Tryn2BHopeful

Tryn2BHopeful

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  • Tryn2BHopeful
    Low hum is more prevalent than ever for some reason. My normal methods for getting it to stop are not working. Its doesnt seem like TTTS.
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    Tryn2BHopeful
    Seems I either have reactivity with noise or humming in silence. Masking or no masking I am SOL. What fun.
    Tryn2BHopeful
    @RunningMan The fan does kill the sound for me, as does most things, but seems I have to use a bit of a higher volume than before. Also it seems like after I go for a walk I am good for a couple of hours. Maybe blood pressure related? I dont know I take Losartan for BP, and taurine I think can lower BP as well. To answer your question No, but I have used Space Station
    RunningMan
    I take a lot of walks, even yesterday, and bike rides in the summer. My T ramps up some after exercise, although it's usually the high frequency that's got my focus, so I'm not sure about the low freq T, in left ear only, although it's definitely variable.
    Yosemite
    Are you still on Mirtazapine? If not, for how long did you take it? Was it easy to stop taking it?
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    Tryn2BHopeful
    @RunningMan sleep seems to suffer which ultimately leads me into a more depressed state and worse T
    RunningMan
    @BB23, I have never taken Mirtazapine, but I still have stomach pains over 3 1/2 months after weaning off Lexapro (that I used only 7 weeks). But I'm not sure that's protracted withdrawal because I had it while taking it - it's why I stopped. Maybe it brought out underlying issue. Looks like there's 2 of the neurotoxicity (1 education, 1 support).
    RunningMan
    @Tryn2BHopeful Well I hope you can keep your dose of Mirtazapine really low at 2mg and not have to increase it as I've read of others having to do.
    Tryn2BHopeful
    Funny how sites about tinnitus tell you that you should seek treatment for it, yet everywhere you go they cant/wont treat it.
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    Tryn2BHopeful
    My new PCP tried... Flonase, allergy meds... but that wasn't it.
    RunningMan
    My PCP first just said he wasn't going to talk about it because nothing can be done about it, and he just ignores his. But then he did refer me to an ENT, where I got the lipoflavanoids and melatonin suggestions and referral to audiology, where hearing loss was confirmed, which I already knew.
    BB23
    @Marina Moon they are clueless even within their specialties. No exceptions.
    Tryn2BHopeful
    Damn I had a good life and didn't even realize how good it was. Doomed to live this existence or worse until I die. Last week gave me hope..
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    Yosemite
    For no apparent reason, I guess?
    Tryn2BHopeful
    Yeah like usual.
    4Grace
    @Tryn2BHopeful - life pre T was awesome. All the hardships I had I know now were nothing in comparison. Life is grand. It is beautiful. I was always so happy. I never thought this existence existed. Pure torment for me. Incredible chronic pain in ears and neck. T blasting. I pray for a day that it's better than the day before. Just one.
    Tryn2BHopeful
    I keep wondering if its worth getting Clonazepam... just for some relief. I keep trying to avoid given my cause and that of others. Tired...
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    Tryn2BHopeful
    I did try melatonin 3mg extended release didn't do much except give me crazy dreams
    RunningMan
    I've tried different doses of melatonin <1mg to 5 mg, time release, sublingual, and taking it earlier in evening, near bedtime, at bedime. I can't say it has any effect on me, sleep or dreams.
    MadeleineHope
    @Tryn2BHopeful Drats. Maybe try smaller doses? I've read that smaller doses can actually be more effective.
    Tryn2BHopeful
    It seems crazy to me that 2 Lexapro caused all this. From 0 to 100 in 2 days.I keep wondering if something happened during the prior surgery
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    Tryn2BHopeful
    2023 destroyed me and I got nobody that even cares in my life, no matter how many times I try to explain it. One of the first things that was said to me after I got T was "Sorry but we are kinda sick of your issues". I try to put that statement aside but sometimes it still resonates in my mind.
    Yosemite
    Do you remember which antibiotics they gave you for the surgery? Were they ototoxic?
    Tryn2BHopeful
    I have no idea and I can't find it on any of the paperwork for the surgery. I do remember them saying they didn't remember if they gave them to me during surgery and did it.
    Tryn2BHopeful
    Oh its gonna be a day! Had a pretty ok week, but T wants to be angrier than normal for the end of it.
    Jammer
    4 out of 7 ain't bad
    4Grace
    @Tryn2BHopeful - take the wins my friend. I pretty okay week sounds awesome. I know it might be hard at the moment… but .., a pretty okay week! Sounds like you are going forward.
    Tryn2BHopeful
    Oh I agree, I am certainly happy about that. I almost felt like a person again. With T though nothing is absolute and can change in a second. Just gonna keep plugging away.
    SharonBell
    We have cats and have had a couple dogs before. My daughter wants a puppy. A lady at my husbands work has one. We are going to go look at him tomorrow. I'm so scared though because of the barking when he gets bigger. What do y'all think. Do any of you have dogs?
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    SharonBell
    @Tryn2BHopeful Yeah I wouldn't ever do that I miss our dogs LuLu and Tobbie. The next door neighbor has a lab also. Ok I will try to not be right beside him and learn his triggers as he grows up. Thank you that makes me feel better.
    Tryn2BHopeful
    @SharonBell by your profile pic it looks like you got the puppy?
    SharonBell
    @Tryn2BHopeful we did get the puppy, but we actually took him back, we was very little and we thought he was to young to be away from his mom. My husband also saw that when we got there the dad looked like he had Pitt on him and in the picture he looked different. So we are going to get her a full blooded lab puppy instead.
    Yosemite
    Your story is quite similar to mine. I took three doses of Lexapro. On the third day I woke up with catastrophic T.

