Suicidal

Discussion in 'Support' started by jeremy06, Oct 14, 2018.

    1. jeremy06
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      jeremy06 Member Benefactor

      Location:
      France
      Tinnitus Since:
      10/2014
      Cause of Tinnitus:
      Acoustic trauma habituation worsening 5/04/2016
      I cannot live like this!

      But I don't want to make everyone around me feel the same afterwards!

      How can I explain the inexplicable?

      I feel really sorry but enough is enough!

      Jeremy
       
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    2. another sean
      Studious

      another sean Member Benefactor

      Location:
      Los Angeles
      Tinnitus Since:
      2015
      Cause of Tinnitus:
      Long duration of low audio
      Hi Jeremy,

      Sorry to see you are having a hard. If you're not able to habituated and wait the many up and coming treatments coming down the pipe line, have you considered steam cells? It seems to be one of the things people have found real success with.
       
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      jeremy06
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      jeremy06 Member Benefactor

      Location:
      France
      Tinnitus Since:
      10/2014
      Cause of Tinnitus:
      Acoustic trauma habituation worsening 5/04/2016
      I don’t want use all my money on something that will not work, better keep it for my son and wife, I don't trust in stems cells for now!

      Maybe I will habituate like I did two times already.

      But even if I habituated for a third time, life is too difficult with this...

      I can't do it anymore!
       
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    4. PDodge
      Cowboy

      PDodge Member Benefactor

      Location:
      Woods of Alberta
      Tinnitus Since:
      01/2017
      Cause of Tinnitus:
      Bear ate my Cochlea
      It might be worth it... your health and your family are priceless.
       
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    5. AUTHOR
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      jeremy06
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      jeremy06 Member Benefactor

      Location:
      France
      Tinnitus Since:
      10/2014
      Cause of Tinnitus:
      Acoustic trauma habituation worsening 5/04/2016
      For sure I will sell my house car and everything I have to stay there with my son but that's not a solution.

      I already contacted StemCells21, got them on phone.
      But I feel that will be useless.

      I did the AM-101 trial.

      I took some Trobalt (stopped because of eyes issues).

      Went to all doctors, psychanalysts...

      Never got any positive out of that!

      I did all what could possibly help but at one point you just get it - “nothing can help me!”

      Accepted there is only one way out and I am not strong enough!
       
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    6. Greg Sacramento

      Greg Sacramento Member Benefactor Hall of Fame

      Tinnitus Since:
      April 2011
      Cause of Tinnitus:
      syringing and now somatic T dental work
      Have you had blood work done including testing for vitamin levels. Acoustic tinnitus will wipe out magnesium. Proper levels is needed with tinnitus. I wouldn't say to start taking lots of different vitamins unless you are deficient in some. Drink a fair amount of water.
       
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    7. marc 1974 london

      marc 1974 london Member Benefactor

      Location:
      London
      Tinnitus Since:
      8
      Cause of Tinnitus:
      noise i think ? stress
      Have you tried CBT? Mindfulness and TRT?
       
    8. AUTHOR
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      jeremy06
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      jeremy06 Member Benefactor

      Location:
      France
      Tinnitus Since:
      10/2014
      Cause of Tinnitus:
      Acoustic trauma habituation worsening 5/04/2016
      I tried TRT as my mom is an audiologist, it did not work, it was even louder than my tinnitus

      CBT I also tried but useless also

      I will check on mindfulness!

      I did have blood check years ago but haven't had a vitamin check. I will also go for it (never know!!)

      Nothing ever works on me.
       
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    9. Sleaford Mod

      Sleaford Mod Member

      Tinnitus Since:
      06/2005
      I was suicidal with tinnitus several years ago. Decided to give Mindfulness a try. And I am still here. I followed the protocol outlined in Jon Kabat-Zinn’s book Full Catastrophe Living. It took me 2 attempts to get through the 8 week programme described in the book (it is designed for those who suffer from chronic pain). Even after the second attempt I only saw a small improvement in my ability to manage tinnitus. But it was sufficient for me to persist with the practice.

      Fast forward several years and I am fine. The tinnitus is screaming away like nobody’s business as I type these words but I couldn’t care less. And in a few moments from now, it will drop below my level of conscious awareness as I move onto something else.

      Hope this helps in some way. Note that I was several years into my tinnitus journey before I gave Mindfulness a go. It’s no substitute for a cure but it only cost me the price of a cheap paperback to turn the corner.
       
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    10. marc 1974 london

      marc 1974 london Member Benefactor

      Location:
      London
      Tinnitus Since:
      8
      Cause of Tinnitus:
      noise i think ? stress
      Excellent.
       
