- Apr 23, 2015
- 358
- Tinnitus Since
- 08/2004
- Cause of Tinnitus
- Loud concert
Hi all,
This post seems pertinent, given the nature of some of the recent conversations.
Today, given a long and fairly difficult road with tinnitus and now hyperacusis and misophonia, I am looking to take back some control.
Context: I have had tinnitus for 13 years, caused by acoustic trauma (loud concert) and compounded by sudden bereavement (death of father). This spun me into depression and anxiety and hell for several years. Earlier this year, I was going through a particularly stressful time (house move and wedding) and tinnitus spiked again to new baseline level. All the old feelings resurfaced.
To deal with this, I have leapt into (what I now see) as possibly excessive protection: earplugs and earmuffs when visiting cafes and restaurants, walking along busy roads, when driving to and from work and even when out walking the dogs (to protect from wind noise and incase there are people shooting in the nearby woods).
This overprotection and awareness has brought me mostly misery, however. I am constantly on edge, unable to concentrate on anything other than hearing and noise and tinnitus monitoring; and my everyday is getting through it without making the hissing and ringing worse. This means that I do not participate in the days and largely procrastinate and distract myself from the stress of it all (zoning out on box sets, etc). Today, I am going to try and tackle this anxiety and this overdependence by lessening my reliance on dual protection in places where I should not have to use it. The earmuffs will stay at home and the earplugs will be worn no doubt too frequently to begin with, but with the intention of ultimately only using these.
One level of protection should surely be enough. And even that shouldnt be required 100% of the time.
Here's hoping for improvements, at least not in T, but in my mental health and current reactions to and triggering of it!
This post seems pertinent, given the nature of some of the recent conversations.
Today, given a long and fairly difficult road with tinnitus and now hyperacusis and misophonia, I am looking to take back some control.
Context: I have had tinnitus for 13 years, caused by acoustic trauma (loud concert) and compounded by sudden bereavement (death of father). This spun me into depression and anxiety and hell for several years. Earlier this year, I was going through a particularly stressful time (house move and wedding) and tinnitus spiked again to new baseline level. All the old feelings resurfaced.
To deal with this, I have leapt into (what I now see) as possibly excessive protection: earplugs and earmuffs when visiting cafes and restaurants, walking along busy roads, when driving to and from work and even when out walking the dogs (to protect from wind noise and incase there are people shooting in the nearby woods).
This overprotection and awareness has brought me mostly misery, however. I am constantly on edge, unable to concentrate on anything other than hearing and noise and tinnitus monitoring; and my everyday is getting through it without making the hissing and ringing worse. This means that I do not participate in the days and largely procrastinate and distract myself from the stress of it all (zoning out on box sets, etc). Today, I am going to try and tackle this anxiety and this overdependence by lessening my reliance on dual protection in places where I should not have to use it. The earmuffs will stay at home and the earplugs will be worn no doubt too frequently to begin with, but with the intention of ultimately only using these.
One level of protection should surely be enough. And even that shouldnt be required 100% of the time.
Here's hoping for improvements, at least not in T, but in my mental health and current reactions to and triggering of it!