So Much This Past Week

I had a breakdown and now the H has been getting to me. I took a week off work to really focus on seeing the RIGHT care/specialists.

I am seeing 3 doctors. One audiologist that specializes in T and H, Dr. Hubbard from here that specializes in T and H and a psychiatrist that I found had experience in T.

Yesterday I saw this psychiatrist who was amazing. He spent 2 hours with me. He said the reason I am having so much trouble with all of this is because of my childhood (not that the T isn't real but my very difficult time coping). He gave me a job last night. He said I was to pick a time I would go to sleep and wake up, not do ANYTHING to get to sleep like no meds no wine and NOT TO HAVE ON ANY BACKGROUND NOISE.

I tried and of course panicked, heard my T louder and freaked a bit and started drinking my wine at about 10:30 last night (it helps calm me I know it's not healthy). I DID however get to sleep at 1 am WITHOUT ANY NOISE IN MY ROOM. No air conditioner no TV no white noise. I woke up at 6 am mostly from my own surprise that the T wasn't waking me up. Immediately I thought about my T and it was there ever so softly not blaring not upsetting at all. It was the first time in months I just heard silence...kind of.

I realize now what he wanted. He wanted to push me out of my comfort zone. I didn't accomplish everything he told me last night but I DID find that I could cope better than I had in the nights since 2/1.

T and H is all so psychological. FUCK.

 

@Marie79 I hope you have a better night again tonight. I could see why he wanted you to do that I might have to try

 

Glad you are getting the help you need and hope in time positive changes will help you cope better with your tinnitus.....lots of love glynis

 

T is what it is but H is the mind fuck that's impossible to understand.Is this or that too loud or is good that I can tolerate it?Or is it damaging?But if I don't expose myself to more sound I won't get better but if it's too much I'll get worse?My head is constantly spinning all day with thoughts like this

 

My doctor said you won't damage your ears unless it is loud enough for a normal person to damage their ears. Like acoustic damage. That is what he and the other doctor (I'm seeing 3) keeps drilling into me.

 

So like loud traffic? I'm going to ent Doctor again next week, just to see if he can fit me for ear plugs @Marie79

So just like going to a concert? But no screaming baby?

 

I'm going to speak from experience here ladies but the whole your ears aren't susceptible to damage myth is bogus.I had H and for the best part it was gone,did I have any sound exposures that would damage someone's hearing?No just everyday noise like traffic some restaurants and if it was a noisy situation I wore earplugs but never over-protecting.Out of nowhere it got way worse,for no real reason.The whole theory that our ears are not weakened because of H is wrong,there are countless stories of people getting worse from mundane sounds after being told they would be fine.My advice is don't over-protect but take whatever the specialist says to you with a pinch of salt.

 

@bill 112 I didn't mean to put "funny" But thanks I dont usually listen to them as much

 

Don't get me wrong Jamie but the whole your ears aren't easily damaged is wrong,I've had setbacks don't get me wrong but they were rare,the last one I had was in October when we went bowling then one in November.Then suddenly in February my T and H just got worse,I led a normal life nothing crazy and avoided loud places at all costs!If our ears were not susceptible to damage I should have been fine upto my 80s!Thats what all the specialists will tell you but I hate to say it's false hope.Just be careful with noise,I don't want you to learn the hard way

 

@bill 112 thank you, I am very aware of my surroundings. Even at church I wear ear plugs, I'm going next week to look at professional ones, I want to be in fashion and not wear the blue foam ones hahaha New York is what I'm worried about but I will wear those ear plugs. My boyfriend wants to go to jazz clubs and comedy clubs while there, he doesn't ever go on Vacation and I don't want to be a Debbie downer so I'm going to go but sitting in the back and wearing ear plugs!! I want to enjoy my time! ( no beer) but even at work I turned the music down and it plays at around 65-70 now. I just feel sad in general bc I was hanging out my cousins baby and he was yelling and hitting the table and all I thought OMG OMG I don't have my ear plugs. It scares me for when I have a child.

 

Enjoy your time in New York Jamie and I've been to a comedy club with H and had no problemsJust remember to plug up and you'll be fine,wishing you all the best!

 

@bill 112 thanks! We want to go to the one that Louis ck is usually at in his shows along with the pizza place! Lol I'm a big fan if you can tell!

 

@Marie79 how are you doing today? Hope all is well! My family likes how I go on this forum for support and help! I'm glad we are all here for each other !