Ketamine Infusion for Depression Ruined Me by Causing My Tinnitus

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    1. VeganJS

      VeganJS Member

      Tinnitus Since:
      2021
      Cause of Tinnitus:
      Ketamine infusion
      Hi,

      I suffer from severe depression and anxiety, and up to about 5 years ago, treatment with anti-depressants worked. Then my doctor recommended Ketamine infusion which I started about 2.5 years ago.

      I had all the normal effects as one does from this type of drug, except I received it in clinical settings.

      It was hit and miss whether or not it would work for my extreme, debilitating suicidal depression. When it worked, it was great. When it didn’t, it was just disappointing.

      I ended up on a very high dose for my last 5 or 6 treatments. I moved and had to switch providers a couple times.

      My last treatment was at the end of November 2021. I’d had 3 previous treatments with these anesthesiologists, but something went very wrong the last time.

      During my hour-long infusion, I had to have the treatment paused twice. That’s never happened to me. I became incredibly dizzy, and my ears started ringing like crazy.

      I had none of the usual experiences like disassociation or visual hallucinations. Instead, I became terrified.

      The doctor seemed baffled, but assured me that the ringing would go away within a day or two. It’s went away about 10 days later, but it was only for a single day.

      Here I am 4 months later, totally unable to function and feeling like I’ve lost my mind. I’ve had 4 quiet days in 4 months, 2 of which were back to back, but there’s been nothing but loud noises, different sounds, tones, sometimes many mixed together.

      Already having been easily annoyed by outside sounds, this is hell.

      That treatment ended up being the best one I’d ever had for my depression. It completely lifted it for over 2 months. Now I’m left with the old horrible depression, anxiety, and never-ending noise.

      Thank you for reading.
       
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    2. nogg
      Angry

      nogg Member

      Tinnitus Since:
      1984
      Cause of Tinnitus:
      Computer noise
      Wow. So sorry this happened. Indeed, medications can have serious effects of various kinds on hearing. Many people do experience a lessening or resolution of symptoms within a year, so don't give up hope.

      I would avoid anything that really makes your tinnitus worse, but otherwise try to continue your normal routines and activities. Many people with tinnitus also experience hyperacusis where all noise sounds louder, but especially impact or clanging noises, and that can be a real challenge in modern life.

      For most doctors, these conditions are out of their range of expertise. My guess is that an ENT or otolaryngologist would be of no help. Rather, I would suggest seeing an audiologist who has real experience in treating these issues, and maybe a counselor who also has expertise in these areas. You will need treatment from knowledgeable providers especially with your underlying depression and anxiety issues.

      Most people do get better or do learn to cope and continue their lives, so please remember that.
       
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    3. AUTHOR
      AUTHOR
      VeganJS

      VeganJS Member

      Tinnitus Since:
      2021
      Cause of Tinnitus:
      Ketamine infusion
      I’m applying for VAD in Switzerland. Existing has become unbearable.
       
    4. CC_16

      CC_16 Member

      Tinnitus Since:
      03/2022
      Cause of Tinnitus:
      Upper respiratory infection
      How old are you?

      Do you have kids?
       
    5. StoneInFocus
      Fine

      StoneInFocus Member

      Tinnitus Since:
      2012
      Cause of Tinnitus:
      Hearing damage, ear infections
      Hey, I understand how you feel, I've struggled with tinnitus & hyperacusis related anxiety myself. I've contemplated euthanasia because of my hyperacusis.

      Are you sure you want to end your life? There are so many treatments that'll help for tinnitus in the pipeline right now. We are in a place in history about which many tinnitus sufferers have dreamed of.

      There are also many supplements and medicines you can already try out now that might help with it.

      Are you currently taking any of them?

      I've had tinnitus for a decade know. Even though new tones and volumes always give stress, you'll eventually learn to adapt to them.
      Years go by so quick. Before you know it there is a treatment available.

      A few years of pain and suffering can never outweigh the hurt your family will feel if you really decide to do this.
       
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    6. LostinTX
      Yeehaw

      LostinTX Member

      Location:
      Arlington, TX
      Tinnitus Since:
      11/2020
      Cause of Tinnitus:
      poss ototoxicity/unknown/BVVP diagnosed first then tinnitus
      Have you improved at all in the past 7 months?
       
    7. AUTHOR
      AUTHOR
      VeganJS

      VeganJS Member

      Tinnitus Since:
      2021
      Cause of Tinnitus:
      Ketamine infusion
      My mother, sister and I don’t even know if the other two are dead or alive, nor do we care. I’m a childfree antinatalist. I also deal with chronic pain and many other health issues. I’m more than done with suffering. Menopause & tinnitus ruined my health and me. Men don’t get it, and neither do women who haven’t been through it or who it hardly affected.

      It’s terrible to try to lay a guilt trip on somebody who’s suffering. The most selfish thing people can do is breed. Nobody asked to be born, and EVERYONE should have the right to end their existence peacefully on their terms. Period!
      Nope. It’s gotten way worse. I had horrible insomnia before tinnitus. Now I’m lucky to get 4 or 5 hours of broken sleep in a night. And, I can’t deal with constant noise.
      I’m in my 50s and childfree.
       
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    8. GBB

      GBB Member Hall of Fame

      Location:
      NYC
      Tinnitus Since:
      2016-2019 (Mild, Cured) 8/2020 (Severe)
      Cause of Tinnitus:
      Virus / Microsuction / Acoustic Trauma
      Hey, try Mirtazapine for sleep. I’m two years in and it’s essential.
       
    9. ToughLife

      ToughLife Member

      Tinnitus Since:
      2021
      Cause of Tinnitus:
      Unchecked cellular proliferation
      Are you getting better? Are you applying for VAD at Pegasos?
       
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