Drone Draper
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Drone Draper

Member, Male, from U.K.

Habituating a smidge. Woke up in the middle of the night from a nightmare (planecrash) and heard my T. Did not freak out and slept again. Feb 20, 2019 at 5:37 AM

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    1. Drone Draper
      Drone Draper
      Habituating a smidge. Woke up in the middle of the night from a nightmare (planecrash) and heard my T. Did not freak out and slept again.
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      2. Drone Draper
        Drone Draper
        Unfortunately I was sent back to my nightmare, but earlier on as people boarded the plane that crashed. FML, brain, y u do this? I have a fear of flying and a fear of tinnitus, why do you keep doing this to me?
        Feb 20, 2019 at 9:50 AM
    2. Drone Draper
      Drone Draper
      Sometimes ringing, sometimes hissing. Still high pitched though. Please more hiss.
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      3. Drone Draper
        Drone Draper
        I understand, too. I know some are trying to get on disability. To be honest, the disability money isn't enough for me, I need a stable salary.
        Feb 19, 2019 at 4:35 PM
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      4. Holly1987
        Holly1987
        I live in Australia where disability is quite a substantial weekly amount however unless you are ex military I think your chances of getting it for tinnitus are slim.
        Feb 19, 2019 at 4:42 PM
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      5. Drone Draper
        Drone Draper
        Yeah, I think it's very tough here. I would rather have a menial security or night porter job than have to deal with all the paperwork.
        Feb 19, 2019 at 4:43 PM
    3. Drone Draper
      Drone Draper
      The closest I've come to silence post-T is wearing hearing aids with earmuffs over, like a sperglord. If I could sleep like this I would.
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      2. Drone Draper
        Drone Draper
        Yeah, they have to stay in. And I don't think you can do things like change volume. I do like how fuss-free they are otherwise.
        Feb 19, 2019 at 7:20 AM
      3. Fabrikat
        Fabrikat
        What brand and type of hearing aids are you using at present? Are you happy with them?
        Feb 19, 2019 at 8:40 AM
      4. Drone Draper
        Drone Draper
        Using some Widex ones. They are behind the ear. I don't mind them.
        Feb 19, 2019 at 8:41 AM
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    4. Drone Draper
      Drone Draper
      In Dublin's fair city, where the girls are so pretty, I first set my my eyes on sweet Neuromod.
    5. Drone Draper
      Drone Draper
      I'm enjoying speech in noise tests. "Choose the words - book, cat, bells". Best video game I've played in a while.
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      3. Drone Draper
        Drone Draper
        That's the one! I'm not sure why my score is variable. Probs hearing loss, ha.
        Feb 17, 2019 at 6:27 PM
      4. Manny
        Manny
        My score is similar. As difficult as the test is I actually don't think it's a good representation of real-life speech in noise, as there are only 10 possible options for each answer ://
        Feb 17, 2019 at 6:30 PM
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      5. Drone Draper
        Drone Draper
        Ha! True. The "choose the words" ones are way too easy.

        To be honest, I never struggle with speech in crowds, winds, etc.
        Feb 17, 2019 at 6:32 PM
    6. Drone Draper
      Drone Draper
      Gym playing music at 85db this morning! Seeing kids walk around with the same Bose headphones I have. Wonder if any of them will get T :/
      1. Arseny
        Arseny
        Only if they expose themselves to very loud sounds. Yes, they develop cochlear synaptopathy, but it won't show itself until they suddenly damage their hearing so brain can't adjust to it.
        I have 2 friends that blast headphones at 100% - no tinnitus.
        I was just like that and I had zero issues. But of the reasons it's so loud was this cumulative damage over 10+ years.
        Feb 16, 2019 at 11:01 PM
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      2. Drone Draper
        Drone Draper
        Sure. Well, there are people who lose hearing with no tinnitus as well, I guess these people's hearing loss is more gradual, like mine was. Fuck.
        Feb 17, 2019 at 10:29 AM
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    7. Drone Draper
      Drone Draper
      2 months in, my T is not as bad as the onset. Still bad enough, but some of the worst sounds are gone. Here's to more fading.
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      3. Drone Draper
        Drone Draper
        lol soz
        Feb 14, 2019 at 5:29 PM
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      4. Bob den Hartog
        Bob den Hartog
        It’s ok. Just read a thread of a guy who had my H situation and recovered. I’m good.
        Feb 14, 2019 at 5:30 PM
      5. Drone Draper
        Drone Draper
        I'll send my my big list of successful stories (with as little habituation as possible).
        Feb 14, 2019 at 7:50 PM
    8. Drone Draper
      Drone Draper
      Won't give up, wants me dead. Goddamn this noise inside my head.
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      3. Drone Draper
        Drone Draper
        Every day is a struggle. I have been winning so far.
        Feb 13, 2019
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      4. Striveon
        Striveon
        Defintely is a struggle. But we will keep fighting as it seems we are closer to our reward (hopefully soon).
        Feb 13, 2019
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      5. dpdx
        dpdx
        Yeah its a struggle. I am crying right now how bad it is. :(
        Feb 18, 2019 at 8:39 PM
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    9. Drone Draper
      Drone Draper
      Telling someone with tinnitus that getting good sleep is a way to lower symptoms is like telling a paraplegic a good run lowers phantom pain
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      3. Jiri
        Jiri
        Since November 2017.
        Feb 13, 2019
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      4. Drone Draper
        Drone Draper
        Hellish disease. I'm hoping Lord Neuromod can save us. Otherwise I feel I will just live a zombie like existence.

