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BrOKeN_1

Member, Male, 45, from Utah

Hey friends. Hope everyone is coping. I'm trying real hard not to log into this forum more then once a week. I want to check in not obsess. Jul 10, 2024 at 5:28 AM

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    1. BrOKeN_1
      BrOKeN_1
      Hey friends. Hope everyone is coping. I'm trying real hard not to log into this forum more then once a week. I want to check in not obsess.
      1. SarahMLFlemmer, Sansa, tpj and 7 others like this.
      2. Bob3382
        Bob3382
        I am trying to log in less, lest I obsess. Sleep is not going well. I pray daily for healing and help in handling it, and that we would all have relief soon.
        Jul 10, 2024 at 3:59 PM
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    2. BrOKeN_1
      BrOKeN_1
      ...good morning... time to vomit. Wish it actually helped. T sucks and I'm a broken record. Hope some of you are having improvements. Peace.
      1. L along the way
        L along the way
        Thank you, a good day to you too. I have been a broken record for months now, uff it was not nice at all. I hope to find more a new day vibe, that a new day can really bring us rejuvination, renewal, & healing. It shouldn't be the same as yesterday. I'm trying to be patient & have hope that time will make things better. A better day
        Jul 2, 2024
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    3. BrOKeN_1
      BrOKeN_1
      Please T just go away. I've never wanted anything more. I'm so F'n tired of listening to you. Just GO!
      1. Ngo13, _Shoto_, weehiru and 8 others like this.
    4. BrOKeN_1
      BrOKeN_1
      Staying outside and busy is the only way for me to have moderate masking/distraction. Slow down or go in the devil begins his awful whisper!
      1. 4Grace, _Shoto_, Ngo13 and 2 others like this.
    5. BrOKeN_1
      BrOKeN_1
      Starting to effect my mental health again. Periods of tolerance are short lived and barely noticeable. Whatever Habituation I had is fading.
      1. Daniel Lion, Juliane and streifzug like this.
      2. 4Grace
        4Grace
        I pray to Jesus for you and all of us. He exists. No doubt. I believe in habituation to the noise if you don’t have relative T. Stay strong my friend.
        May 4, 2024
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    6. BrOKeN_1
      BrOKeN_1
      I swear my wife must be hard of hearing. Her cell volume is always maxed out. The moment she clicks on a video anywhere near I shit myself
      1. Sansa, _Shoto_ and Kiyomi like this.
      2. Jammer
        Jammer
        Same thing with my MIL. Anytime her cell or house phones ring, I reflectively stick my fingers in my ears. TV always blasting too. Then again she's 92.
        Apr 24, 2024
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      3. 4Grace
        4Grace
        @Jammer - when I hear others do what we need to do I think to myself - how are we supposed to live like this. It’s crazy. There is enough stress in life. I can’t get over this!
        May 4, 2024
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    7. BrOKeN_1
      BrOKeN_1
      I wish I could nap without awareness spiking. So dumb.
      1. 4Grace and streifzug like this.
      2. Marshall
        Marshall
        my least favorite part, but i alwas just tell myself itll go away like it always does
        Apr 22, 2024
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    8. BrOKeN_1
      BrOKeN_1
      I never thought I would miss my original T volume. Not being able to mask has become almost unbearable. And distraction doesn't come as oft.
      1. 4Grace, gameover, tpj and 4 others like this.
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      3. 4Grace
        4Grace
        So sorry. I had a massive worsening a few days ago. You can’t avoid loud noises if you go outside. It’s always something. It’s funny how when it gets worse your previous tone always seems like it was a walk in the park.
        Apr 14, 2024
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      4. BrOKeN_1
        BrOKeN_1
        @4Grace Ive seen so many people improve in the last 3 1/2 years it's hard to imagine you not catching a break at some point. It just seems to take so fucking long for some people. I'm sorry you have to deal with pain hyperacusis brother.
        Apr 15, 2024
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      5. 4Grace
        4Grace
        @BrOKeN_1 - I feel like that ship has sailed. Due to the nature of my T. Nerve related. I always had hope that my nerves would heal. Now it’s just beyond words. I am not stretching the truth when I say it gets worse every day. It’s so loud and painful.
        Apr 23, 2024
    9. BrOKeN_1
      BrOKeN_1
      Welp. I guess I'm not sleeping today. Gonna be a long night.
