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SugarMagnolia

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I just broke a tooth in a world without dentistry. Apr 11, 2020

    1. SugarMagnolia
      SugarMagnolia
      Used to be, when I was overwhelmed by life problems & mental illness, I would take a walk among the trees. The peace & silence comforted me.
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      2. SugarMagnolia
        SugarMagnolia
        But there's no silence any more. Instead of me and the trees and maybe the song of some robins, it's Eeeeeeee eeeeee eeeeeeeee!
        Apr 23, 2018
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      3. New Guy
        New Guy
        I was working alongside a stream today. Pure heaven!

        Life seems so different now. Hopefully we'll adapt.
        Apr 23, 2018
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      4. Dylan Blake
        Dylan Blake
        May 19, 2018
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    2. SugarMagnolia
      SugarMagnolia
      I read that if T doesn't fade in 2 years it's permanent. It's been over 2 years for me. Zero reduction. Guess I'm one of the permanent ones.
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      3. Jiri
        Jiri
        Apr 20, 2018
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      4. BadratDay
        BadratDay
        2 year doesnt mean anything! T is completely unpredictable it could fade or get better in 1 or 2 other years so their always hope
        Apr 20, 2018
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      5. TheDanishGirl
        TheDanishGirl
        Sorry about that :( I also think mine will be permenant, I am about 99% sure of that :/
        Apr 20, 2018
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    3. SugarMagnolia
      SugarMagnolia
      Why do people love high-pitched beeps so much? I really want to know.
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    4. SugarMagnolia
      SugarMagnolia
      The forklifts (or whatever machines they are) have been beeping literally nonstop all day. It's over six hours and counting.
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      2. SugarMagnolia
        SugarMagnolia
        I'm not protecting my ear because I need to get used to this stuff. This construction work will likely continue for years. That's the way it is around here. I think they're far enough away that the volume isn't loud enough to harm me. But emotionally I'm a wreck. The sound is so horrible.
        Apr 17, 2018
      3. cspc
        cspc
        6 hours non stop, they are going to get a guiness I guess. A forklift operates in my neighbourhood at a construction site but it's only for an hour or two every day. The beep is annoying but it's a bit far away from my house.
        May 5, 2018
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    5. SugarMagnolia
      SugarMagnolia
      I was on speaker phone with someone in a hospital and suddenly heard a series of high-pitched beeps. T seems louder now.
      1. SugarMagnolia
        SugarMagnolia
        Could the beeps have been dangerously loud? Or am I responding to all high-pitched beeps regardless of volume? The latter seems the more logical
        Apr 15, 2018
      2. SugarMagnolia
        SugarMagnolia
        Hospitals are scary enough. But I'm suddenly horrified by the idea of hospitals as places full of high-pitched beeps. What would a patient with H do in such a hell?
        Apr 15, 2018
    6. SugarMagnolia
      SugarMagnolia
      Why does he say that I don't really have T? I never complain about my T to him. Never. But for some reason, he needs to deny that I have it.
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      2. Holly1987
        Holly1987
        I'm going through something very similar. He believes I have T but doesn't believe it's as debilitating as I claim. Why would I make this up! I just want to get on with my life, I hate it.
        Apr 10, 2018
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      3. SugarMagnolia
        SugarMagnolia
        Exactly. Dealing with T is bad enough all by itself. We shouldn't also have to prove that our suffering is real.
        Apr 10, 2018
      4. Apolonia
        Apolonia
        The worst thing is when they say it is nothing.... -.-' I wish it was nothing
        Apr 11, 2018
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    7. SugarMagnolia
      SugarMagnolia
      The effects of verbal abuse are cumulative. Like toxins building up in the body, insults and vile names gradually poison the mind.
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      2. New Guy
        New Guy
        I hope everything is ok.
        Apr 9, 2018
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    8. SugarMagnolia
      SugarMagnolia
      I hurt my ear—again! No amount of ear protection is good enough if it isn't 24/7 because nothing less will protect me from myself.
