Half of a Success Story (Recovery from a Horrific Spike)

Discussion in 'Success Stories' started by dd314, Aug 18, 2021.

    1. dd314

      dd314 Member

      Tinnitus Since:
      2013
      Cause of Tinnitus:
      Acoustic Trauma + stress?
      I first got tinnitus on a random Wednesday in 2013 and it stayed with me every since. It sounded like static.

      I eventually habituated to it and got on with life, and it even seemed to be down-trending in volume. I can remember days in 2020 that were quieter than days in 2017, for example It still bothered me though, enough to make an appointment with Lenire, and donate money to tinnitus researchers. In reality, I didn't know the meaning of the word tinnitus. I didn't know I was living in God's kingdom.

      December 2020 was a very stressful month for me, and I was around a lot of noise, courtesy of a deaf cat in my house that liked to fight with a feral cat through the sliding glass door. One day in late December, my cat let out a VERY loud screech, very close to me, and it felt like daggers stabbing me in my ears. The following day my ears popped--just for a second--but very noticeably, and then after getting off a phone call, I noticed that my tinnitus had quadrupled in volume, with several new sounds accompanying.

      There was tea kettle whistling, humming, crickets, ringing, and a piercing electrical sound, and the sound of sand being poured onto a metal plate. I've been sleeping with 2 fans for several years, and there were nights where I was woken up by unbelievably loud sounds that easily masked the sound of both fans. My hyperacusis which, up until this point was very mild, got much worse. Aluminum foil felt like a slap to the face.

      I thought my life was over, I was having daily panic attacks, I lost the love of my life, and I couldn't appreciate anything in life anymore. I'd go more into detail about the suffering, but I guess I'm preaching to the choir. It is strange and uncanny to know all positive emotions as a memory. Contentment, happiness, relaxation -- all distant memories.

      After about 3.5 months, in April, I started having an anomalously quiet day here and there. Not often, but enough to give me some hope, and then I'd have another 2 weeks of setbacks followed by another decent day. I can recall the good days right here, as a time series. April 28, May 18, June 11, June 15, July 8, August 7, 9, 11-14, 15, 16. August has been so quiet and really gave me hope, I thought I was out of the woods.

      Yesterday, I dropped a butter knife dropped 7 inches onto a metal bowl in my kitchen sink and my tinnitus has been much worse today, but I wanted to at least record the improvement, for others but also for myself. It is possible for it to get better. This happened to me at the age of 30 and I'm 31 now, so hoping the same improvement is still possible.

      I did take a lot of NAC, Magnesium glycinate, and Curcumin all this time.

      I was also exposed to too many loud sounds during this period, despite my best efforts. Bowls and plates dropping in the sink (60-90 dB), slamming a frying pan against a metal grate (80-100 dB), electrical static from a phone call being dropped (75 dB), oh and the damn cat.

      I'm apprehensive about calling this anything close to a success story, but the good days happened, they really did.

      Hang in there.
       
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      dd314

      dd314 Member

      Tinnitus Since:
      2013
      Cause of Tinnitus:
      Acoustic Trauma + stress?
      The day after I wrote this, I hit the same metal grate again with a water pitcher and that one gave me aural fullness, which has only happened once before during this spike. The ringing is now so much louder, and it woke me up last night. I'll never make that mistake again.

      I just hope I have it in me to heal one more time. I have to associate the kitchen with suffering. I will always tip toe around that room now.
       
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    3. SaraK18

      SaraK18 Member

      Tinnitus Since:
      8/2020
      Cause of Tinnitus:
      Sound exposure
      Glad you're on the road to recovery, albeit with some setbacks.

      Do you wear earplugs in the kitchen? I would recommend that for now. I’ve actually started using paper plates and plastic cutlery. I’m conflicted about accumulating so much waste for the environment but it's so helpful during a spike.
       
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      dd314

      dd314 Member

      Tinnitus Since:
      2013
      Cause of Tinnitus:
      Acoustic Trauma + stress?
      Thanks. I think they have biodegradable cutlery but it's probably expensive. I should definitely start wearing ear plugs. My problem with ear plugs is that they have the potential to impact ear wax, and they also make tinnitus seem twice as loud because you're removing ambient noise. That said, I should definitely start wearing them around the house.

      The new spike was actually subsiding quickly. It never actually added new sounds, it only made one existing sound much louder and that was starting to dissipate after a week. However, 5 days ago I dropped a Magnesium pill (irony) onto a saucepan lid and it was like a loud bell with an echo--maybe 85 dB, but very high pitched. The crazy electrical sounds have come back again since that happened. I don't know how I'll ever forgive myself, but I know that will never happen again.
       
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      dd314

      dd314 Member

      Tinnitus Since:
      2013
      Cause of Tinnitus:
      Acoustic Trauma + stress?
      I should clarify for the original story: The baseline was getting lower. The quiet days were noteworthy because of how incredibly quiet they were, but the baseline was getting better.
       
    6. SaraK18

      SaraK18 Member

      Tinnitus Since:
      8/2020
      Cause of Tinnitus:
      Sound exposure
      That’s the part of this injury/condition that I find the most difficult. I have to become so careful around the house with every little thing I do that it’s like I’m paranoid and unable to live remotely normally.

      Just try and be super careful for a while until it settles and then hopefully you can start to return to a modified normal again as far as sounds go. Even if you can’t wear earplugs all the time, maybe wear them in the kitchen or something. Or perhaps you could wear earmuffs but make sure if you do, be careful taking them off if they are the ones that suction to your ears so that you don’t injure yourself further.
       
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