      1. ZFire, aab, SharonBell and 2 others like this.
      2. ZFire
        ZFire
        Did you manage to get some sleep?
        Apr 11, 2024
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      3. BrOKeN_1
        BrOKeN_1
        @ZFire I managed about 5 today actually. Thanks for asking. Sometime you just have to be awake for 48hrs I guess. I hope your doing well today yourself.
        Apr 12, 2024
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      4. ZFire
        ZFire
        @BrOKeN_1 glad you were able to get some rest at least.

        Been doing well these past few days. Thanks for checkin in. :)
        Apr 12, 2024
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    10. BrOKeN_1
      BrOKeN_1
      Not Loving Living Life Filtered.
      1. Ngo13, tpj, gameover and 1 other person like this.
    11. BrOKeN_1
      BrOKeN_1
      Yea. Allergy season has begun ;(
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      2. ZFire
        ZFire
        I hate allergy season too..
        Apr 12, 2024
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    12. BrOKeN_1
      BrOKeN_1
      Wake Up. Hear My T. Get Nauseous and Mildly depressed. Take A Minute To Breathe. Get Out Of Bed. Get Distracted. Get Busy. Rinse-Repeat.
      1. SharonBell, Juliane, aab and 7 others like this.
      2. Tryn2BHopeful
        Tryn2BHopeful
        Sounds like my days... /sigh
        Mar 19, 2024
        SharonBell, BrOKeN_1 and 4Grace like this.
      3. Juliane
        Juliane
        Had I known this would be my life, growing up, I would have taken matters into my own hands
        Mar 24, 2024
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    13. BrOKeN_1
      BrOKeN_1
      I tell myself I can survive this.. That is what I tell myself.
      1. SharonBell, 4Grace, aab and 6 others like this.
      2. BrOKeN_1
        BrOKeN_1
        Mar 15, 2024
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      3. 4Grace
        4Grace
        This video hit home.
        Mar 19, 2024
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    14. BrOKeN_1
      BrOKeN_1
      Damn this condition.. as soon as you think your making progress. Noise spikes and tolerance evaporates.
      1. SharonBell, Juliane, 4Grace and 5 others like this.
      2. 4Grace
        4Grace
        It’s like every victory is short lived.
        Mar 9, 2024
    15. BrOKeN_1
      BrOKeN_1
      Daddy-Daughter Dance tonight. Feeling a bit nervous but I'm prepared with adequate hearing protection I believe. Live a little bit. Be safe.
      1. SharonBell, 4Grace, Ngo13 and 4 others like this.
      2. Juliane
        Juliane
        How did it go?
        Mar 24, 2024
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      3. BrOKeN_1
        BrOKeN_1
        Kept the plugs in all night and stayed away from the speakers. Girls had fun!
        Mar 24, 2024
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    16. BrOKeN_1
      BrOKeN_1
      Happy Valentines Day.
      1. 4Grace, Joshua Macleod, Ngo13 and 2 others like this.
    17. BrOKeN_1
      BrOKeN_1
      Woke up with increased anxiety for no apparent reason. Now I have that crawly skin, uncomfortable shakiness. Let's do this I guess. Sigh...
      1. 4Grace, Barry098, tpj and 1 other person like this.
      2. Barry098
        Barry098
        Yep…I know that feeling all too well!
        Feb 10, 2024
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    18. BrOKeN_1
      BrOKeN_1
      Yesterday was a good day...
      1. 4Grace, gameover, tpj and 3 others like this.
      2. BrOKeN_1
        BrOKeN_1
        The irony of life... best day I've had in well over a year and covid takes me out the very next day! Feels like I've been hit by a car. :(
        Jan 18, 2024
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    19. BrOKeN_1
      BrOKeN_1
      Took two weeks off work and completely screwed up my sleep schedule. Stupid circadian rhythm. Hopefully I readjust fast. No sleep equals :(
      1. Juliane, SharonBell, 4Grace and 4 others like this.
    20. BrOKeN_1
      BrOKeN_1
      @Kain On the pulsating tinnitus question. Its probably not to odd. I'm getting some crazy reactive T after 3 years of a pretty constant Eee!
      1. 4Grace and Kain like this.
