Please Create Your Success Story Instead of Just Leaving

Bullshit. I used to love silence. It's how I would relax. Sure an anechoic chamber is a bit extreme and you would start hearing your bodily functions more, but I would hear zero ringing in such a place before my ears were damaged.

I vividly remember my last time enjoying silence before getting tinnitus: it had just snowed heavily, and for whatever reason I decided to go for a walk at 11:00pm in the snow. No cars on the road, the only sound was the sound of my breath and the sound of my feet in the soft snow. Snow absorbs sound so it makes it much more quiet after a fresh snow. I would seek out places like those, silence was my sanctuary.

 

This is a truly lovely descriptive, Alue. I have many such memories.

 

Hmm, I dunno. I grew up on about the quietest place on earth (maybe why I hate tinnitus) and I don't remember ever hearing any kind of noise in my ears pre tinnitus even in the very very quietest atmospheres.

 

Oh yes...Snow at night makes the whole world so wonderfully peaceful. No cars, no kids and no sound bouncing around...just deadened snowy bliss...oh and the unfortunate wasp in my head Its still a special moment and I am damned if anything will take it away. Beautiful thoughts @Alue

 

Sirhand, just add it to the list of “I wish I were young again” laments — and move on. Surely you’ve improved in some ways, even if you’ve lost “silence.”

 

I'm doing fine, I'm habituated. But yeah, silence is definitely a thing that I loved more than most people. I've always treasured how sensitive my ears got at night. I loved how any little noise would half-wake me up. It sounds strange I know but I loved it. If it would rain I would wake up and enjoy that sound and enjoy falling asleep again a minute later.
The only upside to getting tinnitus is sounds that used to annoy my are now trivial in comparison.

 

Have people really commited suicide from tinnitus? I know I thought I felt suicidal, briefly at first. The vast majority of the time now I just can make it bug me. It like even now, its vague fridge like electrical hum, its the sound of the air. Its weird, I've forgotten how much it used to bug me. I didnt sleep with out zopiclone for a whole month after.

 

Yes, they have. Tinnitus, especially in combination with pain hyperacusis, can be very debilitating. Look up Gaby Olthuis from the Netherlands, she was allowed euthanasia. You asking this question shows how little the world knows about tinnitus... And you even have it yourself. I'm not sure you know how loud tinnitus can be and that it can stay on that level...

 

https://www.tinnitustalk.com/threads/the-story-of-gaby-olthuis.4381/

https://www.tinnitustalk.com/thread...lled-himself-waiting-to-go-to-dignitas.24232/

https://www.tinnitustalk.com/thread...old-there-was-no-cure-for-his-tinnitus.12272/

https://www.tinnitustalk.com/thread...when-he-developed-tinnitus.12513/#post-153308

I remember reading about more cases, but I can't easily find the links.

Does anyone know - did @Danny Boy commit suicide?

 

Yes, Bill, sadly he did. From what others have said he had other problems however. By all accounts he was a very kind and helpful member and I was glad to see the money raised in his name.

 

How do you know?

 

I think one of the forum members used Facebook to get in touch with his family.

 

Because his parents notified the community of his suicide? As for him being a good person... Who knows for sure

 

I am going by posts I saw on the forum from members who appeared to know him well.

 

I didn't know it was suicide. I thought the family notified the community of his death.

 

Thanks for the answer @Markku. I was wondering about his death a long time. To me he wasn't the kind of guy to take his own life.

 

You're a jerk regardless. Everytime I see your posts I am reminded that your tinnitus has faded significantly and I hate you a little more.

 

At least he died in his sleep...

 

I'm sorry I'll listen to some loud music right now.

 

That's more like it!

 

I originally wrote my success story when I started to adjust to my T back in 2015. I decided to take a leave from the forum and focus a bit more on my getting my life back on track.

I do think that it's important to post these success stories, as they do serve as a great source of strength for people who are looking some in their time of need. I can certainly attest to reading "Darkness into Light" many times over when I needed an extra boost in my own time of need .

Overall since my success story, I've been doing really great. I completed my schooling, had the opportunity to work a couple dream jobs in my field, and have a more active social life now. I still have my good days and my bad days, but the bad days seem to be less. Recently, I dealt with a bit of a bump in the road with a spike, but overall it seems to be a bit better now.

If there's one thing that I've learned, is that you need to do "what's comfortable for you in regards to protection". Also, there is no guide book for this, and we are all learning and adapting the best we can. Bumps in the road will happen, and you just have to try and manage and move forward the best you can.

No one has all the answers, especially with these conditions. The best we can do is try and support each other and push for more research to help develop more treatments for T and H in the future .

 

I had no idea. I'm afraid I was going by lots of posts I had read on here previously. It is very tragic either way.

 

amen to this, it's not total silence. it's about being able to enjoy minimal ambient noises in quiet and just relax.


Having abnormal electronic noises preceived in your ears and head is a totally different concept from that. TRT shills are still milking this argument of the silent chamber being the same.

 

Yup. Shrieking inside of your head is absolutely nothing like a bit of passing rustling wind. Why is this even a discussion.
TRTers straw manning AF.

 

German 'tinnitus clinics' will tell you that "Tinnitus is never louder than the sound of a leaf falling to the ground" because they believe that most people's tinnitus is only 15db... even if that's true, there's a difference between having 15db right in your head/ears and hearing a leaf fall to the ground. Hope they all get some karma for the damage they're doing to actual sufferers.

 

"Somebody bumping into you doesn't harm you, so a train running you over won't make any difference either"
- literally TRTers' argument
Not only straw man. I don't even know what this one is called?

 

Yup. And pitch makes a ALL the difference too!! (at least for me)
And, I have some bad news. I don't think it's just Germany...but I get it, you may be speaking from experience.
I'm sorry you had to deal with that BS, on top of everything else of course!!

 

My audiologist here in Denmark told me something alike: that tinnitus is only measured(?) at about 9-13 db, and it can't get worse........There was other stuff that made me stop going to her after only a couple of visits, but that was a really significant reason.

 

"Tinnitus never gets louder than a leaf hitting the ground, the leaf just hits the ground closer."