- May 5, 2016
- 2,594
- Tinnitus Since
- 1988
- Cause of Tinnitus
- loud noise and very bad sickness
Hi folks,
I like to write posts that can motivates this forum and If it helps even one person, then my job is done.
My ears are buzzing super loud as usual and even I have to think about the ringing. I wake up and I hear the lovely symphony from hell. It's like that aunt we all had as a kid, that would just pinch our cheeks and would not go away
It takes me 3 minutes or less to re-group and start doing stuff to distract myself and not dwell on that noise. I don't dwell anymore, but my tinnitus is beyond loud and its beyond garbage to it can be tough at times.
My post is about being a pretender. I go to my martial arts class and i'll be very honest...my body already feels like its beat up, even before I start training. I am pretending to be like everyone else and just act like that. In reality these people are half my age and they have a normal body and their muscles are way healthier than mine. I am a guy that has fibro, with crazy tinnitus that is not forgiving. Non of my class mates know just how bad I can have it at times. On top of that, I am one of the few students that trains almost 6 days a week while others train 1-2 times a week.
I drive a muscle car and it is quite loud. I still shake my head at times and wonder just why I drive it. It does not help my tinnitus at all. I have measured the DBs on my car and it can just annoy the tinnitus, but not further damage it. My ears are buzzing like crazy all day long and this car doesn't help at times. I am pretending to be normal and drive one of my dream cars.
I am at a party and people are singing and doing karaoke. Why am I here? I should not be here and just leave. I am pretending to be normal again and loving life and laughing with people that are smiling. I am pretending to ignore my sorrows and just smiling.
Folks, I am doing these things. I am not advising you to do what I do. My posts are supposed to show strength and confidence that ALL of us have. Even when I don't feel like it, I am smiling. Even when I feel like sobbing, I am smiling. Even when I am in PAIN all over this beat up body, I am going to my martial arts class.
Even when at times when I feel like my life is horrible, I will donate clothing, food, love to a shelter or a homeless person.
I am always pretending to be normal and I am far from it. Just pretending and putting on a smile can heal our minds and souls. Just by doing good acts, when we don't feel like it.....can give us that warm feeling.
We have a tough battle with tinnitus, I will not lie....even I have it very bad, but that's how life is. I am very proud of myself because as a child I had tons of fear and doubt in my eyes. I never knew what kind of courage I could find and develop in this VERY challenging and hellish life.
All of you have that inner strength and are true warriors. Dealing with tinnitus is a game changer and I admire those that walk with me daily in the battle against this horrible menace. I am in a ok mood right now, but just wanted to make you guys feel better.....So I decided to write a post
Bless all of you......
PS- this is again one of those emotional posts for me and I might shed a tear
I like to write posts that can motivates this forum and If it helps even one person, then my job is done.
My ears are buzzing super loud as usual and even I have to think about the ringing. I wake up and I hear the lovely symphony from hell. It's like that aunt we all had as a kid, that would just pinch our cheeks and would not go away
It takes me 3 minutes or less to re-group and start doing stuff to distract myself and not dwell on that noise. I don't dwell anymore, but my tinnitus is beyond loud and its beyond garbage to it can be tough at times.
My post is about being a pretender. I go to my martial arts class and i'll be very honest...my body already feels like its beat up, even before I start training. I am pretending to be like everyone else and just act like that. In reality these people are half my age and they have a normal body and their muscles are way healthier than mine. I am a guy that has fibro, with crazy tinnitus that is not forgiving. Non of my class mates know just how bad I can have it at times. On top of that, I am one of the few students that trains almost 6 days a week while others train 1-2 times a week.
I drive a muscle car and it is quite loud. I still shake my head at times and wonder just why I drive it. It does not help my tinnitus at all. I have measured the DBs on my car and it can just annoy the tinnitus, but not further damage it. My ears are buzzing like crazy all day long and this car doesn't help at times. I am pretending to be normal and drive one of my dream cars.
I am at a party and people are singing and doing karaoke. Why am I here? I should not be here and just leave. I am pretending to be normal again and loving life and laughing with people that are smiling. I am pretending to ignore my sorrows and just smiling.
Folks, I am doing these things. I am not advising you to do what I do. My posts are supposed to show strength and confidence that ALL of us have. Even when I don't feel like it, I am smiling. Even when I feel like sobbing, I am smiling. Even when I am in PAIN all over this beat up body, I am going to my martial arts class.
Even when at times when I feel like my life is horrible, I will donate clothing, food, love to a shelter or a homeless person.
I am always pretending to be normal and I am far from it. Just pretending and putting on a smile can heal our minds and souls. Just by doing good acts, when we don't feel like it.....can give us that warm feeling.
We have a tough battle with tinnitus, I will not lie....even I have it very bad, but that's how life is. I am very proud of myself because as a child I had tons of fear and doubt in my eyes. I never knew what kind of courage I could find and develop in this VERY challenging and hellish life.
All of you have that inner strength and are true warriors. Dealing with tinnitus is a game changer and I admire those that walk with me daily in the battle against this horrible menace. I am in a ok mood right now, but just wanted to make you guys feel better.....So I decided to write a post
Bless all of you......
PS- this is again one of those emotional posts for me and I might shed a tear
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