Still in the spike, anxietywise i feel alot better with less doom and gloom thinking but the spike is still agressive and loud. If it is bc of the anxiety over the wardrobe accident i wonder how long after the anxiety is gone the spike will actually calm down.

Even the strong combination of drugs I take too sleep no longer works (Mirtazapine, Quetiapine, Alimemazine, Melatonin). I'm stuck in my room, losing my mind and my life. This terrible condition took everything from me... I don't want to live like this for the 40 years to come, but I don't want to kill myself neither.