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  • delta784
    starting a clomipramine who gives a fuck after this point. first i need to taper my clonazepam my psych already agreed to give me clomipramine. and i bet i know it will fuck my tinnitus and visual snow even more since i am the unluckiest piece of shit in the entire planet
    delta784
    Soon planning my end i don't want to exist anymore. Sorry fam
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    S
    First off, it's a lot harder than you think, second, if you really are going to do it, make sure you know exactly what you're doing or you might just end up making things a whole lot worse for your self... medically assisted is always the route one should take if going that way.

    I thought you're starting Clomipramine anyway, don't you want to give that a chance first? There's no backsies.
    T
    i feel you but easier said than done really. no way is easy and not always guaranteed
    Joshua Macleod
    Thinking about you Delta. Hope the clomipramine gives you some respite.
    delta784
    I am starting clomipramine soon i dont care. I need something for my pain.
    lusiol
    It seems to have an effect on quite a few people with hyperacusis, though again not everyone. You'll have to see if you tolerate the molecule well, since its most interesting effects appear mainly at the maximum dose of 200–250 mg. I hope it works for you.
    delta784
    I want to get better. I will have to get better for my family, for my brother and for my girlfriend. I am a good human being and i know it. I have a pure heart. I never harmed anyone else besides myself. I have to be better. I have to heal. Even if not physhically but mentally. This shit gotta hardened me i want to live i want to be a good person again. Make people laugh again even if i stay depressed my whole life. I want to make my mom happy.
    delta784
    how long do i have to endure this? susan shore device looks shit anyway and i live in turkey
    mandyc
    I;m in a crisis now. I took the antibiotics and am really really not well at all. I'm only on my second dose and the tinnitus is through the roof. I feel feverish and shaky. I just don't feel right if you know what I mean. I'll have to stop but I'm scared strep infection will get worse. Dont know what to do. Its a holiday weekend so I'm at a loss of who to phone or what to do.

    My throat feels worse than what it was before I started.
    delta784
    Im idiot i read horror stories in here and used iv prednisone because of stupid people all around the forums i should sit down in silence and shut the fuck up
    T
    i haven't taken pred, but have been very close to after reading people's comments on here. don't blame yourself - some people to get improvement from it. just seems unpredictable as to who
    mandyc
    omg it just doesn't seem like it's getting better for some of us. I'm so sorry you have it so bad. I too am very bad. I can't believe how loud tinnitus is. My hyperacusis is worse. Thankfully I got over my ocd and I think you can too but it was difficult. I was stuck at home for years with ocd, now I'm stuck at home with tinnitus. I'd rather have the ocd than this. Now I've got to take antibiotics which I know will make me worse and I too feel very suicidal. I'm not sure I'll make it to the end of this month. Just taking it one day at a time. Feeling your pain and hoping one day we'll all see light at the end of the tunnel x
    delta784
    I am just 30 one day at a time till i die? what the fuck
    delta784
    ananın amına koyayım pelin koçdor
    Kam75
    Is she the doctor who prescribed you the intravenous drug that gave you tinnitus?
    delta784
    yes not only tinnitus visual snow syndrome and pain h
    delta784
    im so tired mentally im tired of crying everyday its been how many days since 26 september 2024?
    delta784
    Im not gonna make it i puke from stress every morning
    S
    I'm so sorry, Delta. This is the worst experience of my life and you seem to have it so much worse. I can't imagine what you're going through.

    Are you working? How are you managing it? My biggest fear is that I'm going to end up losing my job because I can't focus or get as much done as I would have when I was well. I've considered medical leave, but asking for a single day off leads to a massive negotiation with my boss. I can't imagine she would take a request for medical leave well.
    delta784
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    You've been registered here for 1 year, congratulations!

    F*** off i dont want it
    delta784
    I think i have cochlear synaptopathy due to glutamate excitoxicity which methylprednisolone caused rare as f
    delta784
    I had tinnitus my whole life basically very low level only right ear never bothered by it exploded after intravenous methylprednsilone became bilateral, gave me visual snow dysacusis and ear pain. the funny part is i used that medication for mild sound exposure i was actually aware how shitty severe ear problems are how idiot i am health anxiety and ocd ruined my life and my future. im only 30 im %100 sure i damaged my inner ear structure and i am last person on earth to deserve that shit i never been in loud stuff im asocial
    S
    I feel this man i'm only 27 and dealing with this shit hearing loss and tinnitus is so annoying man and there is no cure sad world we live in bro.
    delta784
    I miss my old life going out without any problems seeing world clearer hearing much better. I will never forgive that doctor and myself never ever.
    delta784
    If my ocd goes away and i can go back in time i can heal myself september 25 2024
    S
    Have you seen any improvement at all in any way over the last year?
    delta784
    no mine got worse despite staying at home most of the time. its been 11 months
    S
    Hang in there. This stuff takes a long time to resolve. Some people don't see improvements until after 1 year. I'm 7 months in myself, going into month 8. This stuff rarely lasts forever. Are you getting any help for the OCD? That can exacerbate your symptoms as well.
    delta784
    This is my full name and where i live

