I Google a lot. I pursue, almost obsessively, any information that might point me in the direction of curing this tinnitus. I look for hopeful information. And then I realize I'm acting desperately. The reality of the situation is: I know I have eustachian tube dysfunction but I don't know I don't know how long this will last. I don't know if it's temporary or chronic. I don't know if it will change or worsen or improve. I just don't know. I get exhausted from being hyper-alert at all times to try to find some way to get control of this situation. And I keep coming back to the realization that it's going to do what it's going to do. And all my desperate pursuit of control is a waste of energy. And I keep reading from wise people who have been there/done that, that all you ever have control of is how you react to whatever circumstances life gives you. And I think, for me, laying down all the fearful attempts at control and accepting the present situation is a better alternative than frantically searching everywhere for some guarantee that t will go away. So I think I need to work on acceptance of the situation I've found myself in.