Hello everyone! I have been very active lately on this side for many reasons, mainly because I experienced everything almost all T-sufferers do in the beginning. Everything from suicidal thoughts, anxiety, depression, lack of appetite and sleep, etc. I have now had tinnitus a little more than three weeks and I must say it gets better. Your tinnitus may not have come to the point that it has begun to fade, and it may never get there, (U STILL NEED TO HOPE FOR IT THO) but you, you who sits there with all the possibilities in life- you will feel better. Do not rush to feel good at once, it is the time that will get you to land and learn how to handle this situation. I did that mistake. I wanted to feel happy and calm all at once but you will fail. You can not force positive thoughts, they will come up slowly if you start to live your life like you did before. You will manage to accomplish all your goals in life if you just believe in yourself. Encircle yourself with people you love, talk about your anxiety and panic, let them comfort you. Do not ignore the fact that I was a week ago googled fastest way to die, a week ago. I spent hours and hours to sit and listen for the sound. (Like WHY? It's not like I would go to lie down in a quiet room or else to listen for something before (???) WHO DOES THAT. I understood that I asked for it, I realized that I spent way too much time to torment myself. If I didnt had my family, boyfriend and friends supporting me (AND OF COURSE YOU GUYS), I would probably fall further down in the terrible spiral. You sit there and probably thinking "How the hell can she even think that things will be better with this sound?". I was thinking the exact same thing, how the hell can I live a normal life again? How can I laugh again? I started to generalize my thoughts, I was thinking of the children in Gaza or Syria who probably got Tinnitus from all the bombs exploding near them, and they lost family members and T is just the smallest problem in their life. I'm not saying that you should be ashamed that you feel bad, it is quite normal. You experience something for the first time, you find it difficult to adapt. But I want to remind you that there are problematic situations that make tinnitus to a speck in comparison. The last week I actually slept 7 hours, in comparison to previous weeks, (2-3 hours). I got sleeping pills from my doc, I did not even take them. It boosted my self-esteem when I woke up the next day, pretty reliefed and rested without help. Try to do those things without help in the beginning, just try. It will strengthen you if you succeed with it. Finally, I want to say, I can laugh today. I look forward to my future. I just got a dream job (halftime) that I competed with 60 other candidates, and I GOT IT, little me. I will graduate about 6 months. I have a wonderful strong family. A caring boyfriend. I have a strong body and healthy body in general. I will not let tinnitus control over my life, even though I wish there was a cure because I know there are people out there who suffer from this very extremly. But until then, I have to live my life. YOU CAN ALSO. Believe me. Try to realize what you have to appreciate in your life and put your tinnitus in perspective. If you have something you bothers you otherwise in life, for an example: think about what you wanted to change before the T, change it now. If you get the puzzle together, so will the tinnitus feel easier if you tackle things to bother you otherwise. Do you think you are living a unhealthy life? Do something about it. Start being healthy. Do you think you and your love of your life does not spend enough time with eachother? Prepare a date night or something. Do you and your mother have a weak relationship? FIX IT. Do you hate your job? Find a new. Believe me, you will feel better soon if you put your shit together(the other shit). Do not rush into it in the beginning only. Let it come to you naturally. AND SILENCE? Try to find silence in other sitautions. Silence for me is now when I feel calm and safe. Maybe it sounds crazy but when I'm sitting to eat with my family and they talk to each other, I find that sometimes like my own silence, in the shower and when I go my regular powerwalk in the forrest I can find some silence, I try to listen for calming sounds in my own enviroment. U will have to find a new silence until things gets better. Stress will never get you silence, that's for sure. Peace and Love <3 And just a tip to motivate you girls (especially girls): Read this blog. http://www.kenzas.se. This is a swedish girl who has the biggest fashion blog in Sweden. (You can read her posts in English too) She has moderate T and hearing loss. LOOK AT HER BLOG. Does it seems she's unhappy? No. Is she very successful? Yes it seems so. Does she do everything like people without T does? Yes. WE can too.