getting T was so easily avoidable (for me). and then it worsening, and worsening, and worsening, was so easily avoidable. but nope, it all had to happen didn't it. with all kinds of physical pain now too. safe to say i did NOT handle T well.
5 year trophy... is that so. Thanks tinnitus talk. If only that calmed this atrocious spike. And so it goes. Hope some of my friends here are doing ok. I don't pop in much anymore.
i hate the fact that i am falling out of habituation again and again. It is so exhausting. It is so troublesome. I know i must conquer this, but i have no idea how. I don't know, if i can habituate again, when i know, i can get this again and again and again. Habituation is not a fix, it is like a placebo, so the millions will not get into good studies. It is so fucked up.
What makes it frustrating is that I can expose to sounds no problem, and then a few hours after or even in the morning I'll know if it was too much and if I'll spike or have a hyperacusis warning. Makes it SUPER hard to know how and when exposure is successful
I've talked to my psychiatrist. What i'm going to do is take clonazepam a bit more frequently for 1 month (0.25mg or 0.5mg every 3-4 days for a month). Since it works well on my tinnitus and hyperacusis, he suspects that clonazepam might calm my nerves enough to allow me to wean off protections and make my ears used to sounds again.