Realising the hearing regeneration I'd pinned my hopes on probably isn't going to be suitable for me is really crushing me right now... The hearing loss isn't even really an issue, I just want the tinnitus & hyperacusis gone so I can go to the shops without ear plugs. A life of solitude & suffering is no life at all.
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No longer able to sleep over 3 hours even on benzos. T is too intrusive and h causes every noise to jolt me awake. Nox is off and on I guess.
Accidentally messed up my benzo cross taper and was taking way too little. Went up to almost the correct dose but it isn't working.
Accidentally messed up my benzo cross taper and was taking way too little. Went up to almost the correct dose but it isn't working.
Tinnitus sucks!!! I just want to be able to make music again and enjoy life.
The thing i struggle with the most are meetings lately. Today i hade a 3 hour meeting with 4 persons in a small room of like 3X3 metres. One person talked SO loudly (was 82 DB on the phone when he was talking). I endured 1 hour before i just had to ask for a bathroom break and came back with earplugs inserted. Should have inserted them straight away but had no clue it was that loud.
We also had mold issues in our bedrooms, and the two times it happened, my tinnitus lessened a lot after clearing the mold.
Since last November, I've been having more and longer periods where my T is predominantly a hiss. Although it's also reactive, the intensity of neck and jaw pain I have is directly related to the loudness and nature of my T.
Okay explain this one... past couple of days my bad ear seems to be losing hearing, or at least the hyperacusis is quickly dying down, but my droning tinnitus tone is simultaneously getting quieter with it?
I had a literal air raid siren & cacophony of squealing brakes 5 months ago, the hell is going on in there.
I had a literal air raid siren & cacophony of squealing brakes 5 months ago, the hell is going on in there.
Sometimes i miss silence, take care of you ears kids
hope is the mother of fools
Ears are so sensitive. Every car that drives by causes a squeak or a reaction in tinnitus. Can't get away from the cars. Some pain around ear.
Almost 3 years with this now, time sure flies.
I still haven't dared to sleep without my masking.
Thinking about my future is depressing... Will I make it 1, 2, 5 years? I am still feeling the latest set back more than ever, persistent humming, higher hissing, ear discomfort and sensitivity... Guess I am cooked....
@Lipshitz how are you? I sent you a message March the 8th. I get on here more often now to see how everyone is doing.
I need a wife with tinnitus.
I miss when you was little, no trouble and life was good 
Rereading my old posts from years ago made me shed a tear. After losing my hearing aids a lot of old fears and memories came back. I almost forgot how hopeless and dark it used to be. I don't think people understand how traumatic going through something like this can be. Wishing everyone else on here an upward process, perseverance and hope for the future.
Ugh. Nursing a spike. LOUD motorcycle drove close to me. I am so mad at myself for being nearby. I am feeling very frustrated.
Doctors are not helping me for my problem with spasm in ear 
happy that a fan and magnesium work alittle atleast
happy that a fan and magnesium work alittle atleast