After Getting Tinnitus, My Outlook on Life Has Changed — Does Anyone Else Feel Like "Withdrawing"?

Hi @momus -- I ran across short paragraph (below) in some spiritual literature many years ago, and I've thought about it often since I first read it. It probably won't set well with some who believe world peace is attainable, but it seems applicable to some of the things you mentioned.

It actually took me some time to come to terms with this concept (years), but as I look at the world, it seems world peace will never occur as long as there is no peace within the hearts of all humanity. This line of spiritual concepts also states that "everything is in its rightful place". Something to ponder I guess, for those who are inclined to do so. -- Take care...

 

I feel the exact same way. It's hard to remain optimistic when the outlook of this dumb disease (?) is not positive. I would gladly give up my career (that I worked tirelessly for 10 years) and relationships in exchange for no tinnitus. That is how much I am willing to give up. I'm pretty much chained to my house at this point lol. Just a shell at this point, functioning at the bare minimum.

 

Very sad to hear that brother.

 

Hi @crescentsky -- I hear ya. Isn't it interesting some of the "deals" we're willing to make with the "Universe" in exchange for no more tinnitus. One scenario that comes to mind for me is, I'd be willing to give up every single one of my possessions (including my clothes and money), be put buck naked in the middle of a busy intersection in sub-freezing temperatures, and let that be my starting point of a life with no more tinnitus.

I'm sure I would make it to a warm location pretty soon, and then have to deal with the hassle with the police for being nude in public, and wing it a bit more on a number of other things to deal with. But I wouldn't mind the hassles a bit, if I could do it without my tinnitus and hyperacusis. In fact, I feel pretty certain I'd be feeling happy as a lark.

Crazy some of the things we think up!

 

That's an interesting idea. Thanks for posting it @Lane. I'd also be happy to give up all my possessions (such as they are) to be rid of my tinnitus, but years of watching horror and Satanic movies makes me aware that with it gone, that might be inviting something far worse thru the doorway. That's sort of my philosophy about life. It could always be worse. Just be glad things aren't worse.

We're all here for a short time anyway. Victor Hugo wrote, "We are all under sentence of death, but with a sort of indefinite reprieve". I was thinking of that after returning from my first doctor visit since the COVID-19 lock down days, which have faded from my memory like a bad dream.

My doctor Veronica heard a heart murmur, which I knew was there. But she didn't know if it had gotten worse or was the same since I was first made aware of it 6 years ago. I go back for more tests soon and they did labs today to see if my kidneys were still at stage 3 and if my cholesterol was still high.

Something is going to kill all of us here one way or another, but it got me thinking about how fragile we are. It's different when unexpected health issues affect us personally. I have power over the depressing world situation though. All I have to do is don't read the news, and that fixes that. Out of sight, out of mind. I should never have gotten back into that bad habit. But right now my place is quiet, I have neighbors to socialize with, plenty of food here, a glass of Bourbon and water, the Allman Brothers are on the speakers. Things are just fine this moment. They could always be worse.

 

I agree. I believe things like money and possessions can be regained in some form or another. I have had other chronic health issues since the age of 10 but have never thought about these types of tradeoffs until this nightmare. Can't believe how this shit of a problem can turn our lives upside down.