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Holly1987

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I know you are all probably so sick of hearing about my wedding lol but some friends organised a hens and haven't given details... yeah no. Apr 10, 2019

    1. Holly1987
      Holly1987
      I know you are all probably so sick of hearing about my wedding lol but some friends organised a hens and haven't given details... yeah no.
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      2. Autumnly
        Autumnly
        Perhaps you can tell them that you'd like to celebrate with them but just in a quiet environment? E.g. fancy, quiet restaurant with good cocktails instead of a loud bar? (Or stay at home and watch a movie with them?)
        Apr 10, 2019
      3. just1morething
        just1morething
        I would think your "hens" would be sympathetic with your tinnitus affliction.
        Apr 10, 2019
      4. emmalee
        emmalee
        Oh, I see, thanks for the explanation. Here in Canada we have bridal showers and all girl party nights before a wedding.
        Apr 11, 2019
    2. Holly1987
      Holly1987
      Doing the same "click the box with a bike" captcha over and over is sending me a little loopy
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      2. Holly1987
        Holly1987
        I did get a bus one time, that was a real highlight in my voting journey.
        Apr 4, 2019
      3. Holly1987
        Holly1987
        Voting is kind of addictive, hitting the vote button is so satisfying. I feel like I'm actually doing something that might help.
        Apr 4, 2019
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      4. Autumnly
        Autumnly
        I hope we can keep that spirit up and focus on other projects as a community after the competition! :)
        Apr 4, 2019
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    3. Holly1987
      Holly1987
      I wish you could post pics in the comments under profile posts.
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      2. Drone Draper
        Drone Draper
        And emojis! Plus, I want other reactions than just Like. If someone is having a crappy day and posts that as a status, I want to be able to Hug or something else supportive.
        Apr 3, 2019
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      3. OnceUponaTime
        OnceUponaTime
        Me too.
        Apr 3, 2019
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    4. Holly1987
      Holly1987
      I had a really crappy day today, some days are just bad no matter how hard you try. I'm going to make wedges, probs cry a bit and go to bed.
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      2. Holly1987
        Holly1987
        Yes that's true @Strife_84, sorry that comment was insensitive.
        Apr 3, 2019
      3. Strife_84
        Strife_84
        @Holly1987 no, no, I did not get offended :D try to cheer up :) I know those hormones can mess your head, I have GF :P
        Apr 3, 2019
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      4. New Guy
        New Guy
        Perhaps it's a good sign something besides t is bothering you. I've noticed old troubles popping back into light lately as well. It was easier to only focus on t. I keep telling myself at least I'm in the game and enjoy the ride. I've also started to make some changes I've vowed to make for years. Someday is today!
        Apr 3, 2019
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    5. LunarRXA
      LunarRXA
      My mother was walking our terrier the other morning when another dog, maybe a bulldog/pit, attacked them. The leash twisted around her leg and tripped her. Winnie is fine b/c my mom intervened, but it cost her. Surgery Friday =/. Least walking Winnie in the morning will help me with my T a lil bit.
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      2. Holly1987
        Holly1987
        Oh my gosh that is awful, so sorry to hear that :(
        Apr 3, 2019
    6. Holly1987
      Holly1987
      I wonder if there is a group of people in another forum getting each other to vote. They have made a dangerous enemy! TT folk want a cure.
    7. Holly1987
      Holly1987
      Maybe I'm a bit of a killjoy but I hate April fools and rarely find pranks funny. 95% of the time I cringe when companies do something.
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      2. TheDanishGirl
        TheDanishGirl
        I agree. I find about 98% of them cringe-worthy, but there are sometimes 1 or 2 I like.
        Apr 2, 2019
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      3. TheDanishGirl
        TheDanishGirl
        Everybody in my country must sort/recycle their waste/garbage, and all danish households got this small green bucket a little while ago, that is only for food waste. Yesterday a danish fashion magazine had an acrticle that stated that this bucket was the IT-item for spring/summer, and I actually feel for it!! And then I had a good laugh......the fashion world is crazy enough, so it could have been for real.
        Apr 2, 2019
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      4. TheDanishGirl
        TheDanishGirl
        I like that this magazine had the balls to take piss on the very industry that they represent. It was quite humorous.
        Apr 2, 2019
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    8. Holly1987
      Holly1987
      Would you endure 4 hrs of super loud tinnitus per day if the rest of the day was completely silent.
