Please Don’t Laugh at Me

No one here is going to laugh at You, Nanny chocolate.

 

How are you feeling today Eve?

 

I’m fed up with myself. Can’t get over my depression and anxiety and it’s not just about T. Have to go out for a little while soon and I’m panicking about that too.
You are doing really well though.
Thanks for the hugs, save some up for the new ladies you meet!
Eve x
@fishbone

 

Thanks Glynis, hope the little spotty ones are ok xx
@glynis

 

@Nanny chocolate ,
My ears are getting the better of me today and do most days and today's a low day.
Here is a picture of little spotty man ...lol

 

He’s gorgeous. I’m sorry about yours ears, it’s really horrible and you are so brave.
Hugs from Devon.
Eve x
@glynis

 

Awww eve,

I 100% understand where you are coming from. I face depression and being lonley and living in a spot that I really don't like. I say that I have no family, but i have a brother but hes not like family. He's got his own 2 kids(they are toddlers) and for no reason they cry and scream when they see me. All other kids love me and smile and I am a gentle soul, but his kids hate me. Me and him do not have a great relationship at all. He's jaded me so so so so many times and they have all been rotten. He's in a horrible financial spot and it was rare that he actually picked me up.

There is no real support from him at all and not all that much since my mom and dad died almost 5 years ago. So I don't truly see him as a family nor much of a friend. Im at it alone daily by myself and with my 3 little dogs.

So he came and picked me up and was crying. He has no money to buy his kids clothing and feed himself. Even though he has burned me 1000s of times and most would never forgive him. I am a caring soul and a rare one and I still had compassion for him. he had no money to buy his toddlers clothing and no money to buy food for himself.

I took him and bought his kids some clothing, fed him and wished him the best. I should hate him for what he has done to me, but through my faith and having a big heart, I still helped him out and still help those that need it.

Depression and anxiety is a horrible thing and my heart does go out to you. I have faced brutal depression the past 3 months and it turned into ugly anxiety as well. Also I was taking some supplement to relax me and mellow me out and that turned into nightmare anxiety. Also, the blood pressure pills they forced on me brought on ever more horrible anxiety. It took a lot of guts and courage to beat all of this ALONE. Only I supported myself and my willpower to change my life. I face so so much pain and horror in my life, but I truly enjoy beating the odds and still remaing positive and loving towards the good people of this world... NEVER GIVE UP!

I truly hope you get better and I'll be thinking about you.

Bless you hun

PS-each day is a challenge for me. The tinnitus is always loud but i have tons of other obstacles that I deal with alone daily. Each new day is a blessing to see for me and I am grateful for it. I have TONS of reasons to create threads and complain but that's not my style...

 

Thank you Fishbone.
Every day a fight to carry on. Your little dogs must be a comfort to you though.
D and A change our mindset and make it even more difficult to cope with T. Drilling away there all day, every day.
Eve xx

 

People clench their teeth when they have lost their equilibrium.

When we can not control or switch off the sound of Tinnitus, we control our jaw, and close it tight.

It is a fighting response to tension and anxiety.
It feeds both of these aspects.

Unfortunately, I have to tell you that relaxation of mind and body is not possible with that response.
So you have to address this sooner or later.

It is relatively easy to correct this problem, however.

Sit quietly in your chair.
Assume the demeanour of a baby.
With your lips closed, allow your jaw to hang comfortably loose, your teeth apart.
Allow the inside of your mouth to relax and go quite quite soft.
Allow your throat to soften.
Become aware that your tongue is now floating in water.
Ask your tummy to take over your breathing for you.
Automatic reflexes will do this for you.
Sit quietly enjoying your easy breathing.

(As a habit, try to become aware of where your tongue is - it should always be floating gently,
never pushed up against the roof of your mouth.
Teeth should close only when eating!)

I hope this helps.
It is not something you have to do,

“It is something you have to undo.”

Dave
xx

The other thing that people always need is a great big hug xxx

 

Don’t beat yourself up. Depression and anxiety are incredibly difficult to manage. It’s not your fault you feel this way

 

I know the mouth clenching is something I’ve had for a long time Dave. I’ve broken teeth and that’s why I’ve got two implants and it’s one of those that I can’t stand. I can’t have it removed, big Surgery! but it’s that tooth I focused a lot of thought on when I was suicidal (sertraline side effect initially, look it up!!)
Now, every time I touch it I freak out again. I’m seeing a hypnotherapist and I will try your counter suggestions. I’m stuck on sertraline and T is worse. I don’t understand why the anxiety and lesser D is so bad.
I go around thinking of a solution!!! This is not the me I used to be. This is no way to live.
I’ve seen one of my ladies today, I’m a Counsellor, and it feels as if it’s obvious to everyone.
I just don’t know how to go forward. I have another cranial therapy appt tomorrow for my neck after the RTC.
I’ve got the hug, and hug you back.

Eve x
@Jazzer

 

Thanks Ed, it’s just the anxiety is so huge now, I’ve never felt like this before and it’s disabling. I think the mouth clenching is part of it but I can’t stop. I’ve replied to Dave, if you read it sometime it will save filling up your in box.
You are very kind but this D(severe then) and anxiety barged in 5 months ago along with more severe T. They refuse to leave now and the anxiety is growing much stronger. I have no idea why!!
Eve x
@Ed209

 

@Nanny chocolate ,
Does your anxiety cause you to have racing thoughts even silly ones that don't make sense?
Love glynis x

 

My anxiety is about all sorts of things Glynis. It’s health related when I don’t feel safe, panic!! It’s also about my stupid mouth, that the sertraline is dangerous etc.
I do have weird thoughts, I have OCD which is a bit PTSD related. I wonder if I’m bonkers sometimes.
It sounds as if you might have some acquaintance with anxiety?
I can help my Clients to source their anxiety but I can’t soothe my own.
Eve xx

 

@Nanny chocolate ,
It could be General Anxiety Disorder and could even be the antidepressant your taking and needs changing but don't suffer alone and see what your doctor can give you.
Love glynis x

 

I think it’s both but I can’t mess around with the ADs, that’s what caused the problems to start with. My GP made things worse, they are only general and don’t specialise in mental health. Big sigh
Eve x
@glynis

 

@Nanny chocolate
Dear Eve,
Would you consider a stay in a mental health facility?
Your anxiety sounds overwhelming and I feel like
you need some urgent help to get on top of
It.
Just a suggestion. I went to one when I first got tinnitus and it helped immensely. Was there for a
Month (it was a mums and baby unit as I had newborn twins). Was probably there longer than needed but helped with the babies.
Sam x

 

Hello Sam
I’m glad you got help. I don’t think I need in care but I am struggling with anxiety and life.
I’ve had T for a long time but it’s revved up now. Another day to face! Thank you for your kindness xx
@Samantha R