    Alpay Tunc AGE 29

    Istanbul/Bayrampasa 34035

    I cannot bear with this anymore. I don't have guts to hurt myself but im tired my heart cannot take it anymore i never thought this will be my life but here we are please hug to your loved ones. If you have mild moderate tinnitus you can live, i never done loud things. mine is medication induced because of clueless ENT take care.
    H
    Are you managing to sleep at all, if not that something you can try to help first. Are you still taking clonazepam?Is it helping at all?
    delta784
    I am an idiot i couldn't do it and today new high pitch in right ear screams worst of the worst tone 15 khz i hope it goes away it happened many times always went away this time it feels different consistent high pitched why though? i dont even go outside i swear i never went to parties ever ever in my life If that high pitch doesnt go away im ruined im done
    mandyc
    Hi delta784, just wondering how youre doing now. Im looking for some hope to get me through these bad times. My tinnitus is so extreme i just want to jump.off something high and die too. I know this would hurt my boyfriend and mum incredibly but i dont know what else to do. It is relentless and so painful. I don't see how anyone can habituate to this.
    delta784
    Today is the last day for me on planet earth hope you guys get better love y'all <3 Alpay out from Turkey
    H
    I dont know what to say besides we all understand. I hope you find the strength to keep fighting, we all love you.
    Kam75
    I hope you're not serious?! Don't do something like that. Tinnitus can improve, please be patient. It takes years.
    You have your whole life ahead of you, don't do anything foolish :(
    delta784
    I can't believe my life ended due to health anxiety and wrong medication usage for basically nothing. Now all i think about ending my life. I had no other option + i don't wanna live like a cockroach at the age of 29 thanks to my genes and thanks to my clueless brainless ent
    Kam75
    Hi mate, I lost mine at the age of 28. I'm 34 now. I know this horrible feeling. I'm like a zombie everyday because of the lack of sleep. I live isolated in my room, doing nothing. It is terrible. Personaly I don't want to kill myslef, but I don't want to live like this for the 40 years to come...
    delta784
    Should i break up with my girlfriend we've been together since 6 years i dont wanna waste her time.
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    delta784
    @Maruashen embrace what brother i cannot go outside without clonazepam my ears are hurting i didnt had any trauma all started after methylprednisolone intravenous damaged my ears and brain im stupid i have visual snow syndrome (i can live with it) i have terrible head tinnitus + and ear pain if my auditory shits got better i can live with vss easily.
    Maruashen
    I know it sucks. I cannot go outside either right now, but i know that time is crucial to healing and try to make small steps every day. Life is not easy, but it can be very rewarding, but sometimes to get to the rewarding spot we need to fight through the hard times.
    Ask yourself, what can i do today, to improve tomorrow? Try to get out of the negative loop, give it time, and take baby steps. You will get better.
    delta784
    sadly its torturous for me every single day it was so rewarding before all this. i never thought i would su*cide or jump out from a bed from a panic attack
    delta784
    I will suicide soon i have no other option at the age of 29. One simple mistake i read from these forums methylprednisolone intravenous ruined my life. My life was heaven. I never went to loud places i was asocial but one f'ing medication ruined my life. I have visual snow syndrome some nox dysacusis and tinnitus most bothersome is tinnitus by far
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    S
    Maybe just spend some more time healing. Peace and quiet for a few months. Get some CBT and work on yourself inside. I know how it feels to want to die because of these conditions. I never did loud things either and got this from an ear infection. I had zero control.
    4Grace
    Hang in there. You are not alone in your suffering. It could get better for you. Hope. Please hang on to hope. Anything can happen.
    dreamer16
    Don't do it, it might fade over time and get better. ♥ Update us when it inevitably gets better.
    delta784
    mine is caused by prednisolone which i used to avoid tinnitus i was so mild why? is it because of my veins?
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