Holly1987

Hey Holly! Always here for you girl. How are you?? I just had to go to the eye doctor yesterday as I was experiencing double vision...thought it was maybe because of the new medication, but he does not think so... suxz getting old...lol

Sorry @OnceUponaTime I just saw this, how did your eyes go?

New glasses.. but still I get the double vision. Just have to take breaks in between reading....How are you Holly??

Perhaps you can tell them that you'd like to celebrate with them but just in a quiet environment? E.g. fancy, quiet restaurant with good cocktails instead of a loud bar? (Or stay at home and watch a movie with them?)

I would think your "hens" would be sympathetic with your tinnitus affliction.

Oh, I see, thanks for the explanation. Here in Canada we have bridal showers and all girl party nights before a wedding.

I did get a bus one time, that was a real highlight in my voting journey.

Voting is kind of addictive, hitting the vote button is so satisfying. I feel like I'm actually doing something that might help.

I hope we can keep that spirit up and focus on other projects as a community after the competition! :)

And emojis! Plus, I want other reactions than just Like. If someone is having a crappy day and posts that as a status, I want to be able to Hug or something else supportive.

Me too.

Yes that's true @Strife_84, sorry that comment was insensitive.

@Holly1987 no, no, I did not get offended :D try to cheer up :) I know those hormones can mess your head, I have GF :P

Perhaps it's a good sign something besides t is bothering you. I've noticed old troubles popping back into light lately as well. It was easier to only focus on t. I keep telling myself at least I'm in the game and enjoy the ride. I've also started to make some changes I've vowed to make for years. Someday is today!

Oh my gosh that is awful, so sorry to hear that :(

I agree. I find about 98% of them cringe-worthy, but there are sometimes 1 or 2 I like.

Everybody in my country must sort/recycle their waste/garbage, and all danish households got this small green bucket a little while ago, that is only for food waste. Yesterday a danish fashion magazine had an acrticle that stated that this bucket was the IT-item for spring/summer, and I actually feel for it!! And then I had a good laugh......the fashion world is crazy enough, so it could have been for real.

I like that this magazine had the balls to take piss on the very industry that they represent. It was quite humorous.

I often find it interesting that people who engage in behaviour we find abhorrent in real life often make for people we find captivating in fiction. Take Don, for example. He's a serial cheater who hides things from his loved ones. You wouldn't want to be with him in real life, bu in fiction, we find him a captivating protagonist.

Because they're flawed, and therefore more like us.

Flawed people can be the most interesting, we realise with age. I think Don’s bad behaviour is meant to be a function of his inner turmoil as he’s also portrayed as kind/moral and remorseful.

Very good sign for you

Sorry to hear that Holly, but it's a great sign that it quietened down so much and for quite a long period of time as well. Plenty of reason to be hopeful.

The fact that your brain can actually lower the volume of the T is a good sign. People are always quick to point out that T is a sign of hearing loss. Yes, true, but people can suffer a hearing loss without T. Hopefully your brain is going to tune out the T permanently eventually.

Update: it appears he doesn't really speak English and is going a super long way, I'm reconsidering generous tip.

Gave a generous tip even though it was a super long route, he seemed sad.

One time, my taxi driver took a super long route. I recorded his badge number and asked him to take me to a police station instead, as I wasn't going to pay. He took me to my destination and charged me the cost corresponding to the short route.

About 7 years ago, my employer wanted us to have a team day out at the local zoo. My team couldn't possibly understand that I didn't want to go to the animal prison. I absolutely hate zoos for this reason.

I hate them too, it's so depressing.

One of my old flatmates went to the same zoo on MDMA. He said he could feel the animals' sadness. Fuuuuuuck that.

if you end up like this for a few months, be sure to add to the Success Stories.

I hope so @Drone Draper, although I've woken up on day 4 and there is a slight increase. As soon as I heard it that Simon and Garfunkel line "Hello darkness, my old friend" started playing in my head. I'm such a weirdo!

No lie. I listened to that the day I woke up with T, because I couldn't listen to anything too loud. The irony wasn't lost on me.

@Holly1987 Definitely not her parents - they wouldn't have kept the case in the public eye they way they have if it was them.

I think she was kidnapped as part of a child abuse/human trafficking ring, by someone who hung around family friendly resorts for this reason. It would have been very easy to spot that she was repeatedly left alone every night.

It's very sad, and I hope very much that she is one day found.

My god it's just so horrific :(

How long have you had t Holly? You've given encouragement to so many out there!

@New Guy According to her profile page, she has had T since September 2017.

I first got it very mildly in around August 2017 but it was so quiet I had to reallly listen for it, it caused minimal distress. From Sep 2017 the real hell started. It's still very quiet, I'm trying to stay realistic and manage my expectations but just the fact it can be this quiet and last all day really is so amazing for me.

I play this game all the time. I always say that everything is on the table except being blind.

I compare mine to what I’d like to lose the most...T, depression or obsessive compulsive disorder. Having the 3 just feed each other.

I wouldn't sacrifice a whole limb, but definitely a finger or two.

Possibly fleeting t...or an LED light bulb. I thought I had a new tone from an LED bulb last week. Glad it's gone!

It hasn't returned but when it happened I started sweating and shaking, I felt like physically getting up and running away from it. Tinnitus is such a tormentor, nothing scares me more tbh.

I agree. It's scary because it's so unknown. I'm hoping with time I'll learn what to expect and always be cautious in noisy surroundings.

Are you on any drugs? Some can be killer for weight gain. My fast metabolism is gone since nortriptyline for pain

Holly you can do this! And I am sure you are a beautiful lady inside and out. :) I'd love to see your wedding pics.

@Agrajag364 no drugs, I just love food lol x

Most definitely not. I've seen a lot of people say he was probably gay and in denial. I think that's a possible source for his displeasure with his place in human society.

How sad :(

This is the song at the end, I like it
https://youtu.be/BPl6-dbIkiU

Check out this video on YouTube called bear sits next to guy https://youtu.be/rbE53XUtVw0 . For what it's worth I'm a firm believer in letting nature be. They're called 'wild' animals for a reason.

Holly I haven't seen any posts about this. Does that mean things worked out ok?

@New Guy thanks for checking, everything is fine, no spike! I feel a bit embarrassed I was so hysterical tbh :( it really scared me. Never again!!

Good to hear Holly.

usually 3-5 decibels higher than a professional db meter. But it also depends on the phone.

I do it in silence in my garage so it's not noise related.

Yes. The spike subsides tho.

That's so weird, I have the exact same thing! And only since acoustic trauma.

I don't get sore ears but wind noise is absolutely unbearable. It just sounds so damaging even if I'm just walking lol.

And I have had the some thought, that if I get to old age I will say fuck it and go to loud events all the time......even if T gets worse I will only have to endure it a shorter time period.

I feel you. I ventured out and decided to listen to music/sing a bit last night. It wasn't even for 30 minutes and my volume was at 3-4 bars, but my T was screaming after.... Can we not even enjoy life? :(

Dont we all!?

I feel these are one of those foods you are probs better off just buying, like sushi.

Don't get me started on the dipping sauce.

double up on the rice paper :)

@Drone Draper can you simply buy that poison somewhere? I’m curious...

Yup. The finality of the euthanasia option would work well for me in this instance. I can probably manage what I have now for the rest of my life, but a sudden surge to the hell that Bam or dpdx describes is more pain than I could live with.

Interesting... I’m glad you’re doing better :). Let’s hope neuromod releases their device sooner than expected!

It's only taken me 2 years to figure this out but stress related spikes (so far) always go away after approx 3 days.