BrOKeN_1

BrOKeN_1

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  • BrOKeN_1
    My Job. My Home. My Wife. My Kids. My General Environment. None of this is conducive to making T better. Just gradually worse over time. :(
    BrOKeN_1
    I'm gonna need a vacation from my vacation... good heaven's the world is a loud messy accident waiting to happen. Lord help us!
    Juliane
    My vacation was sadly ruined so I hear ya! Will definitely need a vacation after this latest blow from destiny.
    BrOKeN_1
    Hey friends. Hope everyone is coping. I'm trying real hard not to log into this forum more then once a week. I want to check in not obsess.
    Bob3382
    I am trying to log in less, lest I obsess. Sleep is not going well. I pray daily for healing and help in handling it, and that we would all have relief soon.
    BrOKeN_1
    ...good morning... time to vomit. Wish it actually helped. T sucks and I'm a broken record. Hope some of you are having improvements. Peace.
    L along the way
    Thank you, a good day to you too. I have been a broken record for months now, uff it was not nice at all. I hope to find more a new day vibe, that a new day can really bring us rejuvination, renewal, & healing. It shouldn't be the same as yesterday. I'm trying to be patient & have hope that time will make things better. A better day
    BrOKeN_1
    Staying outside and busy is the only way for me to have moderate masking/distraction. Slow down or go in the devil begins his awful whisper!
    BrOKeN_1
    Starting to effect my mental health again. Periods of tolerance are short lived and barely noticeable. Whatever Habituation I had is fading.
    4Grace
    I pray to Jesus for you and all of us. He exists. No doubt. I believe in habituation to the noise if you don't have relative T. Stay strong my friend.
    BrOKeN_1
    I swear my wife must be hard of hearing. Her cell volume is always maxed out. The moment she clicks on a video anywhere near I shit myself
    Jammer
    Same thing with my MIL. Anytime her cell or house phones ring, I reflectively stick my fingers in my ears. TV always blasting too. Then again she's 92.
    4Grace
    @Jammer - when I hear others do what we need to do I think to myself - how are we supposed to live like this. It's crazy. There is enough stress in life. I can't get over this!
    BrOKeN_1
    I wish I could nap without awareness spiking. So dumb.
    Marshall
    my least favorite part, but i alwas just tell myself itll go away like it always does
    BrOKeN_1
    I never thought I would miss my original T volume. Not being able to mask has become almost unbearable. And distraction doesn't come as oft.
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    4Grace
    So sorry. I had a massive worsening a few days ago. You can't avoid loud noises if you go outside. It's always something. It's funny how when it gets worse your previous tone always seems like it was a walk in the park.
    BrOKeN_1
    @4Grace Ive seen so many people improve in the last 3 1/2 years it's hard to imagine you not catching a break at some point. It just seems to take so fucking long for some people. I'm sorry you have to deal with pain hyperacusis brother.
    4Grace
    @BrOKeN_1 - I feel like that ship has sailed. Due to the nature of my T. Nerve related. I always had hope that my nerves would heal. Now it's just beyond words. I am not stretching the truth when I say it gets worse every day. It's so loud and painful.
    BrOKeN_1
    Welp. I guess I'm not sleeping today. Gonna be a long night.
    ZFire
    Did you manage to get some sleep?
    BrOKeN_1
    @ZFire I managed about 5 today actually. Thanks for asking. Sometime you just have to be awake for 48hrs I guess. I hope your doing well today yourself.
    ZFire
    @BrOKeN_1 glad you were able to get some rest at least.

    Been doing well these past few days. Thanks for checkin in. :)
    BrOKeN_1
    Wake Up. Hear My T. Get Nauseous and Mildly depressed. Take A Minute To Breathe. Get Out Of Bed. Get Distracted. Get Busy. Rinse-Repeat.
    Tryn2BHopeful
    Sounds like my days... /sigh
    Juliane
    Had I known this would be my life, growing up, I would have taken matters into my own hands
    BrOKeN_1
    Damn this condition.. as soon as you think your making progress. Noise spikes and tolerance evaporates.
    4Grace
    It's like every victory is short lived.
    BrOKeN_1
    Daddy-Daughter Dance tonight. Feeling a bit nervous but I'm prepared with adequate hearing protection I believe. Live a little bit. Be safe.
    Juliane
    How did it go?
    BrOKeN_1
    Kept the plugs in all night and stayed away from the speakers. Girls had fun!
    BrOKeN_1
    Woke up with increased anxiety for no apparent reason. Now I have that crawly skin, uncomfortable shakiness. Let's do this I guess. Sigh...
    BrOKeN_1
    Yesterday was a good day...
    BrOKeN_1
    The irony of life... best day I've had in well over a year and covid takes me out the very next day! Feels like I've been hit by a car. :(
    BrOKeN_1
    Took two weeks off work and completely screwed up my sleep schedule. Stupid circadian rhythm. Hopefully I readjust fast. No sleep equals :(
    BrOKeN_1
    @Kain On the pulsating tinnitus question. Its probably not to odd. I'm getting some crazy reactive T after 3 years of a pretty constant Eee!
    Kain
    Aw heck. I'm hearing blood flow in my right ear when my head is at different angles. Just another nuisance to the list :p
    BrOKeN_1
    Trying to play Minecraft with my 7yr old and just let it be. Constantly in and out of being present. Build the house dad! Get the coal! :D
    PennyCat
    I love minecraft! I've been playing it every day for like 2 months now :p It's a good distraction
    BrOKeN_1
    Been dreaming alot lately... no T in my dreams as far as I can tell. I should dream more. (If only)
    BrOKeN_1
    To Lenire.. Or not to Lenire. That is the question. Insurance doesn't cover costs so big gamble. Any thoughts?
    gameover
    Garbage. Don't.
    Tryn2BHopeful
    I haven't heard anything good about it on these forums, but honestly I haven't heard much good about anything on these forums and really don't expect to. I thought about trying a 9V battery and random noise JK
    BrOKeN_1
    @Tryn2BHopeful Maybe if we try taking a tazer to the head something might get reset! Lol
    BrOKeN_1
    It's so unrelentingly loud. I feel like I could cry at any moment. Yet that's just too exhausting. It's amazing what we can endure. Kind of.
    SarahMLFlemmer
    I understand.
    4Grace
    Its amazing what we can endure. Kind of … Yes. As I type this I am in my basement while my daughter is having her 8th break down of the day. Yelling and screaming for 15 min. I'm on life level 11 out of 10.
    BrOKeN_1
    Silence is but a fleeting memory now... mornings are tough. 1st wake up. 2nd find the will to live. 3rd do the damn thing.
    SharonBell
    I keep getting fullness or pressure in my ears. I went in dollar general and came out and that's what happened and then it went away. Anybody deal with this and what is it? I ate a biscuit earlier could that have been it from salt. I just don't know.
    BrOKeN_1
    Every time I walk into the gas station that happens to me. Goes away immediately after I walk out. It's wierd
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