Hi all, I got very bad news yesterday. My wife has strong suspicion of breast cancer. We cried the whole day. I am still full of anxiety, panic, depression and loud T. I cannot help her. I have big problems myself managing the day. This was the next hit with a hammer. Could not sleep, nightmares and a crying wife seeing me suffering and now suffers herself. A normal, happy family and now I have biggest fears. Had to take a Tavor today bringing me down. Oh my god, why do we deserve this? My wife was the one who brought me through this BS past year. Now I have a huge setback and cannot help her. This suffering is nothing I can manage. I pray for her. If she will die, I will die, too - if being alive or dead.