Hi guys. sorry in advance if this ends up being long-winded. and i figure most of the questions i have are probably answered somewhere on this site but i guess it would just feel good to get some specific feedback and attention right now. I went to two loud concerts in the span of a week and did not wear protection for the louder of the two, as i stupidly decided in the moment that since i was seeing a 'noise' band the harshness was just part of the experience and i'd make a rare exception to my normal cautiousness. obviously i feel horrible about this and i'll never do it again if i even go to another concert. the other, latter show wasn't as loud and i wore protection, but the tinnitus started after that one. It's been just under two weeks. Of course it's very recent and i'm still holding out that it will fade, but in the meantime i've fallen into some pretty destructive habits/patterns of thinking and could really use some advice and support. i know that objectively my T is not super loud or abrasive. It is a low electric sizzle pretty similar to tv static or amplifier hiss, and there is also a dull wavering tone in my left ear that quite honestly could have predated the concerts as it sounds very similar to what i've always thought 'ambient household appliance noise' sounds like. i suspect that like many people i've had mild tinnitus for a while from shows, guitars, headphones, blah blah that i just never noticed. despite the T not being catastrophic in itself i am a bit of a hypochondriac and prone to all sorts of debilitating thought loops. i've been absolutely brutal on myself regarding my decision to not wear proper protection at the aforementioned concerts. i'm normally the person who brings extra earplugs to offer to friends. i really just can't let it go and can't help myself from being extremely fatalistic about never being able to enjoy music/silence/sleep, etc. again. the biggest problem is that whatever psychological advances i make in the daytime--i've been hiking and exercising a lot and generally feeling pretty good in the sunshine--are erased when i struggle to sleep at night. i live with my girlfriend and she's okay with a bit of whatever rain/ambient noise clips i've been playing on my computer speakers but i can tell it's interfering with her sleep, which is super important as she has chronic migraines and a stressful job. on the other hand, the couple times i've worn headphones at night i've found that the T was worse in the morning and that freaks me out and makes me think maybe headphones should be off limits, at least for a while? Not knowing what to do to get to sleep i've taken to pacing around the house, muttering to myself like a madman, and generally being depressed/implacable. I could really use some tips for sleeping. if you all have any advice pertaining to anything i've said it would be much appreciated. some other random questions i have are: --i'm scheduled to go to an ENT thursday... there is also an audiologist in my area who does 'tinnitus therapy', would people recommend making this appointment also? --i'm trying to get to a mental health clinic as well, i have a history of depression and it's really in full force. psychotropics aren't necessarily the first course of action but i read somewhere that SSRIs are maybe a pretty good fit for tinnitus? is there any consensus on that? --also, sleeping pills are scary drugs and all but have they been effective for the T community, generally? --i've read that alcohol isn't recommended but that's like default medical advice for any health problem. the thought of not being able to have a beer after work sucks. what are people's experiences with alcohol and T? --regardless of how loud or quiet the environment is, it really seems like the tinnitus is considerably louder at night time. like i couldn't hear it over a tv during day but i can at night. is there anything to that?