RishRamsey
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RishRamsey

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It's not for us to say, what will be. And at the end of the day, we'll see. Jul 7, 2020

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Jul 13, 2020 at 8:52 AM
    1. RishRamsey
      RishRamsey
      It's not for us to say, what will be. And at the end of the day, we'll see.
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    2. RishRamsey
      RishRamsey
      All I want to do is stay drugged and sleep throughout the day in a room away from civilisation. A dark and cold place would be preferable
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    3. RishRamsey
      RishRamsey
      Doing bad :(
      1. Tavia R
        Tavia R
        Oh I wish I could send you more help than words, I'd trade places with you emotionally if I could, give you my happiness. Have you read any of my posts about the paper I typed up to brainstorm who I was, my identity, aside from the pain? That was the turning point in my depression, it took a weight off my shoulders heavier than Atlas' burden. I hope it eases soon
        Jun 16, 2020
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      2. RishRamsey
        RishRamsey
        @Tavia R Yes, I did read it. It was amazing. Thank you! Emotionally, I am okay I guess. But at the end of the day, I just get some exhausted from this pain that even moving in my bed is hard. I have kind of accepted it, but still, it just hurts so much.
        Jun 19, 2020
      3. RishRamsey
        RishRamsey
        And I am glad to see you're doing well, even if emotionally :)
        Jun 19, 2020
    4. RishRamsey
      RishRamsey
      Reading all the chronic pain stories on reddit and wondering how much longer I could carry on.
      1. Christiaan likes this.
      2. Christiaan
        Christiaan
        Hi @RishRamsey , I am sorry you go through all this. If it gives you any comfort, RL-81 might give you some relieve. The precursor Trobalt helped some people on this forum with pain hyperacusis. the new medicine will have more effect. Hang in there buddy!
        May 25, 2020
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    5. RishRamsey
      RishRamsey
      Dear god, please don't let me kill myself before I turn 30. I only ask for another 5.5 years(and try to make those 5.5 years easier)
    6. RishRamsey
      RishRamsey
      I guess it's time to accept I am never gonna recover from severe hyperacusis.
      1. all to gain
        all to gain
        Hang on in there Rish! This stuff is the devil's work, but we never know what tomorrow may bring. Let's hope for improvement.
        May 14, 2020
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      2. Tavia R
        Tavia R
        Sometimes when we realize the pain won't back off we have to decide if we're going to. It's not an inspirational pep talk - that crap is for fantasies and sports, this is real. It's okay to be tired, it's okay to break down or throw things and lose yourself for a bit. Just know you're going to make it through this. I know because you've made it through everything so far, that's a pretty good tract record.
        May 15, 2020
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    7. RishRamsey
      RishRamsey
      Lost my ability to relax and get relief from Severe H due to fucking irritating earworms. Doing bad mentally :(
    8. RishRamsey
      RishRamsey
      It feels weird, me trying to hold on, to get a few more years under my belt before my inevitable early death.
      1. Steph1710
        Steph1710
        <3 sorry you feel this way @RishRamsey. Feel free to inbox me if you want someone to talk to/rant at.
        May 1, 2020
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    9. RishRamsey
      RishRamsey
      And I am only going backwards. God please give me the strength to go on for a few more years. Don’t want to go before my Mom does.
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      2. RishRamsey
        RishRamsey
        Yeaaah man. I wonder how do people who have this for years manage. In the fb group, a lot of people have it for a lot longer. I am tired and defeated in just months.
        Apr 26, 2020
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      3. Julien87
        Julien87
        Hang in there dudes. Don't let this fucking signal rule you
        Apr 27, 2020
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      4. Labyrinthine
        Labyrinthine
        To answer your question: undiminished will to live. One very valuable piece of advice: keep exercising or you'll run into new problems.
        Apr 27, 2020
    10. RishRamsey
      RishRamsey
      How much I pray each day to get a fatal disease, that'll just take me out in a few years. God, please give me the bloody cancer!
    11. RishRamsey
      RishRamsey
      H is just not getting better. Bounces b/w severe and extreme.
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      2. Labyrinthine
        Labyrinthine
        @RishRamsey 8 months ago basically anything. Running water, opening doors, walking, and even chewing induced symptoms or setbacks (and this was while I was wearing plugs and muffs). Now, I can walk through my home with only plugs and I can eat, open doors, take a bath, walk, and whisper a bit without pain.
        Apr 18, 2020
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      3. RishRamsey
        RishRamsey
        @Labyrinthine Same here. Literally anything triggers the symptoms.
        One thing - when you wore the muffs for too long, did it create the pressure in your ears?