    The difference is that I had already had noise-induced T for three years. It was moderate. Now it has been severe for two weeks (and counting).

    It's very hard.
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    Tryn2BHopeful
    @4Grace Somedays are ok and others suck. Just keep truckin along hoping for something to give.
    Yosemite
    @Tryn2BHopeful

    Do you also have sound sensitivity / loudness H / pain H?

    I'm almost 4 weeks in, and today I've been having the worst T so far (in terms of loudness). I'm starting to lose hope. :-(
    Tryn2BHopeful
    @Yosemite I had sound sensitivity for the first couple of months. I still have reactivity but not as bad as I did in the beginning. Its a slow process.
    Tryn2BHopeful
    Volume or perception is exceptionally shitty today, reactive as hell. Guess I am just screwed in this life.
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    kingsfan
    Yea I hear you. Mine was certainly cumulative, but it all hit at once with little to no warning signs. Just woke up with it one morning. No recent big acoustic trauma or anything beforehand.
    Tryn2BHopeful
    T is just a finicky beast... ZERO reason for a spike that I know of... but hell it could just be the rain.
    4Grace
    We are so strong. The reality, like you said, T is a BEAST. No way anyone without it could understand. I agree with what you said.
    Tryn2BHopeful
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    Tryn2BHopeful
    Honestly what I found interesting is that the hearing loss could be on a different part of the auditory system than which they test. Typically the more quiet of a sound the better the hearing. Damage from louder sounds sits on entirely different fibers that process louder sounds according to this, thus normal hearing test but still having T.
    SharonBell
    @Tryn2BHopeful did you also watch the video about cortex? What do u think about that. You think it's a scam?
    Tryn2BHopeful
    Tryn2BHopeful
    I heard something - One needs to get themselves to a point where if a cure came out tomorrow they wouldn't care. It makes sense to a point.
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    4Grace
    @RunningMan - what you mention above scares the shit out of me. I do things I should not … we have to live. Lucky are those with mild and stable T.
    RunningMan
    @4Grace Unfortunately, I didn't do much to protect myself over 20 years. I mowed, was around loud music, and rarely wore earplugs. Days before my worsening, a nasty noise came through my BT earbuds while on a treadmil, and I didn't stop it for a while because I didn't want to stop exercise in midstream.
    4Grace
    @RunningMan - sorry. It's those small moments. A month prior to T and another noise trauma I cut steel in my garage. It was so loud I felt pain in my ears. Had to stop every 5 seconds for how loud it was… had I known about T….
    Tryn2BHopeful
    When do I reach the other side of this? Are all these things (habituation, etc) they say just ways of keeping me alive? Or is it real?
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    Marshall
    It took me 2 years to mostly not care even when i have the random few and far between severe day. When it's bad bad it's just background noise, there is no emotion behind it. It's just there, and i never thought i would come to "habituation" i always scoffed at the bullshit people were spewing when they siad that word.
    B
    I've read people can take years. We aren't even a year in yet. Sometimes I think I might be but then nope! Mine isn't mild it bounces between moderate and severe. Causes anxiety....I've had a few mild days and what a difference! People with mild T have it a lot easier.
    4Grace
    @BellaMia - mild T can become a walk in the park. I can see that now.
    Tryn2BHopeful
    WTF is happening to me today?!?! I gotta breath.
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    4Grace
    We have to stop pending our hope on the sound of T. We have to be happy regardless of what it's doing. That's hard. I so want to see you so better. You are kind and much stronger then me.
    Tryn2BHopeful
    @4Grace I am not stronger or kinder than anyone else here. I am just an unlucky bastard that got trapped by T. I have said I want to die more times than I can count. I don't normally post that here.
    4Grace
    @Tryn2BHopeful - as much as I say. I'm holding back. I feel the same my friend. I feel the same. Everyday.
    Tryn2BHopeful
    I destroyed the good life I had by taking 2 pills, or by doing something IDFK. Every day is a sprint to the end to go to sleep...Breath....
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    4Grace
    This is my life everyday. Small bits of hope destroyed daily. A marathon to get to the end of each day. Going to bed with hope that tomorrow with be better. I wish you the best always.
