Tinnitus Maybe from Anxiety / Listening to Music on Headphones — No Pleasure in Life Now

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    1. PortugalTheMan
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      PortugalTheMan Member

      Location:
      Portugal
      Tinnitus Since:
      01/2021
      Cause of Tinnitus:
      Anxiety / Maybe years listening to music on headphones
      I have been buzzing since January 7. I was going through a phase of generalized anxiety but I was not taking any medication.

      After waking up with the tinnitus, I immediately went to the doctor who didn't even send me to an ENT and said it was caused by stress, and gave me Diazepam 10 mg and Escitalopram 20 mg. The tinnitus didn't get better. I even noticed that it might have been worse as the days went by. Later I went to the ENT and did auditory exams, none of them reported hearing loss (although an extended audiogram was not administered).

      The problem here is that I have been scared since that day and I can't enjoy my life, I can't enjoy the moments of pleasure. I seem like a meaningless person in life. I am always crying in the morning and my family and girlfriend can no longer stand to see me like this, nor can I stand to see myself like this, I cannot take pleasure in the little things in life. The only thing I do is read this forum, and try to get some strength, and see the scientific research and success stories, as I am desperate for this to be cured.

      My tinnitus changes a lot. Last week it was just static, while every now and then a 500 Hz tonal tone appeared. This week it sounds like a very thin and loud electric hiss.

      Another thing that makes me desperate is that nobody knows what might be causing my tinnitus, so that at least I could have hope for a cure.

      Tomorrow I'm going to have a consultation with a psychologist, because I thought it might help me.

      Like all of you, I was the happiest person in the world before I had tinnitus.

      Do you have any suggestions for me?
       
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    2. livewire77

      livewire77 Member Podcast Patron Benefactor

      Location:
      Czechia
      Tinnitus Since:
      12/2019
      Cause of Tinnitus:
      Loud music on headphones
    3. Steph1710
      Old hag

      Steph1710 Member Podcast Patron Benefactor Ambassador Hall of Fame

      Location:
      England
      Tinnitus Since:
      08/04/2020
      Cause of Tinnitus:
      Antibiotics - I think
      @PortugalTheMan, it will become easier. You’re only a few months into tinnitus. It could still disappear for you.

      If it helps, I could easily have killed myself when I first developed tinnitus. I felt like I would never be happy again. However, that hasn’t been the case. My life is pretty good despite many health problems.

      This is what I did, which helped me deal with my tinnitus.

      Firstly, I decided to carry on as normal but with ear protection either in/or having some on me at all times - plugs and over ear protection. This made me feel secure that if noise did occur, I could protect my ears.

      Secondly, I then decided to start introducing all the things I used to do, back into my life. The most challenging part was socialising because I felt incredibly isolated being the only one who could hear all the different sounds in my head/ears. However, as time went on, and with me forcing myself to listen to what people were saying, instead of the tinnitus, I could forget about it for a few minutes here and there - fast forward a year, and those minutes are now hours.

      Thirdly, I decided to let everyone around me know that the sounds were driving me crazy, so people would knew that I was suffering and how shit it is. Amazingly, once I started telling people I had tinnitus, so many people said that they also have tinnitus. I suddenly felt less isolated because I knew I wasn’t the only person in the room who was sitting in constant noise.

      Fourthly, I started making jokes about it such as - “ring, ring ring! I hear ya, you noisy bastard!”
      I found making jokes really helped to lighten my reaction towards tinnitus - especially if I was/am having a louder day.

      Lastly, I read somewhere that you’re not really a true metal head (I love metal and all music) unless you have tinnitus - and that sealed the deal for me. Now I see it as a condition I have because I’m a hardcore music fan! And I’m okay with that haha.

      But my overall advice to you, would be to carry on doing the things you done before. Try and pretend you don’t even have it. Eventually, you will begin to put it to the back of your mind. Or even if that doesn’t happen, you’re reaction to the sound will become more relaxed. I sit in silence now and I hear it 24/7 but it doesn’t bother me. It is my new silence.

      Put it this way, I never thought I would be able to deal with it - but I have! That’s a true miracle right there.

      Whatever you do, don’t let this awful condition rob you of your happiness/life. Don’t let it beat you! You’ve got this! You’ll find that inner strength eventually, but right now, because you’re new to this, allow yourself to be weak. Allow yourself to mourn your old life. That’s okay. Just take one day at a time my friend.

      Steph x
       
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    4. AUTHOR
      AUTHOR
      PortugalTheMan
      Surfing

      PortugalTheMan Member

      Location:
      Portugal
      Tinnitus Since:
      01/2021
      Cause of Tinnitus:
      Anxiety / Maybe years listening to music on headphones
      What incredible words. My mindset has to change to be like yours.

      I thought it was a joke, the fact of making jokes with your tinnitus, I am / was a very funny and willing person, I will try to do the same.