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      3. Drone Draper
        Drone Draper
        I often find it interesting that people who engage in behaviour we find abhorrent in real life often make for people we find captivating in fiction. Take Don, for example. He's a serial cheater who hides things from his loved ones. You wouldn't want to be with him in real life, bu in fiction, we find him a captivating protagonist.
        Apr 2, 2019
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      4. Tanni
        Tanni
        Because they're flawed, and therefore more like us.
        Apr 2, 2019
      5. Agrajag364
        Agrajag364
        Flawed people can be the most interesting, we realise with age. I think Don’s bad behaviour is meant to be a function of his inner turmoil as he’s also portrayed as kind/moral and remorseful.
        Apr 2, 2019
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    9. Holly1987
      Holly1987
      Ah bugger my quiet streak has ended, it's back to normal now. My 3.5 days of near silence has given me so much hope. Feeling very grateful.
      1. Agrajag364
        Agrajag364
        Very good sign for you
        Apr 1, 2019
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      2. Tanni
        Tanni
        Sorry to hear that Holly, but it's a great sign that it quietened down so much and for quite a long period of time as well. Plenty of reason to be hopeful.
        Apr 1, 2019
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      3. Drone Draper
        Drone Draper
        The fact that your brain can actually lower the volume of the T is a good sign. People are always quick to point out that T is a sign of hearing loss. Yes, true, but people can suffer a hearing loss without T. Hopefully your brain is going to tune out the T permanently eventually.
        Apr 1, 2019
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    10. Holly1987
      Holly1987
      I'm currently in a super old school taxi, how quaint yet feral. The driver seems utterly over existing.
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      2. Holly1987
        Holly1987
        Update: it appears he doesn't really speak English and is going a super long way, I'm reconsidering generous tip.
        Mar 31, 2019
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      3. Holly1987
        Holly1987
        Gave a generous tip even though it was a super long route, he seemed sad.
        Mar 31, 2019
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      4. Bill Bauer
        Bill Bauer
        One time, my taxi driver took a super long route. I recorded his badge number and asked him to take me to a police station instead, as I wasn't going to pay. He took me to my destination and charged me the cost corresponding to the short route.
        Apr 1, 2019
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    11. Bill Bauer
      Bill Bauer
      Above, please replace "involving" with "including" :)
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    12. Holly1987
      Holly1987
      I find it very sad seeing birds in cages. Just went to a work friends for dinner and they had a little sad parrot all alone in a tiny cage.
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      3. Drone Draper
        Drone Draper
        About 7 years ago, my employer wanted us to have a team day out at the local zoo. My team couldn't possibly understand that I didn't want to go to the animal prison. I absolutely hate zoos for this reason.
        Mar 31, 2019
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      4. Holly1987
        Holly1987
        I hate them too, it's so depressing.
        Mar 31, 2019
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      5. Drone Draper
        Drone Draper
        One of my old flatmates went to the same zoo on MDMA. He said he could feel the animals' sadness. Fuuuuuuck that.
        Mar 31, 2019
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    13. Holly1987
      Holly1987
      Day 3 and my tinnitus is still very low, no increase. I can't believe this is happening.
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      2. Drone Draper
        Drone Draper
        if you end up like this for a few months, be sure to add to the Success Stories.
        Mar 31, 2019
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      3. Holly1987
        Holly1987
        I hope so @Drone Draper, although I've woken up on day 4 and there is a slight increase. As soon as I heard it that Simon and Garfunkel line "Hello darkness, my old friend" started playing in my head. I'm such a weirdo!
        Mar 31, 2019
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      4. Drone Draper
        Drone Draper
        No lie. I listened to that the day I woke up with T, because I couldn't listen to anything too loud. The irony wasn't lost on me.
        Mar 31, 2019
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    14. Holly1987
      Holly1987
      Just finished the Michael Jackson documentary "Leaving Neverland" it's super disturbing. I feel weird about listening to his music now.
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      2. Tanni
        Tanni
        @Holly1987 Definitely not her parents - they wouldn't have kept the case in the public eye they way they have if it was them.

        I think she was kidnapped as part of a child abuse/human trafficking ring, by someone who hung around family friendly resorts for this reason. It would have been very easy to spot that she was repeatedly left alone every night.
        Mar 31, 2019
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      3. Tanni
        Tanni
        It's very sad, and I hope very much that she is one day found.
