On the Brink

Discussion in 'Support' started by Nicola8478, Mar 28, 2018.

    1. Nicola8478

      Nicola8478 Member

      Tinnitus Since:
      18
      Cause of Tinnitus:
      Ototoxicity
      Last night I ran out of my house and walked for 5 hours in the dark. Determined never to go home again. My plan was to lay down somewhere when it got dark and and cold and hopefully not wake up. This Sertraline spike is so bad and loud and intense. I feel debilitated.

      Then I hear a year later...8 years later it’s not changed from people posting online stuff.

      I can’t deal 8 years or the rest of my life this. It’s so reactive and sensitive I’m scared to go out. Even move sometimes. It’s like my ears are being drilled.

      Keep torturing myself with the fact If I’d just checked I wouldn’t be in this hell. As I was walking I thought it might even be easier to check myself into a hospital and let them dope me up til I don’t care anymore.

      This has taken my last ounce of fight and I think I’d rather me away somewhere where locked away than here faced with all these things I’ve lost on a day to day basis. That a hell all on its own.
       
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    2. grate_biff
      Alone

      grate_biff Member Benefactor

      Location:
      Moss, Norway
      Tinnitus Since:
      09/2014
      Cause of Tinnitus:
      Acoustic trauma and or benzo withdrawal
      I think and feel exactly the same as you.
      Try to find hope in the upcoming Frequency TX trial.
       
    3. glynis
      Feminine

      glynis Member Benefactor Ambassador Hall of Fame

      Location:
      England,
      Tinnitus Since:
      2004
      Cause of Tinnitus:
      Meniere's Disease
      Reach out to your doctor and Emergancy care provider or out of hours doctors or Mental Health or Hospital.
      You need professional help to help you get through this wobble in your life and you will but takes time.
      The emotional side of Tinnitus is as hard as the sound at first and medication and talking therapy can help.
      Love glynis
       
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