    B
    @Tryn2BHopeful It's sad that I too feel this way. Counting down the days when death will free us.
    4Grace
    @BellaMia - :( I am so sorry to read the above from you. So sad we feel like this.
    Tryn2BHopeful
    I didn't know that I would get to witness my own death. This isn't going to ever end. I miss being happy. I am tired of tryn.
    Tryn2BHopeful
    I should stay off this site (understandably negative), but staying off this site then there is literally nobody that understands this.
    4Grace
    Just stay away from my profile and you will be okay. This is why I feel so bad. It has to be a place to vent. I am sorry. I think this place saved my life. I can't imagine doing it alone. My condition is not anyone else's.
    Ngo13
    Copy success stories onto an offline doc on your phone. That's what I did and I forced myself to only check those when I was struggling. You have to break the negative thought/reassurance cycle. You can do this. We will all be here when you check back.
    Tryn2BHopeful
    1 year ago I was fighting a monster kidney stone and I thought that was as bad as it could get. Relativity is a bitch.
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    4Grace
    @Tryn2BHopeful - all my past personal problems were nothing compared to this. Know a guy - horrible T - since developed bad vertigo. Tells me V made him much less worried about T.
    cyberspace
    Things keep becoming exponentially worse for me. Tinnitus is the least of my problems now.
    Marina Moon
    Years ago i had very bad abdominal pain for 2 months, and despite going to doctors they didn't know what it was or what to do, but fortunately it went away and never came back. I used to think that was a harrowing experience. Relativity is real and is most certainly without a doubt a total heinous bitch.
    Tryn2BHopeful
    Everything I stop mirt a week later everything seems worse.... I literally took so little of it... gotta hang in there I guess.
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    Juliane
    Sorry if this sounds untactful, but.... Did you not get T from a drug? I hope not from the mirt?
    Tryn2BHopeful
    @Juliane HAH yes I did, but it was not mirt. I got T from Escitalopram (Lexapro)... After I became insomnious for weeks and desperate I was given Mirt. I honestly knew no better, I will admit without it I might of ended up in a ditch somewhere or worse. At this point I think I could go without it, but I havent been able to get over the hump of withdrawal.
    Tryn2BHopeful
    @Juliane I think about the ill affects of this drug often and try to keep the dose as low as possible.
    Tryn2BHopeful
    They say tinnitus improves naturally over time... how true is that statement?! Some of the stories on TT seem to show otherwise.
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    AfroSnowman
    Overwhelming people do better with this over time, sometimes through healing, sometimes through the habituation process
    RunningMan
    That same drug has left me with stomach pain going on two months after I finished off weaning off over 2 weeks after taking 10 mg for 7 weeks. I'm not sure if it has left my tinnitus any worse. It's pretty variable in cycles with no real baseline. It's a piercing squealing high frequency tone today.
    4Grace
    @Tryn2BHopeful - I got mine after many things. It was 5 days after taking that same drug. Also noise trauma around the same time
    Tryn2BHopeful
    7.5 Months, things haven't changed much for better or worse so I guess I should just stop my whining.
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    L along the way
    Well.. expressing how you feel is not whining i guess...
    4Grace
    If it's not worsening and no pain it's a real positive. Honest, I would give anything for that …. I know it's still very hard for you. I am happiest when the pain subsides.
    Tryn2BHopeful
    @4Grace Mostly why I should just stop whining... I know people have it worse than me. I know things could be worse. They could be alot better to. A year ago life was going fantastic... and here we are hanging by a thread.
    Tryn2BHopeful
    2 kids to see finish school, go to college, and grow up to be fine adults. Will I even make it that far?! I feel for those younger than me.
    BrOKeN_1
    Seeing all these young kids behind headphones constantly is concerning as well. This condition is certainly headed in an epidemic direction.
    4Grace
    @BrOKeN_1 - I think the same thing all the time.
    Tryn2BHopeful
    2 Pills and a lot of bad luck changed everything. The future is no more, daily survival is my only goal. Maybe god will throw me a f'n bone.
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