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Missing another one of my kids school events. Breaks my heart.
Seems like the tinnitus is really flaring up now and mostly on the ear i hit with the rake. Im feeling very low at the moment and sad, im really struggling to find the tools how to make progress with both H and T that keeps spiking and i would say in the last 2 months it got like 20 % louder. 
Think I got a new "pure tone" in my left ear... its relatively low atm, I don't hear it all the time and is maskable unlike all the others but is definitely new... ugh... Even avoiding everything and protecting my ears... Trying to not feel doomed. My right ear on the other hand seems to be doing better than it was, but still loud. The "hum" is still very hard to deal with.
Urk im so clumsy. Was out in the shed with earmuffs to remove all the leafs that blow in during the winter. Stepped on a rake that went up with full force and hit my earmuff... Little bit panicky now since it was very loud on the plastic but hope it will not make a spike.
A door slammed on my finger on the 14th of last month and it's healing better, i guess? It's still stiff and swollen but it doesn't hurt when I move it (much) hopefully it heals completely this month. I've been avoiding using it unnecessarily and have been splinting it, along with moving it a bit for light exercise.
I also bit into an apple earlier today and my right TMJ hasn't stopped hurting. My facial muscles have been spasming alot more lately too and it's painful, and odd looking. I'd hate if anyone were to see me like this, because my facial expressions look funny. I'm not purposely making a face at anyone, my facial muscles (in my cheeks and jaw) do what they want without my control...but damn it hurts.
It's been more than a year and I am back here. I don't really have good news, just the same pain and T symptoms like before, just kind of worse. I honestly don't know what's wrong with me, but I still crave for my old normal where constant pain was never in the scope of my reality. I have a follow up appointment with my physical therapy doctor tomorrow.
Back once again. I write this to myself as a reminder as well: NEVER GO INTO ANY LOUD PLACES, EVEN WITH EARPLUGS! I've been doing so well for past 2 years. My T&H were basically gone, I found new joy in life. But, because I just wanted to be with my friends just for ONCE before we graduate, it's all gone in few alcohol induced hours. A terrible spike going on. I even had my earplugs on all the time.
T still raging but my mood has stabilised. I'm by no means happy, but at least I'm avoiding the deep pits of despair I was feeling before. Except when I try to listen to music - that really gets me down.
mine is caused by prednisolone which i used to avoid tinnitus i was so mild why? is it because of my veins?
Man im so frustrated. We got these old doors at my work that are "hard to close". You need to close it and then push very hard for it to stay closed. My IDIOT college was closing the door right next to me but instead of doing it the right way he takes and close it by just smashing it shut super hard creating a superloud BAM, i wasnt looking since i was talking to someone else. Anxiety is thru the roof!
My tinnitus has been elavated for like 3-4 weeks now and i cant really find why it got louder. Ive had some misshapps happening but nothing extreme. i also feel a little bit "clogged" in my right ear where the spike is happening. Im getting less and less anxiety over "loud stuff" thats happening so thats good!
I find it difficult to put into words how much I hate this horrible disease. My hate for tinnitus is deep and all-consuming. It has stolen so much life from me and I will never recover from that loss and pain. Never.
I took vitamin D everyday for about 2 weeks. My tinnitus worsened around this time. Does vitamin D affect your tinnitus?
Having a little spike today (6months in) but on the whole my t is much quieter and I cling on to that