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I had TMJ botox done 1 month ago and I'm so glad I did it. T is still here, but migraines and TMJ pain are gone!
Hopefully last night in the hospital. I can't wait to go back home and sleep in my bed with my cat
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I also think I'm starting to develop an outer ear infection because of the constant protection. Good thing I'm already under antibiotics but it's stressing me out
kingsfan
Could just be irritation. It happens to me a lot.
Over a month and my head still feels like I've been in a boxing match and I have slight nausea whenever I talk. How on earth can being few hours in bar/club with earplugs cause this much harm??!
Hi. How did you get your reactivity and pain to fans and digital audio to go away? Did you just wait it out? Did you use any meds? Did you stay in quiet?
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It took me 5 years for it to go away. I stopped using headphones, avoided loud places, but otherwise lived normally.
Had a complete mental breakdown today. Sobbing like child, my T suddenly exploded in my ear. Today i was convinced that my body wanted to drive me insane and to commit suicide. Now i am really tired and exhausted.
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Rest as much as you can. After my latest spike, I've slept so much more during daytime. Crying is allowed. Being angry too. Just don't give up.
DamagedJoe
It is just hell. I feel that i have already given up. I just know that i will never improve.
I think I've habituated to this new level of T. I've been neutral or happy more often than I've been down the last 3 weeks. I went away to see my parents and that was good for my mental health.

T is as loud as it was but I feel emotionally detached from it most of the time. At night it threatens to throw me into despair but I've managed to keep it at bay
Everything was going OK at the hospital until I was put in a room with someone hooked to various extremely loud beeping machines. I got blasted with high pitched pure tones and my tinnitus is not liking that
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can you wear earplugs?
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@tobyharrixon fortunately I can. I wore them for almost 48 hours straight though so my ears are getting sore... But today was a quiet day, I did fine with just ear defenders
Static sound in my left ear is annoying as hell. I'm going to try to make an appointment with a well qualified doctor in Sioux Falls S.D. tomorrow.
I have hard time forgiving myself for what I did. I was basically cured. Then I do something so stupid, and go to a club. I had earplugs on but damage is done. I've not had this kind of feeling since year 1 when I got this condition.
Tryn2BHopeful
Feeling the same way. I was doing well, until one thing in December for my daughter that I thought was fine. Worse than ever. Trying to forgive myself has been hard. I keep hope that things will calm down eventually.
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@angel223 I didn't notice my T anymore. I really had to concentrate to heat it, I was doing that well. But it took 6 years. I was doing really well.
Ken219
You have learned and taught others do not attend loud events even with ear protection! You habituated before now do it again. I'm in a spike lets ride it out together.
Currently hospitalised because I have air around my heart. They have to put me on penicilin and I'm SCARED. No choice if I don't want to die though
kingsfan
penicilin should be safe
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I did an entire course of penicillin and it didn't touch my T one iota.
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@kingsfan @Watasha thanks for the reinsurance ! I'm on my 6th iv bag so far and 0 change :)
Good news! My finger healed! :D
(It's been so long since something of mine became injured AND THEN healed completely T_T Maybe it's possible for more of me to heal...)
Paracetamol seems to make my T lower in volume, and caffeine makes it louder. My guess is that there is something physical going on inside my ear.
PART 2
*rotating my head from side to side=SPIKES
*turning my neck to bring your ear to your shoulder=SPIKES
*bending my neck forward to bring your chin to your chest=SPIKES
*Ive always been able to make me ear scream by pressing right behind my ear on the "bony part". Just a coincidence that the SCM attaches right there? Might be a eartrauma combined with muscles in my case maybe?
Very intressting
PART 1 Today i found a very intressting article. I read this article and EVERY movement from the SCM spike my tinnitus while im doing it. I do have an old whiplash injury and i sit ALOT at the computer. This might explain why i get 2-3 weeeks of a spike when i try stretch my neck.
I accidentally listened to the coil whine on my monitor while looking for the source of some noise I was hearing and now I have this awful new tinnitus sound. It's been 24h. Scared I gave myself a new permanent sound...
Nes
False alarm, it's gone after a good night of sleep!
PART 2 (see part 1 below) Was only for like 0,5-1 second but it was like someone stabbed my ear. Pretty sure i got an instant spike because of it.
MindOverMatter
I think you are doing yourself a big favour, not in a positive way, to assume instant spikes and thinking "worst case" with every incident. Its the constant fight of flight loop you need to break. Thats the first step to "healing" and moving forward.
Sodlin
Normally i can handle "medium high" sounds and brush them of or forget about them in like 1-2 hours but this sound instantly sent me into panic mode (which dosent happen THAT much anymore, maybe once each month). It was more the frequency and the pain in my ear that made this more then the Decibel. If it was 90-95 DB of a normal random sound i would probably not have bothered that much. I do agree with you tho.
PART 1 Was watching a video about sound treatment in a room and i went into a calculator to see what HZ are being generated with certain room sizes. Didnt knew it actually played the sound when the mouse pointer howered over the Hertz icons so my computer speaker that generally are 50- 60 DB Screached out around 90-95 DB of the most unbearable sound ive ever heard.
I think am experiencing my first spike after a visit at a bar with an avg of 68db. Feeling drained and defeated. I am so fed up.
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I feel you. Normal life is not available to us anymore. Silent forests are our new best places to spend time in...
DamagedJoe
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That was the db level. I was so naive again an thought my ears could handle it. Is it enough to further damage my hearing? I got new tones....