        Mar 31, 2019
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      4. Holly1987
        Holly1987
        My god it's just so horrific :(
        Mar 31, 2019
    15. Holly1987
      Holly1987
      Wtf, today my tinnitus is so so quiet. I'm lying here kind of in shock... I'm sure it will ramp up later but this is amazing.
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      2. New Guy
        New Guy
        How long have you had t Holly? You've given encouragement to so many out there!
        Mar 29, 2019
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      3. Bill Bauer
        Bill Bauer
        @New Guy According to her profile page, she has had T since September 2017.
        Mar 29, 2019
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      4. Holly1987
        Holly1987
        I first got it very mildly in around August 2017 but it was so quiet I had to reallly listen for it, it caused minimal distress. From Sep 2017 the real hell started. It's still very quiet, I'm trying to stay realistic and manage my expectations but just the fact it can be this quiet and last all day really is so amazing for me.
        Mar 29, 2019
    16. Holly1987
      Holly1987
      On the way home from work I was wondering if I would sacrifice a limb to cure my tinnitus. I decided I would be willing to sacrifice one arm
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      2. Tanni
        Tanni
        I play this game all the time. I always say that everything is on the table except being blind.
        Mar 27, 2019
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      3. Paulmanlike
        Paulmanlike
        I compare mine to what I’d like to lose the most...T, depression or obsessive compulsive disorder. Having the 3 just feed each other.
        Mar 28, 2019
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      4. Drone Draper
        Drone Draper
        I wouldn't sacrifice a whole limb, but definitely a finger or two.
        Mar 28, 2019
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    17. Holly1987
      Holly1987
      Was just woken up with a completely new tone in my right ear, after about 20 minutes it went away. All those old feelings of panic returned.
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      2. New Guy
        New Guy
        Possibly fleeting t...or an LED light bulb. I thought I had a new tone from an LED bulb last week. Glad it's gone!
        Mar 26, 2019
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      3. Holly1987
        Holly1987
        It hasn't returned but when it happened I started sweating and shaking, I felt like physically getting up and running away from it. Tinnitus is such a tormentor, nothing scares me more tbh.
        Mar 27, 2019
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      4. New Guy
        New Guy
        I agree. It's scary because it's so unknown. I'm hoping with time I'll learn what to expect and always be cautious in noisy surroundings.
        Mar 27, 2019
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    18. Holly1987
      Holly1987
      Dieting is so hard, I peaked too early for my wedding and now I can't maintain my weight loss till July.
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      2. Agrajag364
        Agrajag364
        Are you on any drugs? Some can be killer for weight gain. My fast metabolism is gone since nortriptyline for pain
        Mar 22, 2019
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      3. OnceUponaTime
        OnceUponaTime
        Holly you can do this! And I am sure you are a beautiful lady inside and out. :) I'd love to see your wedding pics.
        Mar 22, 2019
      4. Holly1987
        Holly1987
        Mar 22, 2019
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    19. Holly1987
      Holly1987
      Just made oatmeal with dates and golden syrup, quite delicious. Overnight oats are also fun but I prefer it hot I think.
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    20. Holly1987
      Holly1987
      In other news I just finished quite a good documentary about a man that lived peacefully with bears until unfortunately they eat him :(
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      2. Drone Draper
        Drone Draper
        Most definitely not. I've seen a lot of people say he was probably gay and in denial. I think that's a possible source for his displeasure with his place in human society.
        Mar 20, 2019
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      3. Holly1987
        Holly1987
        Mar 20, 2019
      4. New Guy
        New Guy
        Check out this video on YouTube called bear sits next to guy https://youtu.be/rbE53XUtVw0 . For what it's worth I'm a firm believer in letting nature be. They're called 'wild' animals for a reason.
        Mar 20, 2019
    21. Holly1987
      Holly1987
      Guys I legitimately just had my worst ear related experience since getting tinnitus, I just cried on the phone to my partner for 10 minutes.
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      3. New Guy
        New Guy
        Holly I haven't seen any posts about this. Does that mean things worked out ok?
        Mar 23, 2019
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      4. Holly1987
        Holly1987
        @New Guy thanks for checking, everything is fine, no spike! I feel a bit embarrassed I was so hysterical tbh :( it really scared me. Never again!!