      And I know that I have to put an end to my thoughts of:

      "26 years old and I may have something chronic with no apparent cure for the rest of my life."

      "How am I going to rest and relax with these unbearable noises."

      "I had to give myself such a debilitating symptom that science is not even sure what it is for sure."

      Another thing that makes me worried is what caused the tinnitus. I don't know if I have a problem with the auditory nerve, the cochlea or if it is even something else. I don't know which of the new drugs that are being researched/trialed would work on me.

      I really appreciate your testimony which made my day bright, and you should know that if you ever visit Portugal, you will have a guide here for you to visit this wonderful country!
       
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    5. Peter61

      Peter61 Member

      Location:
      The Netherlands
      Tinnitus Since:
      08/2012
      This is exactly what my tinnitus sounds like. An electric hiss, as if my brain is connected to electricity by a plug in a socket.

      It gives this "full" feeling in my head, there's always this buzzing brain activity. Sometimes it suddenly stops, and in just one second of blissful euphoria, I think: Thank God, it's gone! But then a tonal tone appears, which lasts for about 7 or 8 seconds, then becomes quieter until it completely disappears and is replaced again by the old hiss.

      It's such a strange phenomenon, like the brain is confused. I wish my brain would just relax and accept the fact that some frequencies have been lost without trying to compensate for them by producing these useless phantom sounds 24-7-365. It must be some mistake, some shortcoming of nature, of human evolution, that the human brain makes this error. The same thing with the fact that hair cells in the cochlea are not able to regenerate themselves. The human body is most vulnerable and far from perfect.
       
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    6. Ken219
      Frustrated

      Ken219 Member

      Location:
      New York Area
      Tinnitus Since:
      Summer of 1990
      Cause of Tinnitus:
      Noise exposure?
      So other people's suffering made you feel better?
       
    7. AUTHOR
      AUTHOR
      PortugalTheMan
      Surfing

      PortugalTheMan Member

      Location:
      Portugal
      Tinnitus Since:
      01/2021
      Cause of Tinnitus:
      Anxiety / Maybe years listening to music on headphones
      This electrical hiss when it disappears is static.

      Last week I spent all day at home telecommuting and did not walk down the street listening to the noise of the day and it became static.
       
    8. Steph1710
      Old hag

      Steph1710 Member Podcast Patron Benefactor Ambassador Hall of Fame

      Location:
      England
      Tinnitus Since:
      08/04/2020
      Cause of Tinnitus:
      Antibiotics - I think
      Yeah man, it gives me a natural high. Much better than drugs.
       
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    9. AUTHOR
      AUTHOR
      PortugalTheMan
      Surfing

      PortugalTheMan Member

      Location:
      Portugal
      Tinnitus Since:
      01/2021
      Cause of Tinnitus:
      Anxiety / Maybe years listening to music on headphones
      With millions of people who have tinnitus, it is still difficult for the general public to perceive our suffering. Imagine if we were the only ones suffering.

      Nobody likes to see anyone suffer but we like to know that we are not alone.
       
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    10. Steph1710
      Old hag

      Steph1710 Member Podcast Patron Benefactor Ambassador Hall of Fame

      Location:
      England
      Tinnitus Since:
      08/04/2020
      Cause of Tinnitus:
      Antibiotics - I think
      The people I was referring to in my post, are my close friends and family. I wouldn’t wish this on anyone, but it was comforting to know they could relate to what I was going/am going through.

      The post above saying, “other’s people suffering makes me feel better” - is an incredibly insulting thing to say. And I can’t believe out of the positive post I wrote, that is all he took from it.

      *slaps hand on forehead*


      Anyway, @PortugalTheMan so glad I could make you feel a little better. You will get there. It’s a bumpy road and I still have days where it gets to me more than other days, but the overall trend is that you begin to feel better. Time is a great healer. And being a positive guy, I am sure you’ll find your own way through this mess.

      I understand it must be frustrating that you don’t know what has caused your T. Perhaps you’ll never know - but you’ll come to terms with that too. :)

      Oh, and I’ll definitely take you up on the tour guide offer! Everyone knows by now, that I love travelling and do it often. Be nice to have someone who knows the area to show me around.
      And - We can moan about our tinnitus at the same time ;)
       
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    11. Brain Tumor Dave
      Wishful

      Brain Tumor Dave Member

      Location:
      Florida
      Tinnitus Since:
      1972
      Cause of Tinnitus:
      Vestibular Schwannoma / Posterior Fossa Meningioma
      I've had tinnitus my whole life initially from bleeding ear infections 50 years ago. I don't remember a day without tinnitus. And my 2008 brain tumor discovery added much stronger tinnitus, and my one deaf ear that ONLY hears tinnitus. Audiologists say it should be "debilitating" tinnitus, yet I feel I still live a happy life. I still fly my Powered Paraglider. I still ride my Waverunner. I still travel and enjoy life.

