ken219 Member

      Location:
      New York Area
      Tinnitus Since:
      Summer of 1990
      Cause of Tinnitus:
      Noise exposure?
      Habituation is good until better treatments or cure arrive. I am happy you are doing good. Please know you need to protect your hearing --- that includes noise and medications. Thanks for your sweet post. Encouraging.
       
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    5. JasonP
      No Mood

      JasonP Member

      Tinnitus Since:
      6/2006
      Thanks for the update. The story of your habituation was inspirational to me.
       
    6. GregCA
      Jaded

      GregCA Member Benefactor Hall of Fame

      Tinnitus Since:
      03/2016
      Cause of Tinnitus:
      Otosclerosis
      It sounds like your tinnitus simply faded to a very low level and, as an expected consequence, it is much easier to deal with. Distress is strongly correlated with the intensity of the tinnitus stimulus, so it's not surprising that you're doing better. Congratulations!

      I don't know that I would call that a habituation, however. I consider myself habituated. I can hear my loud tinnitus 24x7, there is no "I don't hear it until...". It just doesn't surprise me anymore, and I've stopped talking about it. It's not a particularly good outcome, in my opinion. It's more like resignation.
       
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    7. Wrfortiscue
      Provocative

      Wrfortiscue Member

      Tinnitus Since:
      1999
      Cause of Tinnitus:
      Trauma
      How loud is it? Do you become depressed about it or obsess?
       
    8. GregCA
      Jaded

      GregCA Member Benefactor Hall of Fame

      Tinnitus Since:
      03/2016
      Cause of Tinnitus:
      Otosclerosis
      Loud enough to hear it everywhere. Nothing's ever masked it: shower, F-22 afterburner, fireworks, inside, outside, whatever. It never changes. No fluctuations. 24x7.
      Sometimes.
       
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    9. Wrfortiscue
      Provocative

      Wrfortiscue Member

      Tinnitus Since:
      1999
      Cause of Tinnitus:
      Trauma
      Damn, I'm sorry. Do you get a full night's rest at least?
       
    10. GregCA
      Jaded

      GregCA Member Benefactor Hall of Fame

      Tinnitus Since:
      03/2016
      Cause of Tinnitus:
      Otosclerosis
      I can't complain. My nights were already pretty bad before tinnitus, and thankfully tinnitus hasn't worsened that part.
       
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