        Like whenever i remove the muff, there is always some kind of pressure.
        Apr 20, 2020
      4. RishRamsey
        RishRamsey
        So I have to pop my ears continuously to relieve some of it. Maybe I am removing them too fast so that creates some kind of vaccuum?
        Apr 20, 2020
    12. RishRamsey
      RishRamsey
      As if severe H and moderate T wasn't enough, I am seeing floaters now. Hate my life!
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      2. RishRamsey
        RishRamsey
        @TheDanishGirl - I am really sorry to hear that :( I also read about eye flashes and retinal detachment, that shit sounds scarier than hyperacusis.
        Apr 14, 2020
      3. RishRamsey
        RishRamsey
        @TheDanishGirl - People are telling me to look for eye flashes, but i don't know how they look. like what to look for? Do you have any idea? Like my vision seems a bit off, like I was looking at the washing machine right now and it seemed a bit off, like something was in b/w my eyes and the very dark colored washing machine.
        Apr 14, 2020
      4. RishRamsey
        RishRamsey
        Can they be floaters, obstructing my vision, if I couldn't see them properly while looking at the washing machine? Or was it something else?
        Apr 14, 2020
    13. RishRamsey
      RishRamsey
      Scared to get out of home, to office, once the lockdown gets over - which is in a week :(
      1. TheDanishGirl
        TheDanishGirl
        I feel ya. My workplace is luckily locked down the rest of april, maybe longer (it is an activity center for the elderly, so to risky opening it just yet). I also fear going back eventually as my H is quite troubling these days.
        Apr 4, 2020
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      2. Orions Pain
        Orions Pain
        Same for me. Shelter in place in effect until May 3rd for us, dreading going back as my H doesn't seem to be easing up despite being home in a quiet environment :(
        Apr 4, 2020
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    14. RishRamsey
      RishRamsey
      Reading at all the posts here, it's like I don't relate with anyone. H is such a different beast than T.
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      2. James1977
        James1977
        I feel the same way, Rish. I am so sorry you have so much pain.

        I think we all have a multitude of symptoms and complexities making it a unique personal struggle. I am very envious of those with just T. I read all day looking for those that have the same, but haven't found anyone exactly the same.

        I hope relief comes soon to you.
        Mar 24, 2020
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      3. Orions Pain
        Orions Pain
        Agree 100%.
        Apr 4, 2020
    15. RishRamsey
      RishRamsey
      It just hurts and hurts and hurts, and burns and burns and burns. Pure torture. Such a traumatic experience.
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      2. OnceUponaTime
        OnceUponaTime
        :( So sorry you're going through this, Rish. Have you tried applying cold compressions around your ear? That used to help me. I hope you get better from hyperacusis.
        Mar 21, 2020
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    16. Daniel Lion
      Daniel Lion
      Don’t wear muffs in silence, it makes things worse. Your commute to work sound stressful and damaging. Perhaps with C.Virus you can work from home. Or take an absence from work? Like I said, H shut me down...full stop. Good luck
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      2. RishRamsey
        RishRamsey
        I am working from home as much as I can, but I don't know how to remove muffs at home. Everything is so loud and hurts :'(
        Mar 19, 2020
      3. RishRamsey
        RishRamsey
        It's been bad for more than 4 months now, with really no signs of improvement :(
        Mar 19, 2020
    17. RishRamsey
      RishRamsey
      More than 4 months since this increased H. 0 improvements. I have pain even in silence wearing my muffs and every fucking thing hurts!
    18. Daniel Lion
      Daniel Lion
      H shut down my job. Absence of noise helped me to get better over time. Sounds like you need to plan to do this, yes? Can you lean on your family?
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      2. RishRamsey
        RishRamsey
        Not really @Daniel Lion. My job isn't really loud, but commute is hard. I travel from my own car with 30db earplugs and earmuffs, and it still hurts.
        Mar 17, 2020
      3. RishRamsey
        RishRamsey
        And I have been in silence mostly. But literally no improvements whatsoever.
        Mar 17, 2020
      4. RishRamsey
        RishRamsey
        Like closing the door in the other room even with my muffs hurt.
        Mar 17, 2020
    19. RishRamsey
      RishRamsey
      I was doing a bit better H wise the last few days. Now back to everything hurts phase, can’t even talk without being in severe pain.
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      3. OnceUponaTime
        OnceUponaTime
        I'm so sorry, you guys. :( I really hope you all get better from h.
        Mar 15, 2020
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      4. Horrorpopz
        Horrorpopz
        I miss talking so much tbh, can u whisper at least?
