BrOKeN_1

BrOKeN_1

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  • BrOKeN_1
    "What doesn't kill you makes you stronger." I know it's a stupid saying but its true nonetheless. Each horrible episode/spike you live through builds mental strength. I know for a fact I'll have another miserable day/week. Its been like this since the beginning. But dammit I'm still here.
    BrOKeN_1
    Maybe it's just me. But anytime I find a public bathroom with a paper towel dispenser I give a little prayer of thanks. Lol.
    MindOverMatter
    I can assure its not just you @BrOKeN_1 Nothing beats plain paper 😅
    kingsfan
    First thing I do when I enter a restroom is check for hand dryers. If there are any I march right back out and find somewhere else. Those little family restrooms are a life saver sometimes.
    BrOKeN_1
    Amusement Parks are hazardous. Even with ear plugs I'm probably gonna pay for today's festivities. Just wanna live a little before I die.
    kingsfan
    Sucks. I used to be a Disneyland passholder. Practically lived at that park. I miss it.
    BrOKeN_1
    @kingsfan I feel like I've been lucky so far that my t has mostly stayed constant. Even though it's insanely loud I cope pretty well overall. I know I'm playing with fire doing some of these activities but I'd rather take some risk then fold completely.
    BrOKeN_1
    I love my life, my wife, and my kids. So its a shame tinnitus gets to steer the ship. Everything now revolves around this horrid condition and I hate it.
    BrOKeN_1
    This current spike is gradually and expertly eroding the layers of psychological defense I built over the last few years. Tinnitus is just Evil. Plain and Simple.
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    kingsfan
    Samsies... Nearly 4 and half years ago when this all started, I thought I'd just have to turn my music down, get used to it, and that would be that. I wish it had been that simple.
    Tryn2BHopeful
    I definitely feel that. I keep a card my daughter made for me that says "You got this!" On my dresser and read it every morning. It keeps me going
    BrOKeN_1
    @Tryn2BHopeful I love that for you. I live for my kids! They a great motivator to fight on.
    BrOKeN_1
    Well. It was nice while it lasted. Nothing like a good spike to remind you how obnoxiously relentless this condition is.
    HighleyTall
    Trouble is when you experience 'better' days you naturally expose yourself to more noise and 'normal' behavior causing T and pain returning like a boomerang.
    BrOKeN_1
    *knock on wood* having alot of good days lately. Pain and noise tolerance is up. Anxiety and depression are at a low ebb. T is still loud and all encompassing but doesn't seem to be in the driver's seat for now. Wishing everyone here better days.
    BrOKeN_1
    Feeling Raw today. Failure to distract or mask on all levels. Just a spike... just a spike. Hope all my friends here are coping well enough. Much Love!
    BrOKeN_1
    Seems cliche af. But Mondays are always hell on my tinnitus. It's definitely my work schedule adjusting back to graveyard shift after the weekend I assume. But dammit it's like slowely acclimating all week just to go back to square one. *sigh*
    BrOKeN_1
    Deciding whether I even want to post a 4 year tinniversary update. Never really thought this would be permanent and ever increasing. Alas
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    cjbhab
    I read everywhere that T gets better with time but mine worsens every single year despite taking what a normal person would call excessive precautions.
    BrOKeN_1
    @cjbhab That has been my experience as well. Short of a miracle or maybe just some dumb luck. Gradual worsening seem like the natural trajectory of my T.
    Supersix
    My gradually got worse on year 5, 6, 7, 8 😂,it's all good F-T.
    BrOKeN_1
    @Kain Sorry to hear you been struggling with your mental health lately. I know it can be rough at times. Hope you can find your footing soon
    BrOKeN_1
    Very, very poor sleep last two days. Not letting its get to to me quite yet. Also not sustainable for good mental health. *breathe*
    SamRosemary
    Ugh. So crappy. My sleep has been bad too the last couple days.
    4Grace
    I sleep for some odd reason. I like when the day is over. I always went to bed 1 or 2 am. Now, by 10 pm I am spent. Need to shut down.
    BrOKeN_1
    Sitting on the porch listening to the rain and thunder. This ambience used to mask the T. I guess those days are over...
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    4Grace
    BrOKeN_1
    @kingsfan yea.. its pretty much impossible to mask unless I'm cranking shit up over 80dbs and that doesn't seem reasonable. The only saving grace I have at this point is no hyperacusis or physical pain.
    BrOKeN_1
    @4Grace agreed. At this point all I really want for you brother in that tldamn pain to go away. Tinnitus is hard enough to cope with by itself. Much Love. Keep fighting my man. Give it all you got.
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