Hi Luc, you may want to see my other posts for alternative opinion. Yes, I also contemplated ending life as the only reasonable option. In our case, the more reasonable option was to remove ourselves from the toxic nerve gases; but, it was a new home and nobody ever told us. My wife already had many, many, many tests. She was severely fatigued to the point of falling asleep a lot (as body tried to fight). Anyways, the ringing in the brain doesn't go away and takes time to lessen, in the case of poisoning like this.
Have you done a
volatile solvents blood analysis on your blood? At least. Have you been to see an occupational and environmental specialist? Have you done a toxic effects core panel (includes volatile solvents (hydrocarbons) as well as four or so other panels of potential poisoning).
Obviously, our case may not be your case; but, many others in our neighborhood had this case; and the more people we talk to the more similarities we see. I live in bizarro land as even though the MSDS's list the dangers (some list more than others), even though the symptoms/injuries are clearly spelled out in scientific documentation, and even though the problems are well-known to be widespread with HVAC units - I STILL cannot get one single #@$%@# #$%#$% government employee at the town, county, state, or federal level to investigate ANYTHING. I did file two reports with the CPSC over a year ago and did drive them through my congressman and others to finally come to my house and take photos, as well as showed them other units at other houses; but, they STILL have not filed the report. One toxicologist we talked to told me it takes 100 people and several deaths. The problem I identified with the HVAC no doubt has injured millions on various levels as well as led to many deaths. The bizarre part is nobody will listen and nobody will alert the public.
Best of luck. Hope you haven't jumped off that bridge yet. My "21 gun salute" only lasted a few days. If nothing else,
get yourself out camping with no smoke fire for a few days and see if that helps. The detox will kick your butt too; as the delay effect of nerve toxins and other gas poisoning typically hits that night and possibly delays 1-2 days. E.g. some of them make you feel "nice" (N2O). People would report "having the flu" after leaving our home. Took a few years for me to nail down what had happened due to lies and cover up from the HVAC manufacturer, HVAC service company, and builder and due to ZERO help from most all government agencies (city water did do a sewage back flow and county did check for a chemical dump record.)
Cheers,
Tim