I have to get up in six hours. My father in law is in town. My T has been flaring up to a high pitch whistle the last few nights, making it hard to fall asleep. Tonight it started to make me panic again. I wanted to tell my spouse to let me stay at home, let me sleep. I don't know how to handle this at times and tonight just sucks a**. I started sobbing in my husband's arms tonight. It hasn't been easy over the last nine years and my T getting worse felt so damn unfair. I'm happy for the first time in years and this flared up and it felt like it ruined so much. I'm 31 years old and don't want to feel like my life is almost over. I don't need to be in a quiet room to hear my T, it's loud. So, when it gets louder, I can't find anything to tame this beast. Any supporting words or suggestions are greatly appreciated, even if you're a dude and can't fathom being pregnant with this. Thank you for reading my ground hog day post. Can't watch that movie anymore.