Tryn2BHopeful

I should look at the positives here... small victories right... T Volume is shitty today but maybe it will get better tomorrow.
I was able to go to both my kids football games this weekend.
I was able to listen to the radio in the car on low volume.
I am still employed.
I still have my family. I wish they would listen, but hey small victories.
I haven't driven off a bridge.

@Mo8409 Not yet.

Lots of positives. It could be so much worse even though it's hard to imagine.

It's all good!

I'm from Detroit, does that help?

@Mo8409 detroit is basically canada tho.. lol

Mr. T can kick rocks! Life goes on and T wants the spotlight.

I took 3 mg and no sleep!

@4Grace I should have mentioned that bc it binds to H1 receptors, you can still have some non-tinnitus related withdrawal symptoms if you take it long enough. Mainly itchy skin. So be aware of that.

@kingsfan thank you for taking the time. I feel like I need something to get me through some times. The Med helps me a lot. My personality fights me being on a med.

Same. Back from a football game so it's buzzing a little more than usual. You?

@Tryn2BHopeful Same. I'm noticing the reactivity getting slightly better so that's a plus.

I believe T, at least in my case, may have melted away the original worries because most of my other personal problems are meaningless when compared to T. Does not mean that the other issues went away. What makes it frustrating is that the nature of it makes it seem like such a small problem. Just mind over matter. Obviously it’s a bit more complicated but I really do think you can do it. It will just take some time.

Depends what you are looking for... therapy, maskers, or benzos? Those are pretty much the only options.

@kingsfan Not sure of what I was looking for, guidance I guess. All I got was deal with it from so called Tinnitus specialist. I don't even know what would help in my case. I try "sound therapy" which consist of me playing sound on my cell phone and it just seems to aggravate the situation more.

Its all good. I am glad you are finding some "moments of happy" Take them for all they are worth!

I agree but also find the site very helpful

@Tryn2BHopeful - you are an incredible human being. Honest. I know you will be okay. Tomorrow is a new day. With everything you have going on you always take the time to reach out to others. You have so many positive posts. You recently came off a low dose of Mirtazapine. Maybe that could be making things a little worse for now but it will pass. Thinking of you and hope you feel better soon.

Same. But we got to keep holding onto hope for better days ahead. You never know!

yeah. Today was my day. Take it easy. *bro-hug*

I think going to all the different doctors gives us hope and something to look forward to. Makes us feel, at the very least, that we are being proactive in attempting to find anything that may help. Even if just a better understanding of our specific condition. Same garbage place after place is correct. We have to keep trying until we make peace with this beast.

its a one size fits all approach...

Or more like a one size fits none :)

Literally me every single day. Hang in there!

So many times I hoped this was nothing but a bad nightmare. You are so very kind and really do live up to your user name. You always sound hopeful. I truly think you can beat this based on all your posts. Today you may feel tired, but that’s just today. As you mentioned everyone of us is on our joinery.

@Ryan Scott acoustic reflex test

That sounds disappointing. Was there any specific treatment that you were hoping to get? And do you have other major appointments in the coming times?

@jimvee I honestly dont know what I was expecting, a game plan, an idea of how to manage this monster in my head. TRT? CBT? Some confirmation on if I have damaged the actual auditory system since this seems to be med induced.

Happy Birthday

These moments make this worth enduring.

HAPPY BIRTHDAY!!!!

@SilverFox I do the same thing.

I do this every day. It's like living in a dream or involuntarily being a character in a David Lynch movie. Or a parallel universe. I guess we all are still traumatized and in shock by all this.

@Juliane I suppose at some point I will be like the woman I work with. I just won't remember it being another way. Atm however how, when and what happened are very fresh in my memory. It just hurts in a way I never expected.

I think it helped me sleep better in the beginning. I am not sure if the idea of having some sort of control or the actual medication made it seem like I was able to cope better. The first few weeks I was a wreck. I was mad, upset, depressed. I still have my days but they are not as many. Generally I am just annoyed at this point.

Generally speaking I think it got me out of a potentially horrible place. If there had been a button to just end it I might of. I now realize that was pretty premature, but I was already in a bad place from all the shit I had going on prior. T makes that all seem pretty trivial now.

That’s what’s holding me. Mine is different. Food drink everything

@Mo8409 well it's better than the alternative!

@Mo8409 Sorry! It actually got stuck in my head for a while too. lol. Stupid brains. Hear the right things, dammit!

@Tryn2BHopeful Yep. Too may trees up here. Constant fire hazard. Really need to get rid of some of them.

Yours as well @4Grace

Thank you - not sure why but not clear

@4Grace mine wasnt clear on my phone but is on my PC

Those father-son shirts are epic.

I agree! So lovely to see pictures of some of you wonderful people :-)

@WCJohn haha yeah we do that every year on vacation since he was little. It was more of a joke to start with. We just go to a fancy restaurant with them on. =P

I have to plug my ears when those things come out

I so understand the emotions behind this post.

@WCJohn ah yes... the walkman... I am gonna guess his was noise induced...

@Tryn2BHopeful - she said it was going to take some time. I do think it’s possible. I dream of a day that now seems impossible. Imagine it’s there and does not bother you much. I can see it,… but not really…. I can see it …. but not really, .. I can see it, but not really,… I can see it!

@4Grace We gotta have confidence. We are gonna get there. These beautiful pictures of our families are all the motivation we need.

Maybe you have distorted hearing? Like a soundwave processing error, rather than an entirely separate phantom noise.

@WCJohn Maybe... everything sounds normal outside of the extra noise on top of it.

Thanks for all your responses.

Other notes were to not over protect. To use the resound app about 1 hour a day at various times with some comfortable sounds. I kinda knew all this already.

@Mo8409 my wife giggled at that a little bit

Hi-yo!

send that money to a charity instead ... or to tinnitus research. better use for the moneyz

@Ben Winders This will likely be my last attempt. I dont like the the idea of sitting around waiting for a miracle.. but I might have to. I know that TRT and CBT wont fix my problem, but maybe they could help me atleast cope with it. World isn't stopping just because I have T so I gotta do something.

Best of luck.

It will one day be okay. Tell Mr. T to kick rocks.

I would like to evict Mr. T from my head.

WIN!

This..

Hang in there.