Keith Handy

Pretty tame at work today. So I'll just keep... uh... doing WHAT?

Any kind of surge of adrenaline - trying to be funny, trying to be creative - can ramp up the hissing. Otherwise I'd DO THINGS.

First post-vax visit with parents, ringing was tolerable despite poor sleep. Hope I can sleep now.

Nearly 8 million people on the planet and not a single one can tell me why reactive tinnitus reacts.

I can tell the difference between individual tones being suppressed and central gain being lower. Wish I could control either.

It's kinda "broken" sounding today, which I actually don't mind.

Noticing how other bodily injuries & ailments heal in three days or so... see, ears, this is how it's supposed to work.

Why are none of the success stories and horror stories by the same people?

Lying still with earplugs, mostly hearing mid-range ambient whoosh. Would happily lock it into this mode if possible.

Maybe we need to better understand the brain as a whole before we can understand auditory disorders.

"...and at number one on Top of the Playlists, for the 20th consecutive week: 'Short Random Beeps Over Bandpass-Filtered Noise'!"

I have a damaged stereo in my head and no one in the medical field thinks like a stereo repair technician.

Kind of reverse-reactive now. The sizzling ramps up in silence. Was tame when out walking earlier. Do I need to start using masking again?

Why does it fluctuate so much?? From barely audible to barely tolerable.

Reactive tinnitus = a game of "Don't Wake the Demon(s)." Maybe what we need is an exorcist.

"Here's what worked!" *lists 27 herbs and dietary changes* ...yeah... you DON'T KNOW what worked.

Uncharacteristically quiet right now. It could stay like this forever and I'd be fine. I know it's just a teaser, though.

Played some electric guitar with no amp. My fingers work the same, but I feel like I'm only pretending to be alive.

How many of us are wrong about our "cause of tinnitus"?

Can't wait for us all to move past the hearing disorder dark ages and into the age of enlightenment.

"Some people drift off to sleep in the MRI machine." You gotta be f***ing kidding me.

Suppose no one knew the illnesses that caused coughing, and people with coughs all went to other people with coughs for advice/support...

Figuring out tinnitus without understanding its causes is like understanding the behavior of shadows without knowing what's casting them.

FX-322 *exists*. It exists *now*. It could literally save lives. Petition for compassionate use.

Waaaay too much correlation mistaken for causation. Just because you did a thing before the spike, doesn't mean it *caused* it.

One word: HOPE.

By the time you say, "I don't want to jinx it, but...", you have already jinxed it.

I think I could handle a few years without music; I just long for the mental clarity to do other creative projects in the meantime.

Anyone have tones that slowly weave in and out? Not to the rate of your pulse, but much slower, like 20-30 seconds in, 20-30 seconds out?

First day back at work was not too bad. Limiting myself to five hour shifts though. Well-rested and strict anti-inflammatory eating.