What's the Point? No Matter What I Try to Do, I Will FOREVER Have My Tinnitus and Hyperacusis...

Just stopped in to share the same outrage others feel about this weird inheritance called tinnitus. If it goes down, and most of us know the phantom noise is brain generated, and the brain is largely chemically controlled, why can't brain chemistry be tweaked to damp aberrant neurons that create this false sound...to the level that naturally occurs when tinnitus inexplicably quiets for some of us? Why does T have to zoom back up to its more frenzied state? Surprising this riddle hasn't been solved. I believe we are knocking on the door as talked about in the research forum. I believe that drug will come, but a long time coming.

Be well Glynis and love back for who you are.

 

I try only to wear them if there is too much noise, and it happens a lot...

But I only put one of them (left ear) hours later... I wasn't feeling any discomfort...

 

Yes but just on the left ear and not at the beginning...

But it was not that loud to me... Although I am quite sensitive...

 

These days it is quite difficult to cope with my T and the shit in my life...

Toxic situations with my mother and one of my friend...

 

This spike is killing me. I am wondering whether i have caused more damage.

 

Do you know how you got this spike ?

 

Fire alarm at the library

 

Fuck I am sorry...

We also have very loud fire alarm in my work building and I really hope I will not have to hear that...

 

Fuck I really eat too much sugar...

 

This year I have no choice I have to go to the dentist...

And maybe I need an MRI for my knees...

2 things I am so scared of doing need to be done...

 

Those car brakes are so high-pitched this is so uncomfortable !

 

Why should I take care of myself ???

I will forever have this ringing in my head anyway...

 

Could the dentist use a laser?

There is a chance that you might get used to it and habituate...

 

I don't know for the laser, I haven't taken any appointment yet... I am so scared, I don't know how I would do if my T increases... This is not a life !

How can we be happy if this shit can always increase ???

 

This is my 7 month to T, and I know it's here to stay. I've moved on to do things in life, by reading and staying informed from this forum, now my T is moderate head and I didn't get it from noise so I don't fit most of the poster, but that didn't stop me from getting hints and sound advice. Now, as far as dental I was sacred due to that's how I thought I go T, but I know it from stress now. Anyway, from bill Bauer he explains dental, I am also having the dentist reput on a crown after I made her take off the one previous one that I thought was a botched from a root canal that I got T from, but realized from this site it was high stress not dental that I had going on the same time. I think we both have to take that leap of faith, if I can say that to get the dental done.

 

I guess we could try to savor our current level (all levels, unless the level is severe/debilitating), and enjoy the fact that it is not louder (yet?)...

Check out my dentist experience
https://www.tinnitustalk.com/threads/dentist-laser-vs-ordinary.2791/#post-272983

 

Dwelling on whether it will increase or not simply adds more stress and that itself CAN cause issues. If you try to stay away from loud sounds and just live a routine life, then your baseline should remain. This is not 100% full-proof, but it's the best we can do. Tinnitus in general will not out of the blue, just increase without some reason. As I say in all my posts, MINDSET is the greatest asset that we can have, sharpen it and see just how resilient we truly are as humans

 

It can also motivate him to find a dentist who uses drills that will be safe as far as his T is concerned.

 

The reason could be the sounds one is exposed at the dentist's office. A number of users here got permanent spikes (or got their original T) this way (e.g., Greg Sacramento).

 

Yes that is why I am REALLY scared to go to the dentist...

 

I have a spike in my left ear... The high-pitch is stronger...

But I know I eat too much sugar... Very hard for me to calm down with sugar...

 

Damn Spike !

 

I want to do many things to improve my life but in my head it is always the same : "What for ???"

 

@Cristophe_85,
Sorry your having a spike but try do what you can when you feel up to it to make small changes that you want to do and will give you a boost...
love glynis

 

Thank you Glynis...

These days I have a Spike in my T and H...

You are right, I try to do small things to help me in Life but this is very difficult to keep a positive attitude with this condition...

 

@Cristophe_85,
I totally understand and suffer greatly also and do get down times.
love glynis

 

Hi there-

Thought I would share a personal story - it is purely my journey with no assumptions nor implications about anybody else.

As someone who has T+H, a full 14 months now, I empathize with the inner challenges that you share. Oh I went deaf in my left ear too; no way to even play a sound through the ear to mask the T. As I write this, I have a headache inside my head where my H is, behind the ear; T is screaming pretty loud if I focus on it....if I focus on it.

One of the gifts I got from my circumstances, was the necessity to truly be honest with myself about who I am, and how I show up each day. I liked to think of myself of someone who seized the day; like someone who crushes the days and does so due to a strength of character that set me apart from the herd. A little biased. Yet in the tempest of my realization of what had happened to me, I was broken. I went into a dark place....questioning myself to the core. Maybe I wasnt crushing it after all? Maybe I just liked the idea of being mentally tough when in reality when the challenges begin, instead of stepping up to the plate, the reality is I would do whatever I could to escape. A fruitful facade that had me living a series of lies for a long time.

And there I found myself, staring at the face in the mirror, forced to accept that there was no escaping this challenge; not this time. I have no shame in sharing as a man, a father and husband, tears streaming my face, grief deep in my heart for the life I had lost, I wanted to crawl into the shadows somewhere, and just sleep - at that time sleep had eluded me since the T began.

And so there I was - with a decision I had to make, or rather a question I had to answer - what do I need to do to get my life back on track? What small changes do I need to make, no matter how difficult, must I embrace with nothing but discipline and grit in my heart? What the f!!! must I do to overcome this experience and become the man I always dreamed of being? And to be clear, I was a 40 year old boy....and life just got real....and that was the gift inside the challenge.

In the words of Garrett White, I had to Tell.The.F!!!ing.Truth to myself about who I am. And that process not only helped me grow as a human being, but it allowed me to reshape how I show up in the world. And what has this to do with T or H? E.V.E.R.Y.T.H.I.N.G. Since this is a very personal experience, within ones own mind, the battle is not with the outside world, but within. I appreciate the very deep challenges people go through with T and I do not intend to disrespect them. For me this is how it was; I understood for me I had to tear myself down and rebuild myself back up mentally....and so thats what I did, and that was far harder than my T+H.

This past 14 months have been a roller-coaster too; dealing with my attitude, my psychology as well as show up in the world hurting from my T+H hasnt been easy. 439 days on from my initial incident that changed the trajectory of my life forever, I have managed to do ok. I have the journey ahead of me; I have the past experiences within me. The greatest thing I believe I did was work on my psychology, as this has helped with the tough times, but more importantly helped me habituate fast and forget my condition. Everyday it is with me, and when the H is bad its bad. Yet in the past 14 months I have been promoted 3 times at work, and the future looks pretty cool. I could never have perceived this that day I was alone with Me in front of that mirror....and still I got to the other side.

I sincerely wish you greatness in your future Christophe. If I had to offer one suggestion, without forgetting how subjectively bad this condition is, find yourself questions you can ask yourself that light you up like a super-f!*#ng-nova inside, and have you stepping beyond your moments of challenge and into the next moments of your life being whoever you want to be, T+H alongside you to enjoy the ride.

All the best,

MF

 

The more Life goes on, the more I find Music can be so magical, beautiful...

And on the other side, it makes me sad because I am affraid that with time I will not be able to listen to it !

 

Music is beautiful and can be medicine for the soul @Christophe_85 Try not be so negative as it can prevent you enjoying life....

Michael

 

Thank you Michael for your message !

In fact, I try to put Music not too loud, and sometimes even very low...