Well I'm back after my requested two week "vacation" from this forum has expired. I have learned a lot more about sensory systems in my absence, and gotten to review some of the studies I reference a bit more in depth than before.
Exercise has been useful, though not as promising as I initially thought. Still, it helps for other health concerns I either do or will have at some point. Recently, my tinnitus has been louder because I am stressed about school and not sleeping well at night. I started using CBD oil for sleep and have some success, though the feeling of it was a bit too much at times.
I'm trying to keep my spirits up but life is stressful, and contrary to popular belief a person who has a neurotic dominant personality like myself cannot simply "relax" or "take it easy". Most people I see write this are people with Type B personalities who don't usually have too many cares or hard drives in the world. Still, I suppose relaxation is a bit a of a problem for me. Clonazepam helps but considering I'm back on it after tapering off it means I cannot use it as much as I'd like.
So my questions I guess is, how exactly do people relax? My Adderall makes me less reactive and less impulsive to the noise, but inside I feel myself wanting to scream. People on here talk about meditation but I will never understand how anyone can sit still, in a quiet place, and focus on literally anything other than the noise. Maybe they have less intrusive tinnitus? Who knows. Exercise helps me becomes less anxious but I can't always go for a brisk walk, so I need an alternative. My anxiety takes off pretty fast so slow breathing isn't always successful.
As much as it would help, I still refuse to accept this condition. It may be here but I will never not see it as a threat. Is this contradictory to my desire to relax and not be distressed by it? Yes, but that's just how I am. I need a way to relax while still seeing it as a threat and not accepting the condition. Acceptance will come when I either die with it or it gets cured.
Exercise has been useful, though not as promising as I initially thought. Still, it helps for other health concerns I either do or will have at some point. Recently, my tinnitus has been louder because I am stressed about school and not sleeping well at night. I started using CBD oil for sleep and have some success, though the feeling of it was a bit too much at times.
I'm trying to keep my spirits up but life is stressful, and contrary to popular belief a person who has a neurotic dominant personality like myself cannot simply "relax" or "take it easy". Most people I see write this are people with Type B personalities who don't usually have too many cares or hard drives in the world. Still, I suppose relaxation is a bit a of a problem for me. Clonazepam helps but considering I'm back on it after tapering off it means I cannot use it as much as I'd like.
So my questions I guess is, how exactly do people relax? My Adderall makes me less reactive and less impulsive to the noise, but inside I feel myself wanting to scream. People on here talk about meditation but I will never understand how anyone can sit still, in a quiet place, and focus on literally anything other than the noise. Maybe they have less intrusive tinnitus? Who knows. Exercise helps me becomes less anxious but I can't always go for a brisk walk, so I need an alternative. My anxiety takes off pretty fast so slow breathing isn't always successful.
As much as it would help, I still refuse to accept this condition. It may be here but I will never not see it as a threat. Is this contradictory to my desire to relax and not be distressed by it? Yes, but that's just how I am. I need a way to relax while still seeing it as a threat and not accepting the condition. Acceptance will come when I either die with it or it gets cured.
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