        Having good days is a great sign bro, ure not alone
        Mar 15, 2020
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      5. RishRamsey
        RishRamsey
        @Horrorpopz I can whisper/ talk slowly during the day. By night, I am just done even though I've stayed in silence all day.
        Mar 17, 2020
    20. RishRamsey
      RishRamsey
      I hate my loud city, I hate my loud country, and I hate everyone here. Things I’d give to be born in a developed nation. :(
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      2. RishRamsey
        RishRamsey
        @Candy, we do. But I can't enjoy it because my house is a corner one (next to a main road with constant traffic and horns). It's a quiet neighborhood, all the other homes are pretty quiet but just the fact that mine is the corner one, with a road that connects to the main road is hell for someone with H.
        Mar 10, 2020
      3. RishRamsey
        RishRamsey
        I really envy all my friends who have houses in the middle or end of the neighborhood. It's so quiet, but no, not mine because of this stupid road which everyone has to take to go to main road. And it's hell from 8 AM - 11 PM. FML! Would need to soundproof my fucking home!
        Mar 10, 2020
      4. RishRamsey
        RishRamsey
        And the fun fact, people actually pay more to be in a corner house, because it gets 3 sides open, and a bit bigger than the middle houses. lol. And I'd pay a ton more to move into one of the middle one's, just to get away from this road.
        Mar 10, 2020
    21. RishRamsey
      RishRamsey
      Let's accept it. My H is never gonna improve, not unless I leave this hell of a noisy city or literally leave my job and stay indoors.
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      2. Horrorpopz
        Horrorpopz
        Lol I did both and still not improving xD
        Mar 3, 2020
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      3. Orions Pain
        Orions Pain
        Do you have the opportunity to move somewhere more quiet?
        Mar 3, 2020
    22. RishRamsey
      RishRamsey
      And my girlfriend is leaving me (I can just fee it). Good lord!
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      2. RishRamsey
        RishRamsey
        @Horrorpopz Thanks bro, but I don't blame her. She deserves to be with someone who's fit. Not someone crippled by H.
        Feb 24, 2020
      3. OnceUponaTime
        OnceUponaTime
        Sorry, Rish. When people leave us when we are at our worst, it is not true love. It is best to let them go.
        Feb 24, 2020
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      4. RishRamsey
        RishRamsey
        Thanks, @OnceUponaTime . Really hard to let her go. She’s been a constant support through all this, but I know I’d have to let her go. Just preparing myself mentally in these last few days with her.
        Feb 24, 2020
    23. RishRamsey
      RishRamsey
      My cross to bear!
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      2. James1977
        James1977
        I feel this way too
        Feb 23, 2020
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    24. RishRamsey
      RishRamsey
      Please god, either make my Hyperacusis better or give me a fatal disease. Anything to make this pain stop :(
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      2. LukeYoung
        LukeYoung
        I sometimes wish a car would just run me over walking to and from work and such
        Feb 12, 2020
      3. Artemis2K
        Artemis2K
        Have you tried any of the popular anti-inflammatory supplements?
        Feb 13, 2020
      4. RishRamsey
        RishRamsey
        I have @Artemis2K - Mg, Turmeric, B12 - don't really do anything for my H.
        Feb 19, 2020
    25. RishRamsey
      RishRamsey
      H is killing me. Will really need to leave my job. Can't even talk to people without plugs. Please tell me it gets better :'(
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      2. TheDanishGirl
        TheDanishGirl
        I feel ya pain. Hope it gets better for you.
        Jan 31, 2020
      3. Horrorpopz
        Horrorpopz
        I know quitting the job sucks, but sometimes we need to step back to be able to walk further later bro...
        Sharing this pain with you
        Feb 1, 2020
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    26. Star64
      Star64
      “Survival can be summed up in three words – never give up
    27. RishRamsey
      RishRamsey
      Survival mode...
      1. OnceUponaTime
        OnceUponaTime
        Throwing you a survival hug. Hope you see the sunshine again.
        Jan 27, 2020
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      2. RishRamsey
        RishRamsey
        Thanks a lot. Really need everything as H is killing me.
        Jan 27, 2020
    28. RishRamsey
      RishRamsey
      @Gman Been reading your posts and definitely relate. Apologies if this is not the correct way. Can you PM me?
    29. RishRamsey
      RishRamsey
      Tinnitus is so loud and high pitched and sharper. FML!
    30. RishRamsey
      RishRamsey
      Colleague coughed so hard the entire work day, H spiking. Can’t even watch a video on volume one let alone call my gf and talk...
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    Tinnitus Since:
    01/2019
    Cause of Tinnitus:
    Stupid DJ