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      3. SugarMagnolia
        SugarMagnolia
        My ear felt so good for two weeks because I've had time off from work. Now it hurts and I did it to myself.
        Apr 4, 2018
      4. Holly1987
        Holly1987
        :( :(
        Apr 4, 2018
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      5. SugarMagnolia
        SugarMagnolia
        My ear pain is much less now. Lately I am easily panicked. Every loud sound automatically scares me.
        Apr 4, 2018
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    9. SugarMagnolia
      SugarMagnolia
      I have the day off, but the construction workers outside my window do not. So it's a day of high-pitched beeps for me.
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      2. SugarMagnolia
        SugarMagnolia
        I used to look forward to the summer: longer days and a reduced work schedule. But with H, I dread the summer. Long hours of daylight mean longer work days for the construction workers.
        Mar 30, 2018
      3. Gman
        Gman
        That is the worst when your own home isn’t even safe. By the way, my spouse isn’t supportive either and yet she says she gets T sometimes.
        Mar 31, 2018
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      4. SugarMagnolia
        SugarMagnolia
        Sometimes is the key word. There's a world of difference between 'sometimes' and 'every second of your life.'
        Mar 31, 2018
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    10. SugarMagnolia
      SugarMagnolia
      Doors that go BEEEEEEEEP when you walk in. What's next? Land mines in the carpet?
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      2. Red
        Red
        I once went to a pizza place that had the door chime on max because there was only one employee working.
        Mar 28, 2018
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      3. SugarMagnolia
        SugarMagnolia
        Booby traps are everywhere.
        Mar 28, 2018
      4. AZeurotuner
        AZeurotuner
        O'Reilly auto parts has a doorbell set at head level so it rings directly into your ear when you open the door... Fun stuff.
        Mar 28, 2018
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    11. SugarMagnolia
      SugarMagnolia
      So nice to be told my H isn't real. I'm just crazy because sounds that don't hurt other people can't hurt me either.
      1. Red
        Red
        Imo H is a physiological change in our bodies to get us to avoid noises that would further harm our ears.
        Mar 28, 2018
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    12. SugarMagnolia
      SugarMagnolia
      I posted a thread yesterday and when I came back an hour later, my opening post was different from what I wrote. Puzzling, to say the least.
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      2. New Guy
        New Guy
        Did they take that one down for you?
        Mar 29, 2018
      3. SugarMagnolia
        SugarMagnolia
        Yes, it was deleted by staff at my request.
        Mar 29, 2018
    13. SugarMagnolia
      SugarMagnolia
      My day was fine until a bus honked its horn right next to me. It was so close, so loud, so high-pitched. Now T is up and I'm scared.
      1. Red
        Red
        I have hope for you. Imo continuous noise is more scary. But it is scary to spike especially if they last a long time
        Mar 27, 2018
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    14. SugarMagnolia
      SugarMagnolia
      First thing in the morning and he's yelling already. When I woke up, ear pain was low and now it's up again.
      1. Julien87
        Julien87
        he's looking for some attention, don't give it to him ^^
        Mar 21, 2018
      2. SugarMagnolia
        SugarMagnolia
        Yes Julien, you're right. If only he would yell quietly.
        Mar 21, 2018
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    15. SugarMagnolia
      SugarMagnolia
      I'm in distress and DH is yelling at me & telling me to kill myself.
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      2. SugarMagnolia
        SugarMagnolia
        DH = Dear Husband or Damn Husband, depending on the context.
        Mar 20, 2018
      3. TheDanishGirl
        TheDanishGirl
        Your husband sounds very unsupportive and I am sorry for that :( nobody should threathen you, you should not accept that....you do not deserve it. Hug.
        Mar 20, 2018
      4. SugarMagnolia
        SugarMagnolia
        He is disabled and has a lot of anger. When I was in perfect health, all was well. But now I have problems that he can't see or understand, and instead of accepting and commiserating, he throws tantrums.