      I think the main difference in my case and others is that it's not NEW to me. For me I'm guessing it would be like suddenly not seeing in color, or not tasting any food. That would suck. But I think a positive outlook, and knowing the joys you'll doubtless experience in the future, should keep you happy.
       
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    12. Steph1710
      Old hag

      Steph1710 Member Podcast Patron Benefactor Ambassador Hall of Fame

      Location:
      England
      Tinnitus Since:
      08/04/2020
      Cause of Tinnitus:
      Antibiotics - I think
      You are an inspiration Dave.

      I really enjoyed waking up and reading your post. Especially as I’ve woken up with louder tinnitus than usual - and it’s bugging me more today. But stories like yours, remind me to try carry on as normal... because let’s face it. I can’t do anything about it anyway.

      So jealous of your paraglider! I always wanted to have a go on one. I bet it’s awesome. :)

      Steph x
       
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    13. Lukee

      Lukee Member Podcast Patron Benefactor Ambassador

      Location:
      Toronto, Canada
      Tinnitus Since:
      01/2021
      Cause of Tinnitus:
      Wim Hof Breathing Exercises
      I get this fleeting tinnitus about once a week and it’s my favorite part of the day when everything just goes completely silent for a few seconds. It’s like someone unplugged a loud speaker that has been hissing because of no input and suddenly it’s completely silent.
       
    14. Steph1710
      Old hag

      Steph1710 Member Podcast Patron Benefactor Ambassador Hall of Fame

      Location:
      England
      Tinnitus Since:
      08/04/2020
      Cause of Tinnitus:
      Antibiotics - I think
      I have fleeting tinnitus throughout the entire day sometimes. I was told it would settle down, but it hasn’t yet.
       
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    15. Lukee

      Lukee Member Podcast Patron Benefactor Ambassador

      Location:
      Toronto, Canada
      Tinnitus Since:
      01/2021
      Cause of Tinnitus:
      Wim Hof Breathing Exercises
      Ya it’s really crazy how everything changes once you have tinnitus. For most people it’s “just a sound you hear” and for others it’s accompanied by headaches, feelings, pain, hyperacusis, etc. I used to get the odd fleeting tinnitus about once every few weeks, now it’s at least weekly, but like I said, it’s actually a reprieve from the constant hiss.
       
    16. AUTHOR
      AUTHOR
      PortugalTheMan
      Surfing

      PortugalTheMan Member

      Location:
      Portugal
      Tinnitus Since:
      01/2021
      Cause of Tinnitus:
      Anxiety / Maybe years listening to music on headphones
      I had a fleeting tinnitus 2 weeks ago, but it stopped and I never had it again.
       
    17. Benjaminbb

      Benjaminbb Member

      Tinnitus Since:
      November 2020
      Cause of Tinnitus:
      unknown - possibly debrox - noticed after debroxing.
      I’m sure you’ve made a lot of progress by now but one thing I can say is it is the anxiety and fear that makes you feel that way. The idea that you don’t know what caused it, the idea that it could be with you forever, the fixation on the sound.
      For me all this went away in time and I feel great now. Unless you have severe tinnitus you can usually always live your life.

      I stopped drinking coffee, alcohol, salty foods all this shit that I read online, which made my life far more boring and consequently horrible and stressful. Once I started living again I realised there’s so much hope. Those things also had no effect.

      I learnt that this “unbearable” sound wasn’t unbearable at all. It was everything that I let stress me out around it. Along with fixating on it and always thinking about it.

      I hope you’ve found that place and if not yet, talk to me and I’ll help you.
       
    18. AUTHOR
      AUTHOR
      PortugalTheMan
      Surfing

      PortugalTheMan Member

      Location:
      Portugal
      Tinnitus Since:
      01/2021
      Cause of Tinnitus:
      Anxiety / Maybe years listening to music on headphones
      Hi @Benjaminbb. The first four months my tinnitus was horrible, it was always increasing in volume, and I cried every day. I heard my tinnitus almost everywhere, in the car watching TV, on the street, running, everywhere...

      In the 4th month it started getting lower and I started to get calmer. I currently hear it in a quiet room. I have times when I don't hear it in a silent room and I have to cover my ears to hear it.

      I didn't stop drinking alcohol, or eating sugar, or salt, I just started protecting my ears with foam and silicone earplugs.

      I think I can live like this, but the way it has gone down, I'm hoping that one day it will disappear. If it doesn't, I hope to be strong and not stress about it.

      Thanks for your help, I hope we can help each other on Tinnitus Talk. Regardless whether my tinnitus goes away or not, I will never leave this forum, I will want to help new people who are traumatized like I was.

      P.S.
      The hyperacusis I had also went away this month. All improvements came after protecting the ears from everyday sounds.
       
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