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Tiff1337

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Jul 27, 2015
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My name is Tiffany. It's been quite a while since I've had tinnitus due to OD...I guess I deserve it right? But I'm lucky to be alive. It's been about 4 years now and I haven't been diagnosed because the ear doctor I saw told me I couldn't have permanent ringing from overdosing which is obviously a lie and I'm a hypochondriac so I looked it up. Of course I didn't look up what would happen if I had a fail attempt of OD. From my OD I woke up to the sound of a helicopter and it was hard to balance. I never thought I'd get over the ringing but I slowly got used to it and don't hear it anymore unless I'm alone or concentrate on it. Anyways this morning I had woke up crying due to what I thought was clicking but I'm not sure because it stopped. It was a constant click for a few minutes. It's been about an hour and a half since I haven't heard it. I have really bad anxiety that doesn't help. It's almost the same clicking I get everytime I swallow and chew. What bothers me the most is ear pressure, constantly having to pop my ears but it still feel full after being popped. It makes me feel uncomfortable, is this normal? I've been scared of my tinnitus lately because I went to a doctor a month ago and he asked if I had ear surgery which I have not, so I'm trying to figure out what he saw and what it means. I don't want to go back to an ear doctor just to be dismissed. I'm also not on any health insurance right now. It's been years and I still haven't fully coped with all of this. I fear I will be deaf one day and I won't be able to deal with it. I don't want to fall into depression, I just thought about wanting to die this morning. Why does life suck and why me?! I'm sorry for ranting but this is my tinnitus story.
 
My name is Tiffany. It's been quite a while since I've had tinnitus due to OD...I guess I deserve it right? But I'm lucky to be alive. It's been about 4 years now and I haven't been diagnosed because the ear doctor I saw told me I couldn't have permanent ringing from overdosing which is obviously a lie and I'm a hypochondriac so I looked it up. Of course I didn't look up what would happen if I had a fail attempt of OD. From my OD I woke up to the sound of a helicopter and it was hard to balance. I never thought I'd get over the ringing but I slowly got used to it and don't hear it anymore unless I'm alone or concentrate on it. Anyways this morning I had woke up crying due to what I thought was clicking but I'm not sure because it stopped. It was a constant click for a few minutes. It's been about an hour and a half since I haven't heard it. I have really bad anxiety that doesn't help. It's almost the same clicking I get everytime I swallow and chew. What bothers me the most is ear pressure, constantly having to pop my ears but it still feel full after being popped. It makes me feel uncomfortable, is this normal? I've been scared of my tinnitus lately because I went to a doctor a month ago and he asked if I had ear surgery which I have not, so I'm trying to figure out what he saw and what it means. I don't want to go back to an ear doctor just to be dismissed. I'm also not on any health insurance right now. It's been years and I still haven't fully coped with all of this. I fear I will be deaf one day and I won't be able to deal with it. I don't want to fall into depression, I just thought about wanting to die this morning. Why does life suck and why me?! I'm sorry for ranting but this is my tinnitus story.

Tinnitus doesn't make you deaf? Why do you think that? Also what would you rate you tinnitus one a scale of 10?
 
The best thing you can do for tinnitus is to stay as calm and positive as possible and keep on living your life as normally as you can. T feeds on your stress and anxiety. Our negative emotions are fuel to keep the T fire burning. We need to do the opposite. There are many success stories on TT so it is not that T is an end game. It is livable and there are strategies to make us feel better. New drugs are on trial right now which may help. So don't panic and get too depressed. Read the success stories to have hope and learn about how to get better. Get enough sleep, exercise, eat well, and try to live life. We can't control T much, but through our actions we can negate its effect on us.

Take care & God bless.
 
I would rate my tinnitus at 6.5 because I'm used to the ringing and it doesn't bother my hearing as much as I think although I do have to ask people to repeat themselves a lot. It's more of the pressure in my ear and uncomfortable feeling I get from it. Popping my ears and it not being relieved is irritating. I think the fear factor is what makes me rate it so high.
 

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