      2. Kain
        Kain
        Aw heck. I’m hearing blood flow in my right ear when my head is at different angles. Just another nuisance to the list :P
        Jan 8, 2024
    21. BrOKeN_1
      BrOKeN_1
      Trying to play Minecraft with my 7yr old and just let it be. Constantly in and out of being present. Build the house dad! Get the coal! :D
      1. PennyCat
        PennyCat
        I love minecraft! I’ve been playing it every day for like 2 months now :P It’s a good distraction
        Jan 8, 2024
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    22. BrOKeN_1
      BrOKeN_1
      Been dreaming alot lately... no T in my dreams as far as I can tell. I should dream more. (If only)
    23. BrOKeN_1
      BrOKeN_1
      To Lenire.. Or not to Lenire. That is the question. Insurance doesn't cover costs so big gamble. Any thoughts?
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      2. gameover
        gameover
        Garbage. Don't.
        Dec 14, 2023
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      3. Tryn2BHopeful
        Tryn2BHopeful
        I haven't heard anything good about it on these forums, but honestly I haven't heard much good about anything on these forums and really don't expect to. I thought about trying a 9V battery and random noise JK
        Dec 14, 2023
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      4. BrOKeN_1
        BrOKeN_1
        @Tryn2BHopeful Maybe if we try taking a tazer to the head something might get reset! Lol
        Jan 5, 2024
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    24. BrOKeN_1
      BrOKeN_1
      It's so unrelentingly loud. I feel like I could cry at any moment. Yet that's just too exhausting. It's amazing what we can endure. Kind of.
      1. SharonBell, 4Grace, tpj and 3 others like this.
      2. SarahMLFlemmer
        SarahMLFlemmer
        I understand.
        Dec 13, 2023
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      3. 4Grace
        4Grace
        Its amazing what we can endure. Kind of … Yes. As I type this I am in my basement while my daughter is having her 8th break down of the day. Yelling and screaming for 15 min. I’m on life level 11 out of 10.
        Jan 13, 2024
    25. BrOKeN_1
      BrOKeN_1
      Silence is but a fleeting memory now... mornings are tough. 1st wake up. 2nd find the will to live. 3rd do the damn thing.
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      2. BrOKeN_1
        BrOKeN_1
        @SarahMLFlemmer thank you.. it can be utterly overwhelming at times but you know that. I hope you have better days real soon. *hugs*
        Dec 4, 2023
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      3. kingsfan
        kingsfan
        You should get a cat. Then the first thing you'll focus on the in the morning, is the annoying thing walking all over you and bothering you to feed it. =D
        Dec 4, 2023
      4. SarahMLFlemmer
        SarahMLFlemmer
        @BrOKeN_1 rinse and repeat! ❤️ We're gonna make it!
        Dec 4, 2023
    26. SharonBell
      SharonBell
      I keep getting fullness or pressure in my ears. I went in dollar general and came out and that’s what happened and then it went away. Anybody deal with this and what is it? I ate a biscuit earlier could that have been it from salt. I just don’t know.
      1. BrOKeN_1
        BrOKeN_1
        Every time I walk into the gas station that happens to me. Goes away immediately after I walk out. It's wierd
        Nov 17, 2023
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    27. SharonBell
      SharonBell
      Does anyone have hyperacusis?
    28. SharonBell
      SharonBell
      I have been having some pressure on both sides of my face by my ears. Anybody get this. It comes and goes. I had pressure like that when my tinnitus first started , but so much worse when I woke up that morning and went to urgent care.
      1. Forever hopeful
        Forever hopeful
        @SharonBell I have TMJ. Same symptoms. Aggravates tinnitus big time. I am a big clencher. It can change the nature and frequency of Tinnitus. Getting a night guard. I would look into it.
        Nov 17, 2023
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    29. SharonBell
      SharonBell
      Does tinnitus get worse in the winter?
    30. SharonBell
      SharonBell
      Can anyone that has hyperacusis please explain it to me please.
      1. MindOverMatter
        MindOverMatter
        Hyperacusis basically means your are oversensitive to ("everyday") sounds. Your tolerance of sound levels are not as they should be. It could be loudness h, pain h, or both, and a lot in between this... I suggest you do some searches on the forum about it @SharonBell to get more insight.
        Nov 17, 2023
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    Gender:
    Male
    Birthday:
    Jun 22, 1979 (Age: 45)
    Location:
    Utah
    Occupation:
    Miner
    Tinnitus Since:
    10/2020
    Cause of Tinnitus:
    High Frequency Hearing Loss