        Mar 20, 2018
    16. SugarMagnolia
      SugarMagnolia
      Why does DH insist on watching reality shows where they curse constantly and each curse word is bleeped? Each high-pitched bleep hurts me.
      1. SugarMagnolia
        SugarMagnolia
        This bleeping car is so bleeping fast, You gotta bleeping try it. It's so bleeping awesome. Ouch-ouch-ouch-ouch! Even in the other room it's still painfully loud because the wall is thin and the door is hollow.
        Mar 19, 2018
    17. SugarMagnolia
      SugarMagnolia
      Depressed today. It's all getting to me: my OCD, my marriage, my apt, my low salary, and now probably H & TTTS on top of T.
    18. SugarMagnolia
      SugarMagnolia
      I hate the new toaster. Bent close to it to read the tiny print on the knob, turned the knob, & guess what? It beeped right in my bad ear.
      1. SugarMagnolia
        SugarMagnolia
        I'm trying to keep my anxiety down about high-pitched beeps, and the toaster goes and beeps a foot from my stupid head!
        Mar 13, 2018
      2. SugarMagnolia
        SugarMagnolia
        Why does everything nowadays have to make high-pitched beeps? I try to be careful, but I keep getting surprised by beeps in unexpected places.
        Mar 13, 2018
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    19. SugarMagnolia
      SugarMagnolia
      Two weeks since that noise near my ear and the new discomfort persists. Not bad enough to call pain, but it's weird and scary. TTTS maybe?
    20. SugarMagnolia
      SugarMagnolia
      Mornings around here are a symphony of low-pitched hums, high-pitched beeps, car horns, and the occasional siren. Anyone want to visit?
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      2. SugarMagnolia
        SugarMagnolia
        I hear you Dij111. There's a new building going up on my block and I think some of the noise is from them.
        Mar 6, 2018
      3. Apolonia
        Apolonia
        Never been there. I live in Europe. Would Like to visit IT one day
        Mar 6, 2018
      4. Apolonia
        Apolonia
        Although I don't envy you that much.. BC I live by the sea in the most beautiful town in Croatia :P i love my sea :)
        Mar 7, 2018
    21. SugarMagnolia
      SugarMagnolia
      Well, the mystery hum is no longer an evening-only noise. I still don't know if it's inside the building or outside.
      1. SugarMagnolia
        SugarMagnolia
        DH thinks it's coming from another apt, but there's no way to know which one. It starts everyday in the early evening and continues until sometime after I've fallen asleep. I try telling myself it probably isn't hurting me, but it gives me anxiety. What timing! This new noise started only a few days after the blast in my ear that is giving me a scary new symptom.
        Mar 11, 2018
    22. SugarMagnolia
      SugarMagnolia
      high-pitched beeps from trucks backing up--all morning; it's been over two hours, how much backing up can you do?
    23. SugarMagnolia
      SugarMagnolia
      new noise trauma = louder tinnitus = freaking out
    24. SugarMagnolia
      SugarMagnolia
      tech problems: pages don't load
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    Gender:
    Female
    Location:
    USA
    Tinnitus Since:
    02/2016
    Cause of Tinnitus:
    Acoustic Trauma
    I acquired tinnitus at 3PM on February 5, 2016. I was attempting to use a speaker phone on a conference call. I couldn't hear anything, so I thought it wasn't on speaker phone any more. I put the phone to my left ear and at that moment, feedback blasted into my ear. That was the last I knew of silence.

    The ringing in my ear has been exactly the same from that moment until 4PM on February 27, 2018 when I sat in the wrong chair in a doctor's waiting room. The door made a high-pitched beep whenever the door opened and the door was on my left side. Someone opened the door and my ear got blasted. The tinnitus sound went up and for the first time I felt "fullness" in my ear. Until this moment I didn't know what people meant by fullness. That's my tale of woe.