Holly1987

[This is unfortunate, as lanes end all of the time, so if you don't pay attention and just drive straight, you will eventually find yourself driving in the lane reserved for the traffic going in the opposite direction.]

To change into another lane, you have to steer into the path of drivers in that lane, forcing them to slam on their breaks to avoid a collision.

Drivers pass you on your left, as you are making a left turn (causing you to slam on your breaks).

I remember screaming literally in utter terror and horror once every minute or so.

Some drivers stop in the middle of the road and chat with pedestrians. These conversations normally take 2-5 minutes (a little longer than waiting for a traffic light to change, but it feels like an eternity as everyone who is stuck behind them is honking their car horn).

Hey Holly, hope everything goes well tomorrow. I had surgery and didnt need antibiotics. I'll pray for you. :)

Thank you!

Some antibiotics are OK. Ask one that is not ototoxic

I agree, but it's a really important 10% because it determines the degree to which lost fat is replaced with muscle vs just flabby skin. But, yes, very crudely, weight is just a calorie game, and if your calorie input is less than what you're burning, you lose weight.

My metabolism is insane, though, I can barely gain weight if I try...

Over the last year I have discovered my new weight gain is 90% tinnitus, 10% just food :////

Same here, Manny. I got my BMI down to 22.5 and was able to keep it there for years. Once I got T, my weight began to increase and now I am struggling to get back to BMI that is optimal for me - at most 23...

I don't think you will see Dr Nagler at this forum again, not after reading some of the comments he made about TT that I will not mention.
Michael

I think he was extremely divisive, condescending, and that his compassion and good advice was at odds with his basically 1970s understanding of tinnitus which he refused to update.

Oh wow I missed all that drama.

Who is the man on your new avatar, @threefirefour?

Oh it's Gerard Green. He's a professional mover.

LOL! Awesome.

The place we are staying is super quiet and my tinnitus sounds 100 times louder. Perhaps the anxiety of travel made it louder too...

V nice shower here tho, it's like the size of our whole bathroom at home lol.

You guys are in Australia?

In an earlier post, Holly mentioned that she is Australian. I live in Canada.

Yep I'm in Australia :)

(Massive first world problem)

I wish I knew how style hair myself..

> (Massive first world problem)
Well, yes, being transformed from first world to third world (and you had described one sign of that) is unique to the "first world." The guiltier people like you feel, the faster we are becoming a third world country. So don't worry, soon there will be many more problems for us to deal with, and the problem you described won't seem so unusual.

I tried thinking like that but I can't seem to make it work :/ I can't hear it as anything else then coming from my head. Sometimes though, I will go to audionotch and find my tinnitus tone and then make it a tiny bit more low pitched and then play it as a masker......somehow "taking the noise out of my head" and playing it from a device helps.

That's such a good idea!

I go outside and pretend it's a bird making the high pitch sound. Sometimes it helps. Winter time don't help because you're stuck indoors.

You can always chat with me. I have nobody to talk to about T either :(

>sometimes I feel a bit neurotic posting so much.

Tell me about it!...

You are not annoying at all!! I for one like your comments.

Have you punched anybody?

Lol not yet, dont have the energy!

I've cut soda out of my diet several times. The first 3 days I could barely stay awake. I feel your pain.

And maybe reflect on the past year and quietly sob.

This was a really awful year to be honest, I felt deep unhappiness for a lot of it. I hope next year is better.

It was an awful year for me too. Glad is over. Praying 2019 will be better for all of us.

That's so true. I don't want to have children mainly because Like you I feel I would be a bad mother because of this condition and mental problems, but I also think I am doing the world a favour because the planet is way over populated, but people just don't understand these reasons for not having children.....

When it comes to children, for most people, self awareness concerning the subject is curiously switched off.

I also chose to be childfree and I have never regretted it.

Rent is crazy too, $400 a week for a tiny 1 bedroom apartment in a mediocre suburb.

The housing bubble 'burst' here in the US around 2010 but it's still tough to afford your first house. There were some government programs with tax incentives, and possibly lower mortgage rates, to try and stimulate the economy.

Lol. For millennials? Nothing.

I agree :/

Yeah that feeling when people ask you what you want for christmas and then only thing you can think of is impossible to obtain (healthy ears) :/

Sorry to hear. Health problems are really frustrating.

Randomness is a big component of T (at least of mine). It goes up and down for a myriad of logical and illogical reasons (mostly illogical ones).

Sure does! I have about 10 of them in total. I want to have surgery to remove them someday.

I am suicidal over the floaters sometimes, so the doctor's better be able to remove them :(

Treatments exist but they are very expensive and not all are treatable unless you drain all of the eye fluid and replace. I've had them since I was very young and have learned to live with them for the most part.

Like blender loud?

Probably louder :/

Wtf?!....that's crazy. Luckily I'm a scrambler not a boiler haha.

"THIS IS INSANE, I CAN'T LIFT 3 TIMES MY OWN BODY WEIGHT WHY DO I LIVE IN A NEST!?" sorry I miss read that I thought it said The Raving Ant.

I miss your lovely hair too Holly,
but now we can’t see it anyway, now you’ve changed your avatar.
(photos are so much more personal - IMNSHO !)

@Jazzer That picture previously on @Holly1987 avatar was not her. You're not vain at all Holly, as it's said a woman's beauty is in her hair....

Yes that wasn't me Jazzer! I did a post about it, it was my favourite character from a TV show. Sorry for the confusion.

And then you realise they are quicker than you thought and you're not sure you will make it.

It's v stressful

My stalking days are over.

https://www.tinnitustalk.com/recent-activity/

theres more actually

Wait, I'm not suppose to see this?

I Always wear earplugs with my hairdryer...

I don't really care or panic like I used to, it's just so confusing.

LOL!

You are getting at least 6 hours of sleep though, yes?

It's very up and down at the moment, some nights it's 2 hrs other nights it's 8.

I do it looks very sad. Of course it's leading to a treatment so I'm not complaining too much.

Poor little thing, he should be the mascot for this group. A true hero.

@threefirefour: They always look like that, take bloodhounds and bassets, they always look sad, still I wouldn't want to be on the RD team to have put Tinnitus on that Guinea pig.

@Holly1987: Agreed, is there away to do that?