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    11. AUTHOR
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      jeremy06
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      jeremy06 Member Benefactor

      Location:
      France
      Tinnitus Since:
      10/2014
      Cause of Tinnitus:
      Acoustic trauma habituation worsening 5/04/2016
      Thx guys I will try my best !
       
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    12. Bam

      Bam Member Benefactor Hall of Fame

      Tinnitus Since:
      10/2017
      Cause of Tinnitus:
      Neck/stress
      What about when you’re trying to sleep? If it’s ‘screaming away’ im still trying to get my head around letting it slip below your level of conscious awareness when you’re just trying to rest and can’t ‘move on to something else.’
       
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    13. Sleaford Mod

      Sleaford Mod Member

      Tinnitus Since:
      06/2005
      For me, what I would call the slacker mentality eventually kicked in and I just couldn’t be bothered rising to the bait.

      Might seem an odd way to describe things, and as a comment it does not do justice to the years of mental torment that preceded it. But that’s what happened.

      The other reason I sleep pretty well is because I work an average of 55 hours a week over five and a half days, and a long commute entails getting up just after 4 a.m.

      That schedule tends to ensure that I sleep reasonably well.
       
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    14. Telis

      Telis Member Hall of Fame

      Tinnitus Since:
      11/2013
      Cause of Tinnitus:
      Drugs barotrauma
      I would try fasting, you can naturally boost stem cell production for free, you even save money by not eating. If you’re desperate, look into it, do it properly.
       
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    15. DebInAustralia
      Fine

      DebInAustralia Member Benefactor Advocate

      Location:
      Geelong, Victoria
      Tinnitus Since:
      30/12/13
      If I were you, I'd be taking nicotinamide riboside to prevent further hearing damage.

      We all understand what you are going through here.

      Don't worry about making others feel bad. This is what the support forum is for.
       
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    16. PeteJ
      Depressed

      PeteJ Member

      Tinnitus Since:
      02/2019
      Cause of Tinnitus:
      acoustic trauma?
      I want to commit suicide.

      I don't see any light in the tunnel.

      My tinnitus worsened since April and my life situation is getting worse since I can't function.

      I am held back because I fear an unsuccessful attempt will leave me in a worse condition like being physically disabled or crippled but with this horrible tinnitus noise.

      I hate this life but I am also scared of what is next but the tinnitus torture may be enough to try something eventually.
       
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    17. PeteJ
      Depressed

      PeteJ Member

      Tinnitus Since:
      02/2019
      Cause of Tinnitus:
      acoustic trauma?
      Is there anyone who can't work because their tinnitus is so severe or if you try, how?!?

      Suicide is the only way to stop tinnitus for me.

      If my tinnitus was much less severe maybe... but, it is not. People who claim their tinnitus is severe, I don't see how they would feel any differently.
       
    18. Bill Bauer
      No Mood

      Bill Bauer Member Hall of Fame

      Tinnitus Since:
      February, 2017
      Cause of Tinnitus:
      Acoustic Trauma
      What about Lenire?
       
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    19. Autumnly
      Wishful

      Autumnly Member Podcast Patron Benefactor Hall of Fame Advocate

      Location:
      Germany
      Tinnitus Since:
      July/August 2013
      Cause of Tinnitus:
      Noise induced
      There are definitely people who can’t work due to severe chronic tinnitus.
       
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    20. PeteJ
      Depressed

      PeteJ Member

      Tinnitus Since:
      02/2019
      Cause of Tinnitus:
      acoustic trauma?
      What about it?
       
    21. Bill Bauer
      No Mood

      Bill Bauer Member Hall of Fame

      Tinnitus Since:
      February, 2017
      Cause of Tinnitus:
      Acoustic Trauma
      It is a possible way to stop tinnitus.
       
    22. PeteJ
      Depressed

      PeteJ Member

      Tinnitus Since:
      02/2019
      Cause of Tinnitus:
      acoustic trauma?
      What are you supposed to do if you can't work? :(
       
    23. acute
      Depressed

      acute Member

      Tinnitus Since:
      04/2019
      Cause of Tinnitus:
      Loud music. Stress, long taking meds, Invisalign ?
      I'm so sorry to read these words.

      I am in the same boat as you, but I try to keep my expectations high about Lenire. I want to try Lenire and find any relief. Might you give Lenire an opportunity?
       
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    24. PeteJ
      Depressed

      PeteJ Member

      Tinnitus Since:
      02/2019
      Cause of Tinnitus:
      acoustic trauma?
      I don't know. It will be a long wait and I don't see how I can do it.

      Secondly, I have doubts about how much it will even help.

      I am not sure about how you perceive your tinnitus severity but I can't even 'control mine.' It's so bad that I must be really stressed even in sleep.

