Don't Want to Jinx Myself But...

[EatMoTacos]

So since my major intrusive onset of tinnitus last 24th of June. I was in despair and I again stupid enough didn't wear protection and had lots of alcohol and took ototoxic allergy med that day. Since that night, I was off and had temporal shift in my hear which resulted in Louder T. Much Louder.

Before, all of this mess I had my T in control and just basically I was living my life again. 7 day after onset I took some prednisone (20mg for 5 days) wore ear plugs almost everywhere, went to another company party for the 4th of July (it was a party barge) but I had my musician plugs in all the time (glad I did because the stupid girl playing the music didn't want to lower the volume even though some people requested it to be). After the party I didn't notice an increase at all which is good but driving home the next day was horrible.

I arrived home and it was LOUD I had a LOUD buzzing hum and hissssssss. I never cried so much in my life. I just wanted to die. No one understood what I was going through, no one. I woke up the next Day and the hiss lessened but the Low HUM was still there. I waited a week maybe the prednisone was still in my system but then I went back to the ENT and he prescribed me more. I started again a week later this time a full taper and guess what, full on ear fullness and pain, PAIN in me ears after everyone would talk, whisper, everything would make my ears hurt. Even driving in my lifted truck make my ears hurt FML......

I took three days worth of prednisone (60, 60, 40) then I stopped, as soon as I stopped three days later the fullness went away and my hearing came back but the pain was still there. But the Loud T is still there ever so ungodly. my ENT said to stop it, I could be causing ear damage. Fast forward with my life, now, I have made some drastic changes in my life, started my supplements again: Magnesium, NAD+, Fish Oil, NAC, a multivitamin: https://www.amazon.com/Controlled-L...8&qid=1502409406&sr=1-2&keywords=orange+triad, Ginkgo, and I think I even threw in 5HTP at night. During this time I started working out again (for serious this time) I included creatine and L-glutamine have been pushing myself to work my body to the fullest. All I want to do is basically tire my body out and go to bed (rinse and repeat).

Until one night around 1 am, I was on my ps4 playing some serious competitive on Overwatch. As I was going to my bedroom (and my bedroom gets super quiet) I swear for like two hours I was laying in bed and I could not hear my T. Like it had vanished in thin air. Like I am talking about 100% gone, no T! I was super excited and happy. I went to bed so f****king happy I cried. I said to myself I am 100% cured from this bullshit and thank god I can deal with my PT in my left ear. I even went to my bathroom closed the door and yup sure enough it was completely gone.

I wake up 3 hours later around 4am and I get a HUGE SPIKE in my right ear and the sh!t came back. FML. Today at work, I was working in my lab and as I was just typing an email I felt like my T (in my head skipped a beat, happened 2x for like two whole seconds T was gone). Now I don't want to jinx myself but yeah this has happened to me about 5 times already. I really pray this a me going to a full recovery..... Thank you all for the support and vent... ugh...I can't even go fishing and fishing was life....

 

[Kolisar]

Hey @EatMoTacos, I am not an expert, but the fact that you can, even for brief periods of time, not hear your tinnitus is probably a good sign. If nothing else it may indicate that you may be able to habituate.

The Overwatch may not help. I am guessing that, like most gamers, you may be using headphones (I certainly do).

@Michael Leigh wrote the following post discussing the potential dangers of headphones: https://www.tinnitustalk.com/threads/headphones-and-tinnitus.12062/

But, the important thing to remember here is that if you can ignore it for every sort period of time that probably means you can learn to habituate and ignore it for much longer periods.

 

[fishbone]

That's a blessing, if you experienced silence. Hope it works out for you buddy

 

[EatMoTacos]

Hey @EatMoTacos, I am not an expert, but the fact that you can, even for brief periods of time, not hear your tinnitus is probably a good sign. If nothing else it may indicate that you may be able to habituate.

The Overwatch may not help. I am guessing that, like most gamers, you may be using headphones (I certainly do).

@Michael Leigh wrote the following post discussing the potential dangers of headphones: https://www.tinnitustalk.com/threads/headphones-and-tinnitus.12062/

But, the important thing to remember here is that if you can ignore it for every sort period of time that probably means you can learn to habituate and ignore it for much longer periods.

Thanks. Yeah his post are super informative and I read it several times even when I'm a bit down I read it knowing that there is hope for continual improvement.

I do play a lot of video games and to be honest I don't use headphones for the sounds of the games or anything. I just play simply to play to get my mind off of the T and when I'm playing T seems to fade away for small brief periods at a time. What was weird that night my T went away for 2 hours. Even at one point during the night I was looking for it because I felt like my head was missing something. Weird feeling but certainly it was new feeling I had. I can honestly say those two hours of silence were golden. I haven't had that silence since I got T since I was 13.

 

[Bill Bauer]

Like it had vanished in thin air. Like I am talking about 100% gone, no T!

I am sorry that your T hasn't disappeared right then and there. However, this is a very good sign! Hopefully you will keep experiencing more of these pauses, and eventually it will actually be gone for good!

 

[EatMoTacos]

I am sorry that your T hasn't disappeared right then and there. However, this is a very good sign! Hopefully you will keep experiencing more of these pauses, and eventually it will actually be gone for good!

Have you ever had a spike that lasted more than 8 weeks!? I'm dying over here. I want to go back to what I was pre spike....

It's so high pitched it won't even bother fading away.

I feel that the prednisone made it my T worse and I'm still getting ear pains from it even after one month of taking it. While I was on it it was getting major ear pains.

 

[Bill Bauer]

Have you ever had a spike that lasted more than 8 weeks!?

I had one that lasted four months in 2014. It was the worst one in over 30 years of T. I finally understood what people meant by "catastrophic or debilitating" T. Additionally, I experienced H for the first time during that period. The worst part was the anxiety that resulted because I thought that it was a permanent change being that it lasted so very long.

Also check out
https://www.tinnitustalk.com/threads/poll-how-long-was-your-longest-spike.22099/

 

[EatMoTacos]

Also check out
https://www.tinnitustalk.com/threads/poll-how-long-was-your-longest-spike.22099/

Thank you.

 

[David G]

When you stop hearing it, then desperately think about/monitor it, you are making your brain see it as a threat.

Don't do it!