        Mar 23, 2019
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      5. New Guy
        New Guy
        Good to hear Holly.
        Mar 24, 2019
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    22. Holly1987
      Holly1987
      How accurate are noise measuring apps? Currently using one called "sound meter" seems ok.
      1. Jack Straw
        Jack Straw
        usually 3-5 decibels higher than a professional db meter. But it also depends on the phone.
        Mar 19, 2019
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    23. Holly1987
      Holly1987
      Does anyone else get a spike after exercising? Lifting weights/circuit training makes mine goes nuts afterwards. V frustrating..
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      2. Holly1987
        Holly1987
        I do it in silence in my garage so it's not noise related.
        Mar 16, 2019
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      3. Drone Draper
        Drone Draper
        Yes. The spike subsides tho.
        Mar 17, 2019
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    24. Holly1987
      Holly1987
      I never reuse ear plugs because I'm scared of infection. I can't imagine using a pair twice..
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    25. Holly1987
      Holly1987
      I get very sore ears in cold weather. Damn I miss the days I had normal ears. I'm 50% mad 50% sad this is now my life :(
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      2. Manny
        Manny
        That's so weird, I have the exact same thing! And only since acoustic trauma.
        Mar 13, 2019
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      3. HanaK
        HanaK
        I don't get sore ears but wind noise is absolutely unbearable. It just sounds so damaging even if I'm just walking lol.
        Mar 14, 2019
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    26. Holly1987
      Holly1987
      During a hike yesterday my delightful teenage cousin asked if I would have semen shot down my ears if it cured tinnitus. Yes, yes I would.
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      2. Holly1987
        Holly1987
        Thanks for trying tho x
        Mar 5, 2019
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      3. just1morething
        just1morething
        Did you get your semen injection approved by your ENT? Maybe semen from a bird would work to regenerate your hair cells? :)
        Mar 10, 2019
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      4. HanaK
        HanaK
        Teens and their wild imagination LOL
        Mar 14, 2019
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    27. Holly1987
      Holly1987
      I wish I knew how much noise I can tolerate without my tinnitus getting worse so I can just get on with my life.
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      2. TheDanishGirl
        TheDanishGirl
        And I have had the some thought, that if I get to old age I will say fuck it and go to loud events all the time......even if T gets worse I will only have to endure it a shorter time period.
        Mar 4, 2019
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      3. HanaK
        HanaK
        I feel you. I ventured out and decided to listen to music/sing a bit last night. It wasn't even for 30 minutes and my volume was at 3-4 bars, but my T was screaming after.... Can we not even enjoy life? :(
        Mar 4, 2019
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      4. OnceUponaTime
        OnceUponaTime
        Dont we all!?
        Mar 4, 2019
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    28. Holly1987
      Holly1987
      Making rice paper rolls, keeping the rice paper moist but not too moist is challenging. Also the rolling is stressful, lots of breakage.
      1. Holly1987
        Holly1987
        I feel these are one of those foods you are probs better off just buying, like sushi.
        Feb 24, 2019
      2. Holly1987
        Holly1987
        Don't get me started on the dipping sauce.
        Feb 24, 2019
      3. HanaK
        HanaK
        double up on the rice paper :)
        Feb 24, 2019
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    29. Holly1987
      Holly1987
      I wish voluntary euthanasia was easily accessible. It would bring me a lot of comfort to know there was a way out should it get unbearable.
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      3. Striveon
        Striveon
        @Drone Draper can you simply buy that poison somewhere? I’m curious...
        Feb 22, 2019
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      4. Drone Draper
        Drone Draper
        Yup. The finality of the euthanasia option would work well for me in this instance. I can probably manage what I have now for the rest of my life, but a sudden surge to the hell that Bam or dpdx describes is more pain than I could live with.
        Feb 22, 2019
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      5. Striveon
        Striveon
        Interesting... I’m glad you’re doing better :). Let’s hope neuromod releases their device sooner than expected!
        Feb 22, 2019
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    30. Holly1987
      Holly1987
      My spike has gone away, back to baseline. It's crazy how even a slight increase can make it appear SO much louder.
      1. Holly1987
        Holly1987
        It's only taken me 2 years to figure this out but stress related spikes (so far) always go away after approx 3 days.
        Feb 20, 2019
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    Gender:
    Female
    Tinnitus Since:
    09/09/2017
    Cause of Tinnitus:
    Unknown p