        Any improvements?
        Feb 13, 2019
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      5. Jiri
        Jiri
        Agreed. Neuromod, Susan Shore, and neural beamforming for T Uni of Minnesota will help us. All non-invasive.

        Well, improvements.. ups and downs. I attribute my worsening to big time social isolation and a heavy use of ear protection. Also stress, anxiety associated with this drama and now that tooth are working against me. A legit treatment is needed.
        Feb 13, 2019
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    10. Drone Draper
      Drone Draper
      Oh Neuromod, where are you now? When everything's gone wrong somehow. When TRT and CBT are making us suffer and cower.
      1. threefirefour
        threefirefour
        When we needed the Avatar the most, he vanished.
        Feb 12, 2019
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      2. Jazzer
        Jazzer
        ...e’s a poet,
        an’ ‘e don’t know it...!
        Feb 17, 2019 at 2:59 PM
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    11. Drone Draper
      Drone Draper
      Bagpipes do a good job of masking tinnitus. Only bad thing is, you have to listen to bagipes. Off to waste money on acupuncture.
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      2. Drone Draper
        Drone Draper
        I wanted to just see what it was like.

        Which was... silliness.
        Feb 11, 2019
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      3. Jazzer
        Jazzer
        Acupuncture is alright if you enjoy somebody putting a ‘prick’ In your ear.....!

        (tee-hee)
        Feb 17, 2019 at 3:01 PM
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      4. Drone Draper
        Drone Draper
        It was a nice, silly frivolity. At least I got a decent back massage out of it.
        Feb 17, 2019 at 3:24 PM
    12. Drone Draper
      Drone Draper
      Decent morning, left ear damn near silent when I woke up. If I could get my right ear to be like my left, I'd be habituating like a normie.
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    13. Drone Draper
      Drone Draper
      I lasted less than 72 hours on r/tinnitus before getting banned. Apparently I was playing Internet Doctor. LOL. Oh well, their loss.
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      2. Bill Bauer
        Bill Bauer
        Sounds like I would not last for long there.
        Feb 8, 2019
      3. Drone Draper
        Drone Draper
        One of the things I told someone was to go to A&E and say they were exposed to a loud firealarm, rather than rock concert. This was apparently a big no-no and "deceiving doctors". Someone also asked me a question about their prednisone dose, I said "that sounds fine".
        Feb 8, 2019
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      4. Drone Draper
        Drone Draper
        Meanwhile, another poster said to a following poster that there was no point in living with loud tinnitus as it's going to drive you to many failed suicide attempts. No ban for him. Mmm.
        Feb 8, 2019
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    14. Drone Draper
      Drone Draper
      Nietzsche said "Life without music would be a mistake". I say "Life without silence is a living hell".
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      2. Drone Draper
        Drone Draper
        To see! To bleed! Cannot be taught!
        Feb 12, 2019
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      3. PDodge
        PDodge
        AND Cancer Bats? Awesome
        Feb 12, 2019
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      4. Drone Draper
        Drone Draper
        It's much to my chagrin that I turned down a few chances to see Cancer Bats like prior to T, thinking "there'll be another chance". Now, there's NO chance. I'm never going to another gig again.
        Feb 12, 2019
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    15. Drone Draper
      Drone Draper
      T is disconcertingly low today. Did HBOT 2x yesterday and ended up sleeping 8 hours. My ears spiked badly after second HBOT, but today 2/10.
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      3. Drone Draper
        Drone Draper
        Had a scare just now, popped out for coffee and a jackhammer was going off outside. FML. Ran past with my index fingers in my ears. I swear I'm going to turn into one of those guys with muffs on every time I step outside.
        Feb 7, 2019
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      4. jay777
        jay777
        good luck to you 2/10 just a dream for me
        Feb 7, 2019
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      5. Drone Draper
        Drone Draper
        Thanks bud. I'm very much walking around like something bad is about to happen. I'm sure a spike will happen soon, but I'll take the blessings when I can.
        Feb 7, 2019
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    16. Drone Draper
      Drone Draper
      Registered with Dignitas. Complete cost of going will be 10,500 Swiss Francs. For that kind of cost, I'd to to Korea for some eardrum pokes.
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      2. Drone Draper
        Drone Draper
        I agree, I think people should have access to euthanasia like they do in places like the Netherlands and Switzerland. We need to end the taboo about it.
        Feb 7, 2019
      3. Drone Draper
        Drone Draper
        There are so many horrific cases of people trying to commit suicide when they are brought back to life against their wishes. We should all have the right to die with dignity.

