I've been so careful, even obsessed with sound, as many of you. But I didn't want to skip a festival with friends this year, I told myself that I would stay at the camping and at the calm areas. Which I did. Except for the first night, we went to the main-stage wich was far from loud from where we were. (guess around 95) I had my muffs and my premold plugs, so together min 25 to 30 dB. (I could even hear my mild T through some of the more quiet parts) Then my friend offered me some XTC, which was something I only use there (once a year), and I never had any dramatic problems with it, so I felt I could take it. The problem is that I reacted a bit strong on it, and only recall bits and bytes of the 3 hours we were there. This is was frightens me the most, since I have no idea if it wasn't too loud. Yes in hindsight it was stupid, but it has been a hard year, and never expected to "lose control". Apparently I was still heavily focussed on my ears; so it's not like I ran around unprotected. Anyway, when I came back to my tent I heard my ears peak a lot, the classic "ieeee" which I had before when I was in loud places, the one I am trying to avoid. The peak settled rather quickly, but my T is still going up and down. I just hope the peak is due the drugs and not the noise, but I can't tell.. I feel like I just have ruined any prospect on healing, I am a damn idiot..