Just wanted to share an update on my situation. I think the infection has run its course, but there still seems to be some irritation or discomfort in my right ear. The first two days were the toughest, and I ended up using the Maxitrol ear drops after reading that they should not cause problems unless the eardrum is perforated, which mine was not.
I got through the first week with relatively few issues, but for some reason, this past week has been more difficult. My right ear feels more sensitive overall, sometimes dull, tired, tight, and reactive. Sadly, I think I may be starting to develop phonophobia because of it. The tinnitus has been a bit more bothersome, but that is not my main concern. What really worries me is how my ear feels. Anxiety has been hard to manage. I know I should be fine with most sounds at home, yet I cannot help feeling on edge. As I am writing this, I am at school, and it took courage to take out my earplugs in the library, yes, the library of all places, which prompted me to share this update.
So, what now? I have an appointment with an audiologist on Wednesday. I really do not want to take any tests; I just want them to confirm that there is no infection. I might mention the anxiety I have been feeling, although I do not think medication is necessary. I also want to take the next steps in treating my TMD, which has been an issue for quite some time. I know that managing it might help calm my right ear a bit.
Overall, I have been feeling sad and somewhat trapped. I am trying to stay mindful and not let the anxiety take over, reminding myself that I am still in a relatively good situation compared to many others. I think most of my fear comes from knowing how much worse things could get, and feeling that I might not be strong enough to handle it. I do not know, I just feel like disappearing for a while, living in a quiet town or somewhere peaceful, and escaping from this busy life, even just for a moment.