        I think why I would want Dignitas is that I know it would be painless and legal. I wouldn't want to engage in something that could send the other parties to prison.
        Feb 7, 2019
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      4. SugarMagnolia
        SugarMagnolia
        I think that's exactly it: a taboo. The powers-that-be will kill us slowly with GMOs, BPAs, Monsanto, global warming, war, etc., but won't give us a voluntary, painless, dignified way to end our lives at the time of our choosing. Perhaps it's the autonomy that makes it taboo.
        Feb 7, 2019
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    17. Drone Draper
      Drone Draper
      Success Stories posts that include the phrase "I still have loud tinnitus" put the 'bitch' in "habituation".
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      2. Drone Draper
        Drone Draper
        I think I can habituate to the mild T a lot of my rocker friends have where they will randomly hear a high pitch whine for a minute or two every now and then. That's what I'm shooting for ATM by the HBOT and supps. If I habituate to the moderate T I have now, I will keep it to myself.

        It IS a kind of success, but it is not in any way a true success and not the type of story I really want to read about.
        Feb 7, 2019
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      3. threefirefour
        threefirefour
        Thanks ^_^. In the past it's definitely thankless work.

        And yeah I agree. But like polio sufferers before the vaccine we shouldn't have to do it.
        Feb 7, 2019
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      4. Drone Draper
        Drone Draper
        It needs to be done. Don't post things like "I consider myself 100% cured, I no longer care about my tinnitus or hyperacusis". That is 100% NPC right there.

        And most definitely. We shouldn't have to work with the tools at our disposal that may or may not help us when research into actually fixing what we have is so little!
        Feb 7, 2019
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    18. Drone Draper
      Drone Draper
      Tough day today. Once I finish my HBOT, I will take a break from TT.
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      3. Drone Draper
        Drone Draper
        Only way to be.
        Feb 6, 2019
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      4. Drone Draper
        Drone Draper
        BTA = Buy These Aids
        Feb 6, 2019
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      5. Drone Draper
        Drone Draper
        Knowing there are people out there who are working towards a cure of the damage to the inner ear is more comforting than all the nonsense pillow speakers and relaxation exercises put together.
        Feb 6, 2019
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    19. Drone Draper
      Drone Draper
      We don’t need apps with rain sounds or campfires. Mindfullness nice, it doesn't remove electric hurricanes going off in our heads.
      1. Drone Draper
        Drone Draper
        I have 6 tinnitus relief apps on my phone, downloaded at the insistence of audiologists. Ooh! River brooks! Evening forest! Peaceful morning!
        Feb 5, 2019
      2. Drone Draper
        Drone Draper
        This is like going to a cardiologist complaining about heart murmurs and getting told "We can't do anything about your heart through surgery or medication, but what we can do is play you the sounds of a normal heartbeat on these nifty apps so you don't notice the irregularity of your own degenerated organs".
        Feb 5, 2019
    20. Drone Draper
      Drone Draper
      The only time I wish my tinnitus would be intrusive is when the bagpipers outside my flat start playing. FML.
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      2. Drone Draper
        Drone Draper
        One million Chinese tourists can't be wrong!
        Feb 4, 2019
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      3. Julien87
        Julien87
        But they can be Wong!
        Feb 4, 2019
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      4. Drone Draper
        Drone Draper
        They can be Wong, but they can't be white!


        No racial, my Asian friends.
        Feb 4, 2019
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    21. Drone Draper
      Drone Draper
      Probably the only good thing to come out of tinnitus is that I now have a rock-solid excuse to never go on a work night out again. Yaldi!
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    22. Drone Draper
      Drone Draper
      Mirtazapine put me under, woke up this morning with my T pretty low, probably about a 3/10. Feeling naively optimistic it can go.
    23. Drone Draper
      Drone Draper
      Blindness separates people from things; deafness separates people from people.
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      2. Striveon
        Striveon
        I agree, silence & deafness sounds easier.
        Feb 1, 2019
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      3. Drone Draper
        Drone Draper
        The absolute worst would be deafness + T. FML, that is some "first plane to Dignitas" shit.
        Feb 1, 2019
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      4. Drone Draper
        Drone Draper
        Btw, I met my third audiologist.

        He told me his mother suffers from Meneire's disease. She's in her 70s.

        As a last resort to settle her T, the surgeons went in and REMOVED her cochlea.

        She is now deaf with tinnitus.

        I don't know how much bleach I would be able to get down me, but I would drink until the lights went out.
        Feb 5, 2019
    24. JohnAdams
      JohnAdams
      Mr. Anderson.....
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      2. Drone Draper
        Drone Draper
        Agent Smith?
        Jan 31, 2019
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    Gender:
    Male
    Location:
    U.K.
    Occupation:
    Marketing Executive
    Tinnitus Since:
    12/2018
    Cause of Tinnitus:
    Hearing loss and work stress
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