      I don't have any indication that Lenire will help severe tinnitus cases.

      We are so variable with tinnitus and I am supposed to consider that the Lenire inventors were somehow able to manage that?
       
    25. Bill Bauer
      No Mood

      Bill Bauer Member Hall of Fame

      Tinnitus Since:
      February, 2017
      Cause of Tinnitus:
      Acoustic Trauma
      @kelpiemsp had been a severe case for decades. Over a year ago, he was part of a trial of the device by the University of Michigan. His T has faded and has stayed at that low level:
       
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    26. ChrisBoyMonkey

      ChrisBoyMonkey Member Podcast Patron

      Location:
      CA
      Tinnitus Since:
      04/2019
      Cause of Tinnitus:
      U.S. Army/Field Artillery Veteran
      Yes, that's why they made the device. In the testimonials there's a guy who says that on a scale of 1-10 his tinnitus was an 11 and Lenire brought it down to about a 3.

      It's the first guy, Niall:
      https://www.neuromoddevices.com/stories

      Even so, Lenire isn't the only treatment that will be available to us in the near future. Dr. Shore's device might be out as soon as next year, the University of Minnesota is going to keep working on their device, and many more.
       
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    27. PeteJ
      Depressed

      PeteJ Member

      Tinnitus Since:
      02/2019
      Cause of Tinnitus:
      acoustic trauma?
      My chronic pain intensified. Is anyone on any suicide sites in which they help you with methods? I need to do something soon.
       
    28. just1morething
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      just1morething Member Benefactor

      Location:
      U.S.
      Tinnitus Since:
      2008
      Cause of Tinnitus:
      barotrauma, noise exposure, TMJ, neck?
      Sometimes chronic pain goes hand in hand with tinnitus. Maybe you should get an QEEG/LORETA scan?

      Look over video below:

      Functional Brain Imaging and Tinnitus
       
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    29. Ed209

      Ed209 Member Podcast Patron Benefactor Ambassador Hall of Fame

      Tinnitus Since:
      07/2015
      Hi Pete, I’m really sorry to hear that you’re in such a bad place. Please reach out and get the support you need as you need real human contact at this point. A forum can only offer you so much and we are limited in what we can do to help you. Speak to your GP and think about seeing a psychiatrist as you may benefit from certain drugs and/or counselling. You’ve got nothing to lose.

      My health is also appallingly bad right now. I have chronic pain, and around two weeks ago my calcific tendinitis flared up so bad that I couldn’t sleep for over a week. I couldn’t move my arm, at all, and I couldn’t lie on it or do anything. It was horrendous and all they could do for me after waiting 3 hours in A&E was give me tramadol and co-codamol to mask the pain. It didn’t really work too well. Whilst this was taking hold I started getting occipital neuralgia pain on top of it and couldn’t move my neck at all. As if this wasn’t enough, my wisdom tooth started playing up as well, just to add to the misery. My dentist is a friend of mine so I managed to get it looked at straight away and got the antibiotics the same day. He told me that it will probably have to come out at some point if it does it again. As all this is happening, I’ve still got blood in my semen and reduced urine flow, and chest pain from all my surgeries. And of course the grand finale is that I have severe screaming tinnitus on top of all this.

      To be honest, my tinnitus didn’t bother me at all as my brain has only got so much capacity to deal with all these problems, and by far and away the worst thing for me was the pain in my shoulder. Having no sleep is not fun at all.

      I have several appointments with various consultants that all happen to fall at the end of this month. The one for the blood in my semen I’ve been waiting for since December! With all this said, I’m still hanging in there and can see better times ahead. I’ve dealt with shit like this so often in my life that it’s just par for the course to me nowadays and I don’t let it overwhelm me or control me. It is what it is. Life is a rollercoaster and you have to learn to ride the ups and downs. I know it’s cheesy, but you can’t really appreciate the highs in life unless you’ve experienced what it’s like to be in the gutter.

      Nothing beats talking to friends and family or just any person who will listen and truly understand what you’re going through. Never be ashamed to reach out to people as that’s what strong people do.

      Stay strong, buddy.
       
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    30. Bill Bauer
      No Mood

      Bill Bauer Member Hall of Fame

      Tinnitus Since:
      February, 2017
      Cause of Tinnitus:
      Acoustic Trauma
      Have you ever received a cortisone injection for this? Back when my shoulder was in such a state that I couldn't life my arm, a cortisone injection cleared it up within a couple of days. Following that, my shoulder still hurts, but it is a lot more manageable. I can definitely lift my arm now.

      I found that sleeping with an electric heating pad wrapped around my shoulder seems to be helping(!)
       
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